sigh. wanted to go for a jog today. but knee and thighs way too sore from yesterday's physio =/ die la. like that carry on... later the road run route itself also cannot finish. cham. =/ how now. sighhh

went back to ij yesterday. mass was the usual. except that er i was sitting next to this bunch of super noisy and crazy ij pple. seriously crazy la. they started barking in the middle on nowhere. scream in the middle of no where and kaoz. it's non stop. nearly died. so left before the entire celebrations ended to go explore the new school. the infrastructure is weird. and confusing. i swear if i had moved along with this sch to tpy... i'd be lost around the sch and the pri sch for a week. everything looks the same. gross colours though. so purple. stick to blue and white la. ij what. hmm. but they've a nice fitness corner. lousy tracks. er. ball court's quite nice. hey most of my bball jnrs appealed into aj. so they're all there. sigh. oh well. hmm yeah. anyway the school's changed so much. only certain small areas here and there that they preserved. even so it's changed quite a fair bit as well. so sad. the feeling of going back to your secondary and primary school with practically no memories cos it's just so so different. =/ oh well. sad. won't be visiting much anymore i suppose. not much of a point...

okay... weird day. haha. reached tpy at 9 plus.. wanted to print a photo. so went to the digital thing to place my order. then got this slip of paper. was wondering if i needed to show it to the guy at the counter at the other side. since he was busy and the piece of paper said bring this slip of paper along with you, i happily presumed that it meant bring it along with you when you want to collect the photo. so okay... i went to bk to kill time i little. looked at differential equations tutorial. got super bored after awhile because i just couldn't seem to solve much stuff. so i decided to read the reciept again. then shit. realised that i was indeed supposed to show the person at the counter the piece of paper. after half an hour. not bad. heh. then gave it and paid up. nothing to do so got myself a milkshake and went shopping around. couldn't find what i wanted. so went to another level and back down. the photo thing slipped off my mind. so i took the first bus from the interchange that goes to my home. after getting on it... was keeping my wallet... when it hit me that the reason why i took so long to set off for home was for the photo. so stopped that the next stop and brisk-walk/ran to the shop cos it was approaching the due time. kaoz. haha. rubbish la. i forgot so many things within such a short period of time =/ cham. haha. anyway i managed to get my tuck in shirt! hahaha. =) finally. haha... good good. yay =) arggh a bit the super lag on tutorials and lectures though. need to catch up. rarrrhhh. a lot a lot! =( helppp... but i can do it right? sigh. i hope so.

just got back from cg outing. not bad la. for once everyone's there. someone told me that my class is finally showing some sign of er unity after a year. hmm. yeah. interesting. not bad la. play with the charcol set fire keep fire er attempt to cook food. got nice thing in the playground. nice fo fly here and there. eh yeah. not bad la actually. eh. was talking for awhile. then someone asked me where i lived. said tpy. then that person was like oh that's far. why didn't you try nj instead? hmm. omg la. that struck me again. i don't know why. everytime someone asks me that question.... sigh... some form of regret. something i'll regret for a long time to come i suppose =( then the same person was like... wow then how do you do it? hc and all... and having to be so enthu all the time... haha. that's a good question. well i just have to. not much of a choice anymore is it? heh. sometimes i still wonder how it'd be like in nj. oh crap. don't think so much. like i always say only a few months and i'll be free. no point regretting again. nothing will change. sigh. anyway tmr's the house function thing. got all the logistics done today. the oac stuff and the pe dept stuff. rarh. mr ng is nice though. sigh. then there was records meeting also. last minute. good. then apparently there's anothe meeting tmr morning too. wow. er. like a bit more than 12 hours in advance only. good. very powerful. so last minute la. everything is like so luan now. sigh. think records is a horrible comm to be in. why couldn't i have stalls or something else =( oh well. sigh. die la. records until cny. after cny i still won't be freed of cny. need to compile and do the book ofo records. very powerful. =( math tutor's going very fast. treating us like some great class. always doing s ppr stuff and making us do questions on the spot. sigh. so dead. there's a reason why i'm not taking math s ppr or even f math. i can't do it. really. i can't. i can't even catch up for math at all la. die. =( can i give up now. can i take back physics and drop math? it's really better that way. sigh. packed week. running around again. rarrrhhh.. a few more months. a few more months and i can leave this school. yes! sigh. i can do this... i can... -starts psychoing myself again-

sigh. somehow i think it's happening again. beginning to lag behind again. playing the catch up game big time again. too tired to do tutorials. too tired to stay awake during tutorials or lectures. completely lost as to what's going on during the lecture. rushing from one place to another. rushing for like two to three concurrently running or one after another meetings. oh no. that one still okay. i'll survive. but academics wise. hmmm... really need to do something about it already. i'm sure it's do-able. i'm sure it's cope-able. just haven't found the right way to do it i suppose. but it's a lot better than last year already. rarrhh. just don't like the feeling of catching up all the time.. but oh well. no choice right. somehow have to balance the now's work with catching up. haha. maybe that's really what my now-free periods are for =) time management? maybe that's what i quite lack now. need to start planning liao. okie. shall go off... 5 gp articles to finish by tmr to be handed in. =( study... this year have to study liao... i can do this =)

hmm. orientation's over. so is pt day. haha. don't know what to say. er. actually couldn't wait for orientation to be over. so tiring having to sleep past midnight and then wake up around five each morning and still having to try to be so enthu for the orientation. oh well. but in the end... it was worth it ba. love the pple i had and the pple i worked with. haha. didn't know the ogr so sai kang one. was super shocked when i suddenly recieved three cgs instead of two somemore. 2,6, 34... but... had great ogls to help me out... they rock la. ogms also. esp the class i took. pretty enthu. rocks. really nice pple. =) suntec mass dance rocked. seriously had fun that night. last day of orientation was a blast too! went to marina square for lunch and bowling. haha. first ball was a strike. so cool. and i don't even know how to hold the ball. haha. interesting. quite fun. o night was pretty interesting too. so many performances and bands. hahaha. but aiya mass dance still rocks the most! woo hoo... haha... oh og2-zephyr rocks. and most importantly azurous rocks....
pple say we're the best! who say you say i say... who say you say i say... haha. love that cheer =) hope the beta spirit will carry on in them ba. =) oh and arvin was such a great clan leader la. seriously. haha. the year ones agreed as well =) let's hope they continue to support all beta functions ba. =)

hmm pt day yesterday... after o night. not that bad ba. glad everyone did it together.. yups. we managed to achieve what we ourselves percieved relatively crazy and impossible at the beginning. sigh. though yesterday alsoo highlighted some problems we have in our team. we all know what it is la. something that'd happen sooner or later anyway. sigh. really hope this thing will be solved before the year ones come in- which is very soon. don't want them to see any loopholes in our team at all. oh well. anyway so lucky to have such a great team... hope our orientation camp'd be nice and fun. haha... there are ijtp pple coming for it! woo hoo =D yeah manz. =)

oh well. tests coming up also. don't know when. very soon i'm sure. don't know haven't checked. cham. time to start studying and doing my homework. haha. please let this year be a good one =)

school is reopening. orientation tmr. going to be such a long day. such a long week. such a long year. sigh. nevermind. this is the start of something new. i can do this. i believe i can. i can i must and i will do it.

okay. happy new year. 2006 is here. just came back awhile ago from carol's party. rocks. thanks! haha... hmm... right now really don't know whether to be glad or to be sad about it. oh no. starting to think about everything again. definately wished 2005'd be over but so do not wish for 2006 to be here. like what jess and me agreed we'd go back to the o level times any time. and we both so cannot wait for this year to be over so that we can jump out of our jcs. ha. may 2006 pass quickly. but pass er well? haha. made so so many mistakes last year. mistake for me to play with my choices to end up in a school that was never my choice. greater mistake to stay in it after that and everything else... ha. i'll win the top prize for the most mistakes made in a year. woo hoo? sigh.

going in to 2006... so much is going to change. seriously. going in to year two now. oh man. we're taking charge of stuff already. and soon we'll be handling year ones. first meeting them at orientation. omg. just months ago we were the very people undergoing the orientation. now it's us holding it for the next batch. sigh. going in with three subjs now instead of four. hope it was the right choice. hope that'd free me up. hope i somehow can miraculously cope academically and all. sigh. i dunno. somehow i can't get the thought off my mind that this is going to be hell of a hard year. sigh. maybe i just don't know how to get past it? sigh. starting this year alone now. ha. no one's around i mean. er. yeah. sigh. okay. haha. i'm just repeating and repeating myself right now. too tired. too much to drink also maybe. really need to sit down and think about everything ba i suppose. set new year's resolutions for once. and follow whatever resolutions i come out with. prioritise everything and set things straight. i can do this. i must and i will. rarrrhhh... but first. shit. finish my holiday homework la. cham. haha. sigh. need to finish my holiday homework. need to finish my holiday homework. need to finish my holiday homework.