i've decided. if i fail to meet the basic criteria for passing the promos, i will withdraw from college. not going to repeat year one again. no way. enough of jc already. i'll find somewhere else to go to. yups. so now let's just wait and see...

finally it's over. been waiting for this day to come for so so long. big relief that it's ended. think the promos is so so so much worse than going in for the o levels. seriously. only wondering if it's enough to pass the promos. math is so dead. scared. don't know what's going to happen for that. if fail... whoa... really will cry la. the only subject i bothered to redo all the tutorials for. do until want to cry la. bio hope can pass ba. chem is gone. totally gone. don't bother. i think it's like confirm plus gurantee plus chop fail. kaoz. sigh. what happened what happened. best subj. worst results. sigh. chem... cham ar. how how how... -wails- i like chem. why didn't i really study for it. kaoz. sigh. physics hope can pass ba... hope... seemed doable. not too bad for someone who only studied the night before. but never passed physics before la. so er. a bit the quite uncertain of anything also. sigh. so tempted to drop it. see how ba. scarly gp also fail. that one cham. horrible la. think will be worse than jct. mmm. chinese confirm fail. don't even need to try the paper. really confirm fail... mmm. quite screwed. see how ba... for now... other stuff to do ba. and want to go out! haha... yeah. ahh.. please pass me for the promos.. =/ ahaha.. how i wish...

been quite awhile. a lot stuff's been happening i suppose. but no time to actually sit down and reflect about it. sigh. promos right at my doorstep now. really scared. so afraid it'd be a repeat of the jcts again. can't let it happen again. if only i had really really started mugging 10 weeks ago like they told me too. just couldn't sustain it. my fault. promos starting tmr already but i still feel so unsure of everything and just so lousy. feel as if i really don't know much of my syllabus at all. tell me why i stuck with all four subjects. why didn't i just drop one when i had the chance to. sigh. it's all too late now. past week or so been staying back in school until 8 plus to study. last minute pia-ing. so unsure if it'd work. realised i've only been focusing on passing math. redid almost all my tutorials since the start of the year. really want to cry la. if i fail math or get worse than a d.. i'll seriously cry. sigh. other three subjects how now? my promos timetable is horrible la. all my subjs cramped into a few days. i'll be one of the earliest to end the promos. sigh. oh the horrors. how how how.. my three sciences. so much to study for and really so so little time. sigh. this is so aimless. came into tj wanting to take two s pprs. now it's a struggle just to pass this examination. why did i allow this to happen. sigh... too late for changes. now just all regrets. sigh. my three sciences! gone gone gone... sighhh