hmmm. last day of hc nominations for the year ones le. haha. still remember... a year ago... kept doing everythign to aviod the hc booths. like purposely taking longer paths to the canteen and all. haha. was so afraid that i'll never be able to juggle it with oac. so afraid that i wasn't up to it. though it was something that i wanted after orientation one. but now a year later... i find myself not wanting to hand it over. haha. honestly hc was like some really last minute decision for me. like when the booth was about to close then finally agreed to it. kept wondering that time if i did the wrong thing. but i suppose a year later... i got the answer loud and clear. nominee briefing tmr. interviews really soon too. then comes the camp as well. and finally handover. really quite the she bu de let go... i love my com. really glad to have such a great com. makes tj so much more fun to be in. haha. know the day to handover will come soon... but... oh well. treasure it while it lasts. nothing lasts forever i suppose... haha... just thoughts

hmm. sigh. third. okay la. as long as not last can liao. was quite worried that we'd get last. but i dunno la. maybe it's just the feeling. really tried le. sigh. feel like it's all my fault la. stupid. get hospitalised for so long. then come back that time become super the rushed for time. especially when it was about the same time as the major house function. then dunno la. i dunno. the feeling i get is that it could have been better. a lot better. a lot more orgainsed. a lot more... sigh. i dunno la. though arvin told me to be proud of it esp when i handled the track meet alone.. but i dunno. i dun think it's a superb job. probably just ensuring me ba. really i dun think it was well done or anything. i dunno. but after staying back for every heats, substituting in for events, and just like trying so hard to get everything going relatively single handedly quite a fair bit of the time... i suppose getting third is like... i dunno. just a horrible feeling attached to it. maybe cos one would hope for more thereafter. but... dunno la. just feel as if... sigh. why am i even thinking so much into this. it's over. but hmmm i'm really lucky to have pple like arvin there in the com loh. always there to help me out... hmmm ever heard of the guide to success? the thing we always get for bio spas? well mohana and i are so going to come out with a guide to success for sporting events. specifically, road run and track and field meet. mohakim publication. lol. then the next time we come back the following year we expect to see beta be first for everything liao. haha. right. hopefully la. hmm glad track meet's over. parents teacher dialogue also. now i can be that little bit free-er. that's good. cos kim really really needs to start studying...

sigh. =( i dunno. track and field meet tmr. and i still find it the most meaningless event ever. seriously la. i mean like... for road run, everyone can run so mass participation is possible. sports carnival.. with such an array of sporting events available, there is almost surely a sport that each person can play. so again there will be participation... but track and field? it's like entirely crafted out for the trackers to win or something. like hardly anyone knows how to do stuff like discus javelin and triple jump. go there just kena owned by the trackers. not much competition. no fight. serious. i don't see the point of the meet. and it's not like people are actually interested in joining it also. i don't know. i think even swim meets make more sense. especially in tj where everyone can swim, courtesy of mass swimming for pe. at least pple will know what they're doing. unlike track and field where even during their turns for the event, one would still be wondering how to do what they're supposed to do. so rubbished la. dunno la. somehow hoping it'll rain tmr. rain like there's no tomorrow so that the meet will be cancelled. like permanently cancelled. but oh well. i wish la. shall just get it over and done with. then can concentrate on other things liao. good good. the track and field lasted too long le. all the heats and postponing. and postponing of the entire event also. sigh. glad it's going to be over. honestly haven't gotten much help for this meet. cos everyone was so involved in the house function. until it was postponed. then i suppose finally got a little help here and there. but i dunno la. couldn't even go for a medical checkup in peace knowing that everything will be fine over at the heats side. especially on a day when arvin's got to run. cos it's like.. dunno la. dunno where everyone is sometimes also. always the same pple helping me out... oh well. anything la. shan't think about it anymore. oh anyway suddenly got asked to announce the current track and field standings to the cohort just now. to er get the people excited. so sudden. where got time for mental preperation. heh. oh well. but guess i'm okay with talking to a lot of people at once now ba. since out of a sudden i'm having to do such stuff. haha. it's really not that bad. haha. hmmm i miss bball =( been a long long time since i played a game. been quite awhile since i last shot also. now like reteaching myself how to shoot. haha. i wanna play bball for sports carnival again this year! eee. parents teacher dialogue tmr. sighhh... oh well. like that loh. what can i do. heh. =( sighhhh... anyway still love this song. if i'm sad it somehow makes me feel that little bit happier? (yeah though it's a sad song) and when i'm happy, it just makes me happier! lol. oh well. eee track meet tmr. oh well.

珊瑚海/ 周杰伦

海平面远方开始阴霾 悲伤要怎么平静纯白
我的脸上 始终挟带 一抹浅浅的无奈

你用唇语说你要离开 那难过无声慢了下来
汹涌潮水 你听明白 不是浪而是泪海

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来 海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意外
我们的爱(我们的爱) 差异一直存在 (回不来) 风中尘埃 (等待) 竟累积成伤害

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来 蔚蓝的珊瑚海 错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此(你我都) 不够成熟坦白 (不应该) 热情不再 (真爱) 笑容勉强不来
爱深埋珊瑚海

毁坏的沙雕如何重来 有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
只是一切 结束太快 你说你无法释怀

贝壳里隐藏什么期待 我们也已经无心再猜
面向海风 咸咸的爱 尝不出还有未来

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来 海鸟跟鱼相爱 只是一场意外

我们的爱(我们的爱) 差异一直存在 (回不来) 风中尘埃 (等待) 竟累积成伤害

转身离开 (你有话说不出来) 分手说不出来 蔚蓝的珊瑚海 错过瞬间苍白
当初彼此(你我都) 不够成熟坦白 (不应该) 热情不再 (真爱) 笑容勉强不来
爱深埋珊瑚海

爱深埋珊瑚海

tired... really very tired... too tired to study... too tired to concentrate... too tired to keep trying to stay awake... too tired to scold... too tired to yell... too tired to think. these few days... don't think i really know what i'm doing whatsoever. i don't know... perhaps... a short break will do some good? the weekends ba. looking forward to it. really glad the written report for the fair is finally totally done. now i won't have to try pulling out time for it anymore. no more tests for the week. good good. sigh. anyway i realised my trainings always end on a very sad and solem mood. is it cos scold too much le each training? but like it's needed la. dunno la. didn't have much to say during today's training. too disappointed too tired. er why am i talking about that? i dunno! -whines away- ha. anyway today's mass civics was the talk entitled "how not to marry a jerk" heh. right. was funny la. but errr like no substance in the talk. a bit the wasted my time. and haha not that i wanna complain.. but that guy's english is really... er... yeah. thought guest speakers always have to speak in proper english. like practically perfect english that kind? think that was the way in ij or something. or jo teo will comment about it in class.. how the presenter's presentation skills were... how articulate... how the standard of english is. hahaha. those like of stuff. haha. ahh i'm no link-ing. honestly i don't really know what i'm talking about. this is a rubbished post. bleahx. wanna sleep le. dun feel like doing anything. heh...

hmmm... doing somemore thinking. should really sit down and start studying. took a cab back that day after mardi gras. then was talking to the cab uncle. heh. conversing in mandrin la. but haha shall just summarise it in english. was talking to be about jcs and polys... and he kept tellling me that jc's really tough... poly seems easier and more carefree and people tend to do better there... but since i'm already in jc, must make the best out of it... and at the end of the trip... he was like make sure you study k. most important thing to do is to study well and get good results. don't waste your time in jc. especially if after that cannot make it then go over to poly. five years is a super long time. hmmmm... interesting things to think about i suppose. never really struck me that hard. okay. so maybe it did before. but i never really had all the time in the world to think about it. sigh. really should start. start soon. latest start after track and field meet is over. sigh. it's really quite late already. maybe too late already. but it's better late than never i suppose. don't want to be regretting at the end of the day. need to try harder. a lot harder...

hmm... just got back a short while ago from mardi gras. okay la. didn't expect it to really be that much of a college event. i suppose it succeeded in involving a lot of people. ended school super early today. like er one period after assembly. so ended at 840? super early can. couldn't believe i actually went to school for one period. if i had known.... heh. anyway pw results came out le. not all that great. but suppose it was expected la. cos they were telling us 99.3% got band one or two. so to me couldn't be good. cos if it was good they'd tell us the percentage band one not one and two. basically meant majority of the school got two la. i don't fall for such things one loh. anyway got what i predicted. hmm. written report pulled us down a lot until yeah like that la. but okay i suppose. quite happy with the oral report comments. lol. and then individual eom one. haha. oh well. anyway haha i can become sai kang warrior liao. carry so many tables and benches again. rarh. hahaha. oh well at least got time to bathe and change after that. haha. formal dressing is nice. =) hmm. oh well. anyway mobile selling is horrible. so tiring and all. maybe it's cos i happily decided to wear slippers or something but yeah. oh well. don't know. in the end just anyhow zham la. see anyone just ask liao. dun care. haha. a bit weird la. but i suppose it's the most effective way ba. didn't get to see most of the performances. so sad la. i wanna watch! sigh. nevermind maybe two years later i might just pop by. just maybe. heh. glad it's over. though i still kind of want to catch the performances. oh well. oh yeah that mr marcus tan can sing la! i like that song he sang. haha. so nice. lol. still remember a couple of days before was er going to attempt a tutorial at one of the benches near the stage there. then suddenly a group of teachers started practicing for mardi gras. then was like wow okay so some of them can really sing. then just put everything down and listened. lol. nice nice. haha. so tired now. oh just one comment about yesterday. pancake day is rubbished. so waste the school's resources and it's such a waste of er frozen prata doughs and all. horrible la. especially the games. ended up figuring it ourselves and trying them out before the thing started so that hc will not be so malu if it fails. horrible la. always give us such crap games expect us to excute them. then the game itself so horrible until we change also cannot save it.. so spoil hc's image la. cos everyone thinks is we come out with it de. rarh. always like that. =( oh well. heck it la. so glad tmr's a holiday... so so tired...

was thinking about things last night. realised... it's really been quite fast. just like that i've spent nearly one and a half years in tj. how time pasts. only half a year left in tj. not much time. but yet i haven't started studying. though pple have been telling me to start at the start of march before it's too late... now a month later.. nothing has changed. still as lost as ever. if i'm to wait till handover. or at least till the major events are up, will there be enough time. perhaps there is some time here and there which i fail to manage still. lousy time management. perhaps i'm focusing on the wrong thing. perhaps i'm just not trying hard enough. perhaps... sigh. really have to start doing something about this. was talking to mr fun the other day... asked how i'm coping.. answered the usual answer.. like that loh. then he was like not too well right? then yups no choice to but to say yes. told me to hold on and keep going again. then he asked what my aim for this year's jct was. i replied... to pass. he was like. no cannot. too low. aim for at least a d for all subjects. can one. but dunno la i like of don't have the confidence that i can even scrape out passes, what more ds. then he started telling me about how one of the swimming captains kept failing even until the prelims.. but then after that he really chionged and got two as and one b. haha. so heartening. maybe there is a chance after all? just maybe... but evenmoreso, i have to start... start studying

ahh. girl catagory trailing gamma by quite a lot le. alpha catching up also! cham. must be cos yesterday's field events... TOTALLY zero points can. omg la. should have anyhow played discus. only four pple! but 400m hurdles during that time la. but discus more points! but concurrent events! ahh... oh man. but how can zero points. maybe is cos i too busy handling the track side that never really go over to the field side much to find out whether got enough pple reporting? sigh. feeling like it's entirely my fault la. though can't be in two places at any one time but still... dunno la. maybe neglected it a bit. crap. damn sad la. dun care le. long jump must... aim top5.. somehow. so sad la. sigh. dun care. more or less figured out long jump today. then hopefully tuesday can help pull up the points somemore. sigh. but jump until knee wanna die again. and ankle's being weird. shall rest it one two days then try again. dun care. though i dun jump the trackers style... but at least got one or two super far jumps here and there. must aim for them again on the actual day itself. determined to get some points out of long jump. i don't care le. just chiong...

hmm second day of heats already. this is tiring. ha. ran the 400m hurdles today. one of the funniest races of my life la. quite the malu-ating. died-ed laughing. but anything la. as long as confirm got points... dun take is bai bu na loh. lucky got people to help me sub into the rest of the spots for the hurdles for the house. confirm got points de ma. even if last also can. heh. but after saying that. no no i'm not doing hurdles again. it's scary. i'd rather die sprinting the 400m straight. heh. nvm. still got long jump. need to figure that one out by this week. then got one more space. so can sub any event later on when not enough pple. then just go for the points. heh. hopefully is a relatively long d run? dun really wanna sprint le. knee. oh well. hope it's not another funny event. this year really take all the funny events that not many pple join. cos less pple join means more chances of top 8 which means can get points. so hmm go for it la. dun care liao. just take the points. haha. hmm. still got the relay events. kim needs to start running. haven't been running for so long cos still on mc. but heck it la. points more important now. =) so far ranking of the houses... beta girls first. then er guys last. but cos never count all the running events yet ma. like the 100m, 200m, 800m, 3000m ma. ahahaha. all the almost sure will win one. think the 110 hurdles also. heh. but gamma and alpha doing quite well leh. a bit worried. but nvm. as long as not last. as good as possible can liao. heh. come on.. just keep going. go for it. whatever points that can be gotten. just take liaoz. dun care. from today onwards... chiong!

writting a stupid scientific report. i am bored. came across this site.

Everything Pizza

Diverse and adaptable You enjoy the full buffet of life It's hard to you play favorites with friends... or flavors There's very little that you dislike!

What's Your Pizza Personality?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Your Ideal Relationship is Polyamory

You want to have your cake... and everyone else's. Which isn't a bad thing, if everyone else gets to eat too! You're too much of a free spirit to be tied down by a traditional relationship. You think relationships should be open and free, with few restrictions.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

wth i am so bored. randomly choosing funny sounding quizes to do. haha. one more. so so bored

You Are Heineken

You appreciate a good beer, but you're not a snob about it. You like your beer mild and easy to drink, so you can concentrate on being drunk. Overall, you're a friendly drunk who's likely to buy a whole round for your friends... many times. Sometimes you can be a bit boring when you drink. You may be prone to go on about topics no one cares about.

What's Your Beer Personality?

ahahaha these stuff dun make sense! hahaha. oh man. the report is that boring to such an extent that i'm doing weird quizzes. oh no... haha... hmmm chem spa tmr but i dun care le. heh. just writting down observations right. how bad can it get. haha. but then again i never know. ahh. not making sense. bored and tired. rarh. can't swim for at least the next 2-3 months. this sucks. that means i will miss all my swimming pe. no fun. i wanna swim! -whines irritatedly- anyway the steriods seems to have more side effects than i thought? it'd probably increse the eye pressure... and makes it easier to get eye infections. heh. no wonder they die die want me to come back within seven days. so see if.. er. anything happened. heh. i still can't imagine how high a hurdle is. guess i'll know soon. rarh. i'm self entertaining. not good. too tired. not thinking straight already... not making sense. ahh what am i doing. no more weird quizzes. that's it. heh

hmm. looking back... done a lot of things i would'nt usually do in just one week. somehow managed to pull through talking at the house dialogue to brief about sports day and making er a morning announcement. things i never would have thought i would ever have the courage to do. too many people. too much of a frightening thought. maybe these were just excuses i've been giving myself all these while. it really isn't too bad. managed to get the sports day stuff in on time. settle the student official stuff. finish up the food orienteering proposal. finish all the preperation work for the function which we- fire com, stayed back so late for so many days to test the mechanisms and tie structures and all. managed to pon practically the entire day of lessons for the function. oh well. though it rained. i suppose it was something we'd remember for a long time to come. those of us stuck under the tennis tentage in the middle of the assembly grounds during the lightning storm trying to bring the av equipment into the shelter. quite sad kind of really won't have much time for the next round of preperations when the next function comes... even sadder that all the preperation work that took so long had all gone to a waste. okay. maybe waste isn't the word. through this i finally realised who would be the ones who are always there and those who will always be there to help you. especially when i was rushing all the sports day stuff and doing the function preparations at the same time. maybe managing to accomplish so many things within a week that was so jam packed just goes to show how lousy my time management for normal days is. how horribly unproductive they are. something to think about. sigh. had a stupid thought that i should retain myself. cos my studies are seriously nowhere. and i don't think i have the time to catch up nearing two years of work within such a short period of time. maybe i really have to try a lot a lot harder and just see how it goes. sigh. such a distressing thought. don't want to regret anything anymore. time management and time to study. especially after sports day passes. no excuses for anything. i don't want anything to go wrong for the rest of this year.