hmm. just thinking. during the big five profiling session. that thing. they gave us one minute to think about our dream holiday. yeah. so scary the dream holiday. was like carrying a backpack with hydropack, wearing the nicee salomon shoes... running up the french alps. woo hoo... i'm crazy. seriously crazy. but i don't know. it suddenly made me wonder if i actually liked oac that much. so much so my dream holiday is oac-ed. hmm. i don't know. maybe this is what i really want in my college life? noo idea. just feeling a bit lost at the moment. haha. just felt like blogging is down so i can think about it someother time. haha

uh oh. can't exactly extend my leg straight now. ahh. die already. i think by the time titans comes.. either i can't run because of injury or because i've no stamina left from all the resting. omg la. both days titans gone already. forget it manz. =/anyway yesterday's orienteering was interesting. from tj to changi village. 17.5km within just over 3hrs. not bad la. but i kind of think i pulled the whole team down a lot. =/oh well. missed the choir concert also. yeah. luckly didn't go swimming yesterday morning somemore la. or else... i die already la. hmm. suddenly at a loss as to what to say. kind of crapped so much. hmm. got so many people to thank for yesterday la. thanks to yinwei for pulling me along. eng wei for trying to hard to motivate me to go faster. wei kheam for carrying my bag all the way. wai kit for offering to carry me. everyone la actually. realised i'm lucky to have such great teammates. seriously. =) oh well for now... don't know...

hmm. kayaking today. not too bad. kayaked from kallang seasports club to east coast. had games and even went to big splash. though it was seriously obsceinty la. they didn't allow singlets or shirts to be on while going down. so no choice.. tuo diao la. eeeyer. a bit the gross though. oh well. first time standard lunch tasted damn nice also. interesting feeling but yeah. hmm. met with a storm on the way back. scary la. pple started capsizing. quite freaky. the waves were like smashing right into the cockpit la. scary. s hard to manouver around. and waulao paddle like siao la. so tiring. then haiz. right arm is dead. was partially. now it like. err yeah. i also don't know. oh well. interesting expeience i suppose. though liyuan, liesel and i were like so worried about the back pple la. so scary. we kept turning back. but then yeah. nothing we could do. cos scared yue bang yue mang. not too bad la overall. just damn the tired. went to suntec for dinner together after that. kfc. and got my gelare icecream and lemonade. =) felt to happy after that until yeah i was told to go to ec. but then i don't want. so sort of like fought with my parents over the phone la. cos it's really not rational to go there. it's illogical. serious. arggh. don't know la. i'm distant from everything. live in a life of seclusion. sadness.


hmm. what's there to say. watched luyuan yesterday. so cheem. too cheem for my comprehension rather. nevertheless it was pretty good though i still prefer the nj one. haha. whoops. eh. had hc intro. like something caught my eye. then shit. totally forgot what i wanted to say. so yeah. stoned there for awhile and just talked a whole lot of crap. like seriously crap. then hustings sucked also. the questions are not very answerable. actually i didn't want to answer anything de. but then cannot just stand there and say nothing right. so just come up and talk a bit of rubbish loh. think it sucked big time. was like the last person for everything la. going to be the last person for the interview also. scaryyy. hahaha. i don't know. laughing at myself. titans coming. cannot be so slack. haiz. initiative... sighs. should try to put in a bit of effort into my work also ba. failing everything now. not a very good thing yeah. haiz. don't know la. see how. haiz. so won't be able to write tmr. wahh. painful ah arm. =(

sometimes you fail so much that nothing matters to you anymore. another failure is like so what. it's a normal thing already. failing another test is like nothing to me anymore. in fact i even expect to fail tests nowadays. so damn sian la. life's hell. and it's full of failures. sometimes you want so bad to do a tutorial to be handed in. just that... it's not within your capabilities to do so. sadness. then recurring old long time ago supposed to never come back again injuries. damn demoralising. muscle pulls also. so damn sian. haiz. don't know la. what rubbish am i uttering. bleahx. sianness

err. food orienteering today was relatively interesting. er. from tj to bedok there for mee rebus. then to katong for katong laksa. then to old airport road for char kuay tiao. then to aljunid for smelly beancurd. then to where ah. somewhere around aljunid also for vegetarian food. eh. then to geylang there for yu sheng. and err.to jalan besar for pig's organelle soup. then to newton for duck rice and finally to bugis for tom yam soup. yeah. quite tiring la. the route to old airport road hawker centre whoa lucky cheng chung's nearby then got pple who know how to get there. or else cham ah. long long route. haha. ic with sze sian. not bad la. reached there around like just on time. bu chuo. haha. but then the jalan besar one.. with alex. waulao damn far can. eh went through little india and all. kinda felt like i was going round and round aimlessly. basically everything looked so alike la. so yeah. damn sian. the time limit was... a bit crazy though. two time extensions before getting there. running quite a large component of the route somemore.. once there was no human traffic la. cos waulao little india.. farrer there so many people la. want to go faster also cannot cos scared pple get stuck in the crowd and all. quite frustrating that one. the rest was quite fine. yeah. a bit disgusting though. the thought of consuming so many different types of food within such short time periods. eeeyer. don't know la. just feels a bit the gross. haha. oh yeah walked past the aljunid bball court. yeah. then new one. omgg. want to go see. hahaha. whoops.

oh yeah went back to ij yesterday. don't know. was sitting on the bus. then just suddenly missed ij so so much. never actually thought i'd ever miss the school la. but i don't know. i suddenly feel as if i just like. took ij for granted last time. you never know what's really bad before you go through it. tj makes me miss ij so much now. was practically running towards ij when i got off the bus la. think people thought i was crazy. nevermind. felt so wow-ed when i saw the bball court. nothing special. just that.. don't know how to describe it. like just such familiar territory. damn nice feeling. saw the bballers also. eh. found mr teh. had a nice talk then found mrs low also. haha. she invited me into the staffroom. wow. haha. offered me stuff also. so cool. first time. haha. so random to suddenly go back but wow. eh. saw mrs nicks also and mrs siao. damn cool la. haha. played a tiny bit of bball. then met cheryl. haha. cj's uniform looks like the factory workers near bedok mrt there de! LOL. oops. ahhaha. sure kena killed for saying that. haha. not say tj's uni's that nice also la. haha. yeah got her go go to queensway with me to buy my black fbts. haha. went to ikea for lunch also. and err. oh yeah. met carol at the queenstown mrt. haha.

i miss the old times. don't you? sighs. now everyday is draining. damn sian la. sigh. never experienced so many so many failures all in succession before until i got to tj. damn sad la. failing almost everything now. i even failed chem can. cheryl sounded suprised? damn sad case. fail de very chan somemore. my strongest subject la. gone case also. i die le. oh sheesh. must pia math soon. once she finishes marking that test, i'm d.e.a.d. seriously. bet i got like zero for that la. wasn't sure of anything. everyone's like omg there's no time to finish the test while i'm like. haha. i had sooo much time cos i didn't have much to write. don't know how to do anyway so yeah. oh yeah. not excused from bio tests anymore. damn. now i seriously die. will so fail it. i've never seen those chapts before. haven't had much time or mood to go for the make up lectures. uh oh. sighs. so much to do so little time. life is hell.

sigh. how is it like to see everything around you do down. like way below and everything seems to reflect darkness and a sense of loss. i don't know. that's probably like how i feel right now. everything just seems to wrong. so monotonous. so damn sian. i don't know. the world's moving so fast. i'm like being chained up. held in some unchangable position where i just helplessly watch as everything just keeps moving and moving. don't know. suddenly feel helpless and distraught. cannot cope. really don't know what to do next. like all the tutors are coming after me already. physics tutor probably just thinks i'm a slacker. chem doesn't seem to care much for now. that's quite a good thing for now. bio thinks that if i try hard enough i just might be able to catch up cos i took o level bio before. sigh. math thinks i'm not coping at all. that i probably cannot take the change of combi and all and am letting go of math. she even err offered help anytime should i need it... and that i should approach my ct or her if i need someone to talk to... that i shouldn't keep everything to myself cos it's not good this way. omg. that bad huh. uh oh. certainly doesn't help to be in a class where everyone's like flying so damn high. like everything's just a breeze for them while i'm struggling like hell. right now i don't know whether to laugh or to cry. laugh cos wow. my tutors actually care about my well being. cry because i personally think i cannot cope at this moment as well. so many things to do and accomplish, yet so little time. don't know. so confused. i want to catch up. but i can't. i don't know. i don't even know what i'm rambling about now. arggh. forget it.

sian diao. there's so much to say yet nothing to say. sounds so super contradictory... don't know. i suppose these few days are like hell to me. seriously. i don't know. ever since we got our new scgs, i began to hate school more and more. three words to describe school. sucks. hate. dreadful. it's like quite stupid la. it's like... everyday i walk into my own prison. like very shuang like that. every single freaking day somemore. like wth's wrong with me la. you know. if i had a choice i'd want to redraw from college immediately la. just quite sian of everything right now. can't exactly cope also right now i think. am so lost for everything. suppose it was a horrible idea to switch subject combi. esp to trip sci cos i realise it sucks big time. feeling a bit of regret now. don't know la. sigh.

hmm. saturday had beta house function? not bad la. err went to watch the pacifier with yuxuan, michelle, shi han and two of yuxuan's friends. quite a lame show. haha. hse function not bad la. just that like.. err 90% of the songs were chinese songs? so a bit the never heard before. but they sound quite nice la. oh had some pass the parcel game. damn amusing la. when pple throw th parcel to pass it around. somehow always end up with me de la. but.. hahas. never go on stage. lalala. yeah. had mass dance also. yeap. haha. monday was. weird? pe was like err ipu standing broad jump and 2.4. err. like okay. fine. weirdness la. physical fitness test coming soon? i fail la. dont care already. gp compo sucked. chinese compo sucked even more. don't know what i'm doing these days. wednesday was like plain weird la. suddenly realised that i've the a star research briefing at like 3.30.. then the talk at nj at 4... damn stupid la. hate being caught in the middle of everything. sian diao. anyways went to nj cos it was to late to get to the a star talk even if i flew there. so yeah. hmm. realised... omg la. nj's quite nice again. i'm lousy la. failed to get in at first attempt. didn't bother thereafter. a bit the regret it again... don't know la. yeah. anyway went out for dinner with junsheng after the talk. sorry.. made you pei me and all... thanks yeah...

hmms. thursday was... i also don't know. err. was super sian la. so ponned math lecture. if i had the choice i'd pon the entire day. but then tutorials and pract... so bo bian la. today's just plain horrible? dunno. it's like swimming was... okay la. not too bad. was so super tired and sian during tutorials. kept looking at the clock. like very nice like that. counting down the time till lessons end... errs. don't know... 4x400 sucked? feel like i pulled the entire team down or sth. like cos kind of got muscle pull la. as usual.. don't know what my problem is. yeah. wanted to give up after the first 100m de. but then saw the last runner... cannot pangsei her like that. so no choice la. just run. sighs. but felt like it was a slow run. at least it felt damn slow. don't know la. i feel so evil la. don't know... don't know why i always want to give up. dunno...

anyway learnt that i'm super not a short distance runner. err. actually basically i can't exactly do anything la. sports.. academics.. whatever la. i suck in everything. so yeah. life sucks la. dreading everything again...

hmm. okay. o night was not too bad. so sad that we had to leave halfway during mass dance for the night cycling though. hmm. night cycling was great. quite cool la. cycled right into the morning. ehh... got the bikes from ecp. err. went from tj to the national stadium to the old market. if you don't get where that is.. do a direct translation to chinese and you'll get it. haha. err then to lavender, aljunid, then kovan. and err bedok reservoir there. and back to tj. yeah. something like that. haha. quite fun la. just that was super tired from the orientation and all and my leg was hurting.. had to resort to standing to cycle so that i can use my body weight to push the paddle. but then sometimes chen bu zhu le. had to force myself to go on so many times cos i didn't want to have gaps. sad case la me. but overall it's really cool. yeap.

eh.. what else happened? oh. right. got my triple science. kena sent to scg18 when most of the pple i know are from 20. sian diao. then the teacher in charge didn't want me to change scg though i wanted to appeal and even had a mutual swop la. was trying to convince me to stay... kept saying that it's such a good class so i should stay. haiz. don't know. didn't really know how to reply to that. so just left it la. eh. the tutors are seriously damn good. think we got the best tutors available or sth. err nearly half the class are scholars? i'm like at the bottom of the class can. saw the class list. the lousiest raw score of the class is 9. sian diao la. the teacher in charge seemed shocked that i wasn't in trip sci for the first three mths. bleahx. whatever la. i stupid can. computer error that i ended up in this class la. got a problem with that? cannot is it. sorry la. not like i wanted it. too smart le. everyone's too smart. i cannot catch up. i'm just one sad case. bleahx. whatever la. arggh. shall talk about something else. this is making me feel damn sian.

eh. sports day heats are a distater? don't know how come i got into the 200m finals. ehh. yeah. don't know la. weird. err. still got 4x4oom left? that one must train. i can't pull the entire team down of i'd feel eternally evil. sighs. errr. oh had first titan's training. super torturous. don't know why my muscles kept pulling. pull until like very shuang la. pain cannn. bleahx. siannn. for now. everything seems quite okay le. even managed some bball today. haha. shoot de very shuang. got my shooting touch back for now. hope it never leaves. haha. realised bball's one of the few things i look forward to nowadays. oh joined the tj bball team for training the other day. damn nice can. yeah. crossed my mind to join. but then. don't know la. a bit hard. i've the max no of pdps already. so yeah. then wanted to join hc de. but then think i won't be able to cope de. so yeah. sian diao. don't really know what to do.

hmm. had adventure tower training also? yeap. quite fun i suppose. pretty interesting. haha. oh. got newcomers to oac. damn funkaye. haha. got one beta de somemore. the best. =) hazel's friend. ahaha. not bad la. didn't know he's in the same class as so many pple i know. haha. ooh. got beta house function tmr. muahaha. going with my og. good. ehh.. watching movie first. honestly i've no idea as to what movie is being shown at all. nevermind. just go ba. break. haha. don't know. a bit luan now. shall just take things a step at a time i suppose... og outinggg next! house function! haha. should study also. not should. is must. yeap. oh sheesh. pw drafttt. roar. yeah hor. scico also. new science research thing. haha. a*star de. woo hoo. qualified. they want me to go try. haha. sounds interesting. but quite time consuming also. oh well... one step at a time. one step at a time...

really enjoyed myself as ogl for once today. wet games were pretty fun la. haha. =) got damn wet. didn't bring a change of clothes cos basically i wasn't supposed to play? haha. in the end.. my shirt was a mixture of toothpaste, flour, coloured water, paint, gel and all. eeeyer la. oh well. water bombs are funkaye... LOL. quite funny also those things. haha. err there was this station whereby the ogms had to gel all the ogl and guy's hairs. eeeyer. blobs and blobs of gel ended up on my hair la. and they attempted to style it? so gross la. can feellll all the gel. bleahx. ahaha. then there was the thread in thread out the rafia string with toothpaste de. reminds me of the ij orientation last time.. the one with the rafia string filled with coffee starch. ahaha. -saddistic laughter- ahaha. mass dance was super fun la. got to do my fav song! =D haha. the speedy damn funny. kena pulled into the middle so many times. then kena kicked like siao. but i suppose being saboed is a bit fun. maybe i'm just saddist or sth. haha. learnt the guy's part for the couple dance today. whee~~ achievement. learnt quite fast. i'm impressed. haha. LOl. bhb. hmm finally bought my second tj uni. haha. and the tie... the tie.. err.. like a bit the ugly and weird. and thick. and gross. LOL. oops. haha. a bit the many complaints. hahaha. but today's enjoyable la. haha. =)

oh got scg posting le. got my triple science. but then kena posted to i don't know where. err 18/05. i know no one there la. bleahx. not again. so sian la. heard 10/05 left like 5 of us only. oops. haha. but econs really sucks. only taking triple sci cos i'm totally out of options le. hahaha.. oh well.. sad case la me...

sigh first day of orientation only and i want to chi zi as ogl le... so sian. first must wake up at like 4 la. but nevermind. i don't really care about that part much... then i realised the og.. so many so many new people... like seriously don't know them at all... attendance taking very xing ku. aquosus seemed somewhat unenthu to me leh. anthough we're sitting right in the middle of everything. but then still like not much response de. then we ogls dersperately cheering until we all give up together right. anyway ice breakers was horrible la. some pple quite uncooperative.. then doesn't help that aquosus cleverly picked to have the activities where the construction of something's being done. don't know. never had so much of a feeling of helplessness before. i mean like fine. the o2's sian. i admit it too. not really in a mood to have orientation too cos so many people kena kicked out of tj cos of the partial 7 cut off. so few 7 pointers somemore.. nearly half the school gone. damn sad. but then again these pple were there with you for the first three months only. not like you can do anything to help them anyway. and the people here now are going to be there with you for two years. is it so hard to just get to know them a little? honestly i don't see why it's so hard? please la. i take cg 26 right.. when i go back to cg 30 after the orientation i'd hardly even know my classmates la. same og but then it's hard what. wth la. i'm forgoing knowing my own classmates for this and this is what i get. feel like such a failure. unenthu until cannot be anymore unenthu le.

haiz. skipped og lunch. just didn't feel like it. luckly mingwei asked if i wanted to play bball.. quite distracted and i dont know maybe somewhat demoralised by the orientation thing. i cmi. haha. heck it. felt so much better after playing though i was playing rubbish. super off form these days... haha. career talk looked interesting.. but then gave up on looking around cos the tiki so biggg.. so hard to walk. anyway it was so packed la. so heck it. mass dance is nice though. feels great being able to teach the dances and being able to dance the dances.. =) only thing i liked.. haha.

hmm. got the ogl shirts le. omg lah they chose green.. eeeyer.. then wear with tj skirt.. i look like rubbish bin le. just put the pic of the frog there.. then hold the 'clean and green' sign can le. total resemblence to the rubbish bin. haha... amazing race tmr. hope everything'd be better... more mass dance.. music please! haha. i think the second intake very intimidated by our mass dance.. always have that OMG look when we dance. like very kong bu like that. too fast and too many steps le. so poor thing. the first orientation that time i also hated mass dance cos i cmi... haha. oh well...

hmm. the march exp was quite fun lah. went caving. the caves are pretty cool loh. haha. yeap. up gunung ayam. but never saw any chickens there. haha. lame. okok. err. yeah but we climbed another mountain on the way there so it's still two mountains in the end yeah =) so cold though when it rained. freezing manz. then somehow i always end up sleping in reservoirs... cos the water will seep into the tent and end up where i sleep? lol. then my shoes also lah. retains water. omg lah. walk -squish squish squish- the shoes. can feel all the water everywhere. haha. realised my backpack's very heavy also. like super heavy. bet sam and liyuan's bags are around my bag's weight also =/ oh well. someone's got to carry the stuff anyway.. so why not us? haha. talking rubbish. but anyway the feeling of accomplishment was quite cool lah when we got to ayam. we were all pretty happy about it. before that many of us were worried about not being to take it. but all's well. =) pity we couldn't get up stong.. somehow i felt a bit like i'm partially to blame... don't know why. just a feeling. but i suppose it was the right decision to not go ahead with climbing it. yups. err. yeah most already know. err yeah fell sick loh. then err on the train ride back ran a fever... yeah. have to thank a lot of people for taking care of me and helping me along... yups. thanks xiaowei for taking care of me so much throughout the night and day.. though i really don't remember what happened that night. haha. yups. thanks to every single person there. yup. thanks everyone!

oh missed the entire ogl camp cos we went mountain climbing. oops. oh well i did tell them beforehand that i can't make it for the camp anyway. just hope the og or rather, cg i'm taking won't kill me too much. cg 26 i think. haha. hmm. considering i don't know what exactly's going on for the second orientation.. hahaha. i'll try to find out.. but i can't promise that i can learn so many dances within so few days. i sucl at dancing somemore so yeah. please don't sabo me too much? hahaha

hmm. started the science researching thing at ntu already also. quite interesting lah. got to play those instruments i've never seen before in my life lah. the big big machines. all the gadgets and all. haha. centrifuging. so funkaye.yups. got to play with the micropipettes.. con hbr.. saturated bromine solution and all. fun.. =) haha. i'm crazy. then got the small animals thing. the swimming stuff. so cute. they're being used for other experiments by the professors there. so cute. i want them as pets! or for our next research thing! haha. omg i'm saddist. lol.

oh. thanks junsheng for going to marche with me for lunch today.. =D was so sudden. haha. yup yup. thanks! =)

oh well. realised that my holidays are really gone. everyday's too packed. so much so i've to forgo something for another. sucks manz. super high opportunity cost. haiz. today it was between srp, yanling's birthday thing and tennis. tmr it's between srp again, oac and og outing. arggh. not much of a choice though. srp.. duh. haiz. hopefully later on still can join them for other stuff ba.. haiz. my life's sad. i think sunday's relatively free for now? hope it stays that way. then at least i'd have like one free day for once? omg lah. haiz. give me a break someone! haiz. i tell you honestly that all my academics are dead. like. d.e.a.d. gone case le. haiz. can i have my life back? somehow i think the answer is no. haiz. ogl thing how? i feel like ponning the entire second orientation le. haiz. but cannot like that fang qi everything right. HAIZ. i also don't know what to think le. don't know anything. haiz. sadness...

hmm. quick update. very tired le. bball's nice =D hmm. leaving for gunung stong and gunung ayam tmr.. today actually. haha. so funny the feeling now. a bit nervous and anxious i suppose. something new ba.. i'm sure we can make it de.. =) we must.mind over matter ba.. haha. hmm. went for the nj chinese concert thing just now. it's not too bad leh. quite nice and entertaining. =D if you haven't gone, go watch it! haha. i'm advertising for it now. LOL. thanks kai qin for going there with me. and thanks to junsheng also for everything ba. hahaha. wonder how temasek idol went though. and cj's err rockafellaskank. hahahaha.. interesting name. yup yup. OH YEAH. omg lah. i'm an ogl. shocked? cos i'm shocked as well. really didn't expect nor intend to get in. oops? i mean like tj has 9 full mass dances. how many of them can i do in full? zero i think. but i like the running man. LOL. i'm crazy. die lah. oh manz. anyway officially dropped econs. a good thing ba. gives me a little bit more time. a lot better than nothing. the breaks are everything to me now. LOL. been playing quite a fair bit of bball these days i suppose. quite miss bball.. (!!! right i know but oh well) i think the oac seniors are super nice ba.. haha.. don't want to quit. praying hard that i can cope with everything. think i've too many things on le. and to think in secondary school i was so super slack lah. all the competitions all never take part de. impressive. oh moe scrapped the pearls system. damn. i quite liked it.. maybe cos i've quite a fair bit of points le.. but that's besides the point what. ahaha. oh well. oh shit. still haven't done the online chem tutorial.. pray the portal's still open by the time i get back ba.. omg lah i've no march hols le. i can't even make it for the ogl camp lah. i so die. hope the ogls don't need to play the games.. =) hope lah. haha. oh the tj uniform isn't THAT bad after all.. as least i don't look THAT disasterous in it. hahaha. OH SHEESH i didn't change currency.. hope my parents have ba.. omg. haha. oops. now then remember a bit the late.. i'm so last minute manz. oh manz. nvm nvm. i think i lag behind too much in my school work le. not a good sign at all. should start dropping stuff soon ba.. haiz. don't know lah. don't feel like doing so. sad. oh well. exp tmr le. scary. the bag so ex. nearly $200.. the hydration pack and all also so ex. oh well. i'm sure we can do it ba.. =) SIGH. tired. really tired. shouldn't have played so much bball. got blisters from the other day. climb mountain bu shi die le. ahahha. oh well. okay. that's all ba.. eyes hurt like crazy le. cyaaa

hmms. finally decided on tj. impressed? haha. after ponning school to go to ij, then to nj, hci and cj... finally decided to stay in tj.. =D so glad it's finally over. realised that tj teaches super fast though. hahaha... i was so impressed.. we're at least a chapter in front of every subject i take as compared to nj.. haha. impressive. and the tutorials.. like super slack lah. lectures are.. hmm... yeah.. so yeap. tj for me. haha. =) so happy... nj's canteen food is nice though. go try! the bubble tea also. LOL. addictive. hahaha. good lah. no need to go appeal le. no more super high risk to be undertaken. i'm free to join whatever i want. no extra obligations.. i'm going there with my own merit. feels good. haha. glad i went to nj and all today. made me sure that what i want is tj. just changed the jae application thing. shan't look back now. i'm glad it's over. =) now can concentrate le. a big thanks to everyone who helped me out and adviced me... mrs nicks, hazel, the oac seniors, jun sheng, constance, avalene, yi jun, cheryl, yanling.. aiya basically everyone lah. a biggg thanks! =D

ooh. leong chuan just said that our chinese project got a consolation prize. cool manz. haha. =p but now everyone knows that i ponned le. hahaha. oops? oh well. oh thanks jun sheng for the nj badge! =) omg my last time tution centre just called me up to ask what i got for bio. LOL. okayyyy.. interesting.. haha.. oh well. ke yi buy tj uni le. LOL. hope and pray that i stay in beta.. or else ah.. i transfer to aj then you know. hahaha. just kidding. looking forward to the second intake... so that i can take my triple science le. no more econs! -cheers- hahaha

sigh. what a difference a day can make... now left wondering what the future has install. so weird that feeling. anyway ij is.. like omg lah. we had to buy the chocomania tickets or else we can't get our o level results. what rubbish lah. so stress. so many pple got single digits.. quite a number of 6 also. saddening. sigh. don't know... kind of didn't improve from the prelims? =/ rarrrhh... i really don't know what to do now. still feeling pretty disappointed... 7 distinctions out of 8 subjects. chinese is.. b3? but so what? that can't bring me anywhere loh. this sucks. i really don't know what to do.. arggh. sucks manz. i hate my bonus... sucks like hell. then again maybe i DO want to stay in tj. probably would miss tj quite a fair bit should i decide to leave? so luan one.. i also don't know le.. i feel quite lost. a bit the cannot make decisions.. only consolation is that i got a2 for my amath. big miracle already... now i've the full range of combis to choose from should i stay in tj. except a level chinese and lep.. duh... so yeap. can take either f math or triple science le. but i think i shouldn't do f math right. i'm not confident at all. my math always cannot make it de. triple science like very stress. heard bio's really tough and all... but i suppose i'll take my chances? right now almost anything's better than economics.. sigh. neighbour asked me to try rj.. or nj. cos of the distance. he says that i never know.. but.. like.. hmm. quite hard to get in right. the chances seem quite low to me.. don't know lah. 5 days.. to stay or not to stay. feel a quite attached to tj right now... how??? SIGH

tmr's the day. oh manz. so screwed.finally got the jae letter. phew? haiz. sigh. i think ah. if i see a double digit i'll just cry. sigh. don't know. this sucks. then i'll roughly know which school i'll end up in right. haiz. sian ah. i wish this day wouldn't come so soon... but whatever it is.. come what may. my reslut was already determined last year when i last put my pen down after the exams. can't change it already. sigh

very pissed off. i feel like i can just storm out of tj any moment. like i could just walk off never to return again. dammit. rarrrhh. team? what team? omg lah. went trekking up and down bukit timah hill with the backpacks filled with bottles of water.. then walked all the way to mac ritchie. some people just don't care. makes me wonder what i'm doing here. why everything's like that? i'm trying so hard already to mix with everyone and anyone. why like that? so pissing. physically yes it was draining. mentally it was worse. was so pissed off that there was no sense of accomplishment or whatsoever at all. don't know how to describe it. don't know whether i'll stay. see my mood on that day. get this feeling that maybe i won't stay anymore. bleahx. anyway, yesterday went out with them to go shopping to see whether we could find nice backpacks for the expedition. heck. bought solomon shoes. damn ex. nearly $200. but lucky they were on discount? nice shoes though. like them. relieves the stress on my current only pair of shoes. rarrrh. feel so irrritated. who cares about what monday brings now?! arggh

okay. shall update? err tests tests and more tests? sian ah. school sucks. been scraping out passes... not a very good sign right? all my tutorials also.. they're all dead. haha. oh well. hmm. road run today. a bit the disasterous. but not that bad i suppose? learnt something. never start from the back cos it's crazy. and i don't know. got other stuff to be learnt i suppose. nevermind. first try? haha. don't know lah. if i do decide to stay in tj... next year for the road run must be one of the top twenty positions. yups. agreed with yuxuan on that. we can do it de. =) ahaha. the nus test is horrid? omg lah the physics section was not exactly do-able. so hard.. haiz. chem was not that easy either. like they expected you to memorise the periodic table like that. haha. a lot of stuff all never learn before de. rarrrhh. but the bio's easy. sian ah. should have taken the bio one. cleverly did chem and physics.. cos i'm not doing bio for the first three mths mah. wrong choice i suppose. heck it lah. falalala. biathlon tmr. good luck everyone. pray i don't pull zhi yong down? haven't exactly really been swimming. hahaha. what else? valentine's day? quite normal? fun also lah. finally touched a bball in such a long time. haha. errr.. angel and mortal game? got three. og de.. he already knows it's me. super lah he. so fast. one letter jiu know le. the whole school de. revealed already. err. senior class one. haven't yet. he's in the sc. always see him around. saw him at the road run also. walked right past him quite a number of times. quite tempting to say hi. hahahaha. oh well. a few more days to doomsday. sian ah. what's with the letter from moe for the teaching scholarship thing? is it for real? i never ever want to get that thing. eeeyer. ahaahha. okok. i'm totally crapping out rubbish le. that's all then

hmm. actually i realised that oac's really quite nice. haha. not like i didn't know that before but yeah... up and down 23 flight of stairs five times. quite fun lah. with our partners and all. loved teh countdown. lol. funnn. did the adventure tower also. part of it lah. accomplishment. somehow i think my fear of heights momentarily disappeared or something. didn't feel much. just the need to finish everything as fast as possible. don't ask me why i felt that way. i just somehow felt. errr somewhat determined. don't know where that came from. like must do it. i have to.. that kind of feeling. HAHA. i think i get it. i'm officially going nuts. -really dramatic look- haha. don't know lah. but got quite a lot of satisfaction from completing the obstacle. muahaha. felt a bit like a monkey though.. =) quite a nice feeling i think... haha. i'm really talking rubbish. haha. ooh. so going for the march exp. exciting. climbing mount stong and ayam in malaysia. sounds fun. =) and yinwei can go le! so happy. xiao wei and jinhe are also going. yanlinggg!! jia you! hope to see you there also! =D lalala. oohhh.. got a pass for the rubbished econs essay. so rephrasing sentances does earn you marks afterall -contemplates- haha. yeah. it's a fail but a pass also. like a double digit fail so not too bad. shall remember it as a rubbished pass. lol. maybe i won't drop econs afterall... we'll see we'll see... ahaha. falala. nothing much to say. in a mood to go running!!! tmr tmr. if i go now.. i'll like wake the entire neighbourhood up.. then they'll all be like who's that crazy person running around in the middle of the night. hahaha. omg i'm talking rubbish lah. haha. that's all.

ooh. wait. got this from junsheng's blog... results are totally crap lah. ignore it. just thought the quiz was quite cute... haha. =p hmm while you are there do the chem test also. got like full marks. quite easy de. or so i think... =) muahaha. propaganda to ask people to like chemistry right. =) ooh and the loser test. haha. i'm so not loser. hmm so nerds aren't that much of losers afterall?! ahaha

falala. ponned sch to go back to ij. mass was okay. the singing was.. torturous lah. somehow i was wondering when they would stop making so much ahem noise. lol. okay being evil. they had some weird interhouse lion dance competition. haha. funny. oh well. anyway, met mrs low. she seemed somewhat shocked to know that i'm in tj. started asking me what i got for the prelims. so yeah. told her raw 9 after bonus 8. she was like oh that's good. tj's a good school. haha. i think i still had that funny !!! look. must have thought that i can't make it to tj is it. -glares for a moment- remember someone saying that even aj wouldn't take me in. bleahx. hmm. yeah. met mrs tang, mrs tay, mr teh, mrs nicks and all. oh well. my belt isn't that bad what. -innocent look- at least it's still on. haha! hmm. they say tj's a good school. hmm. interesting. mrs siao says i look like i'm ready to leave tj. really meh. there's a possibility that i'll stay one leh. haha. they all say see you in two weeks time. i was so tempted to say no no i don't wish to see any of you in two weeks time. it'd spell doom for me. o level results time right. i'd rather not have it can. sigh. oh well. went out after that to orchard with everyone. had macs. lol. then walked and walked. falala. first time i've stepped into coffee bean and tea leaf. interesting. oh saw nat. SIGH. she's in nj and she's going to leave after the first three mths to go to temasek poly. sigh. i want her place in nj. oh well. maybe tj ain't that bad after all. haha. =p see how lah. results must be quite okay to be able to stay also anyway. hmm. what if i failed humanities...9 plus whatever is a lot loh. oh well. nvm nvm. nothing i can do about it now anyway. hmm. tmr must go bai nian. so sian lah. oh well. so super tired. sigh. nevermind. whoa. -looks up in excitement- three ENTIRE days without tj. sooo exciting! muahaha

ooh. ponning school in tj to go back to ij for cny celebrations. finally decided on doing so. didn't see a point of going to tj for three periods of civics only. not like i like civics one bit anyway. haha. oh well. sigh. i feel bad. i don't like tj much. yet it's given me so many opportunities and i dislike it for doing that. it's making me feel obliged to stay after the first three months somehow. haiz. oh the nus science thing. the cutoff was like 6pts for english plus four math or science subjects lah. obviously i didn't make the cut. i got 8 i think. yups. so yeah those who made the cut obviously went through. like twenty five people lah. tj's sending thirty pple. so they picked five pple out of the remaining people to go for the test thing based on teacher's reccomendation supposedly because of the overwhelming response. impressive. didn't know teachers would nominate me. came as such a shock lah. hmm. especially when i happily handed in the form late. like a day after dateline. lol. shocking. but i'm so going to gu fu their qi wang lah. dieee. haiz. feels stressful. what if i fail that test. damn. picked chem and physics. dumb to choose to only be tested on two subjects but oh well. the rest seem un-do-able. my math sucks and i don't take bio. sigh. i'm so dead lah. already struggling with all my subjects. can i please drop econs now? haiz. this sucks. oh managed to pass the stupid chem test. so no need to go for remedial. muahaha. good. very good. falala. maybe i should stay in tj? feeling so bad. oh biathlon. why only me and zhi yong doing individual?! sigh. and go for the march ex leh. i want to go for the mountain climbing thing. go with meee. sounds so fun can. =) oh i don't think i can make it for the sa funfair btw, super packed that day. so sorry yeah... muahaha. no tj for three whole days. i feel so happy. but these few days cannot be classified as holidays. more unfinished tutorials. sigh.

shall post before i really get to busy to post. errm. i don't know. sometimes don't you wonder what would have happened should have happened instead of what actually happened? as in like what if you were posted to another jc? like your first choice jc or something. how different life would be now. sigh. i think i can't cope. not suprising right. three pdps. four subjects. so horrible. want to start dropping pdps... but i feel so bad. like i feel obliged to stay or something. want to drop econs also. but. don't know lah. never dropped a subject before. maybe i should wait till after the first three months then change or something. give econs a couple more weeks to ahem prove it's worth to me. hahaha. omg i sound like i'm so wei da like that. hahaha. oh well. econs is so super not tailored for people like me. just had the econs test today. promptly declared that econs was a test of my linguistic ability. the ability to rephrase sentances over and over again to create what is superficially called an economics essay. as defined by me lah. total crap. haha. yesterday's chem test was just WONDERFUL. left wondering if i would pass. haha. so sad right. hmm. passed math on the dot. well. apparently everyone in my scg passed math. so i figured where i stood in the class. right at the bottom. dieee. i'm so screwed. can't wait for cny. time to go study and catch up a bit. haha. omg what's wrong with me. so no life.

haiz. oh well. more tests coming up. sigh. will they really be counted if i stay in tj? if they are, i'm totally screwed. sigh. really want to drop econs already. and maybe take up bio later on. don't know lah. feel like my life's in such a mess. only going to get more and more busy. so many projects due. bleahx. hmm. being posted to ntu for the chem research thing for scico as well. doing on some acrymalide in food thing. yups. ntu's like at the other end of the world lah. it's in the west. tj's in the east. so yeah. but it definately beats lab work in tj itself. like crystal growing. didn't want that. glad i'm getting to go out. meet the ntu lecturers and all. damn cool. hope i can cope with it though. all my tutorials! cannot finish them in time most of the time. so screwed lah. just wish i've some time to do like just one, two questions of tutorials for each subject or something but oh well. finally seizing opportunities. or trying to rather. not too bad. has paid off a bit. got into scico. went for surf and sweat. going to take part in the road run and biathlon. quite fun lah. but it's so tiring. being in tj as a whole. must really reconsider whether i should stay in tj. i get this weird feeling that i should just go back to cj where most of the ij people are. but... i don't know. part of me tells me to try something new. that's why i decided not to go to cj to start off with. yups. haiz. don' t know lah. i bet i failed the os anyhow. so yeah.

oh. this rubbished thing happened yesterday. first i left the house without my. didn't realise till i was on the bus lah. so nevermind. started reading through some of my chem lecture notes cos there was to be a test later on. so yups. read. dozed off for what seemed like a split second and happily found myself somewhere in bedok north. tj's in bedok south lah. had such a good mind to just go back home and skip school. can't stand being late mah. anyhow decided to ask some passerby after i got off at the nearest stop what time it was lah. 7.10. hmm. decided i was going to attempt to take a taxi there lah. that woman's really nice. was asking if i had enough money for the taxi ride and for lunch and all. was offering to give me money to go take the taxi lah. luckily i had more than enough. then again i'd feel so bad that even if i didn't have enough i wouldn't accept her offer. hahaha. anyhow finally got a taxi. asked him to get me to tj. he was like where's that. i was like omg. erm it's in bedok south? whoa luckily somehow i still managed to get to tj at like 7.25? ahaha. phew lah. sigh. jc's pe is run run run. not a bad thing of course. but it's a bit boring? i want to learn new games. like handball? floorball? something like that. oh well.

this entry is so long. nevermind. make up for all the time in which i won't be posting with? haha. hmm. i don't like physics anymore. it's getting me all confused. a bad thing of course. math also. dieee. i'm going to screw up every test there is. sigh sigh sigh. three mortals now. so weird. the senior class one. apparently he's in the sc? that's like all i know about him lah. how to write to him. ahaha. nvm nvm. oh the carnival was okay. business was damn good lah. could hardly cope. the bubble tea thing. so shocking. we were hoping optimistically to sell like 200 cups. bet we over-sold it. haha. newly invented word. haha. quite fun lah. for ONCE i felt a bit like i was part of the class. my scg's people are quite nice also lah. different classes but not bad they adknowledge my presence? hahaha. quite funny also. wanted to smash cream on me. oh well. got some in the end anyway. hahaha... not too bad lah. looking forward to cny. break time. finally sometime to sleep and to catch up a bit. for now it's ren ren ren loh. study, run, research, study somemore, run somemore and try to go swimming a bit. can lah. my gold star is useless manz. esp after so many years. hahha. =p sigh. busy busy busy. tmr will be no different from any other day. sigh. nothing left to say. not looking forward to a new day but oh well. life's a neverending learning experience and journey. we cannot stop. must keep going right till the end. yups. come what may then. we can handle it. i'm going to enter imh soon i tell you. intensive mugging heaven. sigh. who ever said that the first three months was slack?! omg lah. what slack. liars. lol. jkjk. but really lah. what rubbish. first three months is so NOT slacked at all. oh well. k. it's like 1.30am already? haiz. okay. that's all then.

quote of the day: f you can't fly, then run. if you can't run, then walk. if you can't walk, then crawl. but whatever you do, keep moving.

whee~~ surf and sweat rocks. looking forward to the biathalon. want to take patrt in it. more interesting than the vertical challenge. lol. i'm crazy. sooo funnnn. surfing was quite disasterous. practically went out to sea lah cos the stupid surf board woundn't turn properly. the guys in the kayaks were like don't look so dismayed leh. haha. funny. second person who told me that though the race just started. lol. but other than that quite fun lah. nice to surf =) and not too bad. moves relatively fast. -happy- i like the surf board. lol. running was funny. walked quite a fair bit. esp up hill. hahaha. managed to catch up with pple from the previous wave? a great accomplishment for me lah. happiness. almost caught up with helena also.. and she was in the previous wave lah. whee~~ just that she can super sprint even at the last part. pro pro. whee~~ 11th. according to the position i came in with. not too bad. but i'm definately not the 11th lah. the other waves behind were most probably a lot faster than me. whee~~ i want the biathalonnn!!! i suddenly feel to enthu. what's wrong with me. haha. cj people are nice. they have sportsmanship. =) hmm met so many people too. alicia, yuting, cheryl, xinying.. so many so many people. cool-el. felt quite accomplished and disappointed. accomplished cos i finished the race and wasn't last at any point. disappointed cos i kept stopping and walking unnecessarily. something's wrong with me this week. can't push myself mentally. the mind over matter thing. failed. bleahx. must push myself harder. yups. falala. so many pple in mixed. impressive. oh extreme was wow lah. kar gea pro. finished pretty fast. pro. wow. should try it sometime... if i dare to that is. hahahaha...

THE GOODIE BAG IS NICE. like omg lah. i loveee the rip curl diary! i'll take part in it every year for that. lol. just kidding. the shirt's okay. the stuff are cool lah. haha. damn nice. love it. looking forward to it next year. must do solo again. fun. biathalon also. want to do solo. solo's nice. =)yay! hmm had reunion dinner yesterday too in some funny hotel. hmm so i'm really the only one who went to jc? sigh. oh sci co orientation yesterday too. so super tiring. running running and more running. at sentosa also. games were okay. oh well. haha. my sewing skills have deproved. seriously. ahaha. hmm mmm. need a better timing for the road runs trials thing. must go run and take the timing again. tuesday i think. must have time to rest a little. =) ooh so competitions like these are fun too. bball's so stress. hahaah. OH MANZ. math test tmr. confirm fail one. dieeee. i so super cannot get it lah. so terrible. okay that's all. must go wash up and go study. oh my shoes. so dirty must wash them. whoa then sch how? omg. haha. i'll find a way... okay that's all. muahaha

hmm. parents teacher meeting today. like whatever lah. i don't care. hahaha. hmm. pe today. ran before school so yeah was feeling quite tired already for the run. 2.2 km up and down the slopes. took like 13 over mins. which btw is bad. but okay considering i already ran before that. and i started from right at the back of the cohord. muahaha. yeah. anyway pe is so super army style lah. they use whistles and all like omg lah. so super... whatever loh. but i'll survive. haha. got called up for chem tutorial to solve some stupid question dumb thing. luckily that was the question i did last night. phew. but... hmm the working so long lah. waste my time. haha. jkjk. what a thing to complain about. haha. oh i think i finally witnessed something like a taupok when we were celebrating the birthdays of the january babies. haha.

had some beta house cheering session also. left early for science council. i like the teacher. the head of science one. she's got a sense of humor. haha. get to meet our chem tutors next week. kind of excited i guess. chem rocks. whee~~ haha. =) having some compulsory science council orientation also. whee. we'll learn about research. but the actual research and projects will only start after the next intake. oh well. better than nothing. falala. oac was nice. learnt the know tying stuff. nice. reminded me a bit of obs. nice thought. i like. haha. hmm. ran again. falala. still feeling quite.. no. make that very unprepared for the surf and sweat thing. haiz. oh well. oh have to take part in the road run also. dieee. time to start running CONSTANTLY. haiz. oh well. i don't look like a local meh? how come so many people have asked me that already? hahaha. oh well. so terrible lah. jc. shortage of time. haiz. i'm like so super lost for physics already. need some time to go read up everything again and err absorb it. i so can't carry on like that. the rest of my subjects are dying also esp math. die lah. i'm going to fail every test there is now. econs essay test next week.. sure fail. math also. die lah. i'm so super screwed. struggling enough with my tutorials. cannot do! rarrrhh. sigh. how how how? sigh.

hmm. interesting. tj was so chaotic today lah. they announced that we were going to change to plan a. in which we would all have our own customised timetables lah. then they gave us the timetables at the second period lah. after break. then wonderful. they started voting and all... blah blah blah. and somehow the plan reverted back to plan b. damn when i finally decide to vote for plan a... i've nicer tutors in plan a timetable lah. good chem tutor also. no relief teachers for six months and all. bleahx. apparently people didn't vote for it because school would end at 5.15 everyday. what rubbish lah. like that also can. at least there are breaks between some lessons. now.. so hectic. terrible. break what break. crazy. so inefficient lah. hahaha. jkjk. damn lah. i was supposed to go running in the morning. cannot wake up.. then just now after school wanted to stop by the stadium to run. but fell asleep in the bus. so ended up at the interchange. was too lazy to take another bus there after that. hahaha. oops? lol. oh well. quite ridiculous lah. i've to buy the pipette filler. bleahx. tj's pe shirts.. no more m size can. for like 3-4 weeks. wth. rubbish. lucky large still got. whee~~ can get a nice and baggy shirt as usual. lol. rubbish. haahahah.. omg lah. they have house t shirts for mass pe. and it's... sleeveless... ahhh.. beta's white. haha. okay lah. not too bad. but still.... haiz. oh well. can this week be over soon? please?

YIPPIEEEE!!! whee~~ i'm so happy lah. somehow got into the science council thing. chem faculty somemore. yay! hahahaa.. all the rubbished questions i had to answer lah. they asked for the science results in secondary school. then what you are interested. why you are interested why they should pick you. what science related cca were you from in secondary school and finally the research proposal thing. omg lah. ij got science related cca one meh? i just declared that every cca had something to do with science one way or another. like for bball you have to know what angle and depth and velocity to shoot the ball with. total crap i know. but i was a bit desperate lah. haha. then the research thing... thanks everyone who i asked for help in that from. especially ming chuan lah. yeah. biggg thanks. whee~~ this is probably the best thing that has happened to me since i entered tj. hahaha... maybe i'll stay after all! LOL. i'm going crazy. wed first lecture. i'm one happy person. thanks everyone! hahaha... so anyway we ARE joining surf and sweat. solo somemore. i feel... terribly unprepared. it's like this week lah. like omg. haha. no stamina to run already. and never surfed before in my life can. omg i'm crazy. oh well. nevermind. just try right?: for the fun of it. and for the experience? hahahahaaa.. oh well. falala. oh got back the chinese compo today. like omg lah. he marked it. sheesh. it was supposed to just be for his reading pleasure can. oh well. hahhhaha... i think i get super traumatised by chinese tutorials nowadays. half the world got a1 for their chinese lah. i scared ah. hahahhaha... oh having this relief math teacher who's super comical. omg lah. everytime i look at him i can't stop laughing. hear him talk also like that. was like come on. ren... cannot be so evil. omg lah. hahaha. everyone was laughing. really funny he. funny actions and all. never had such an entertaining math lesson in my entire life lah. hahahaha.. funny person. omg lah. hhahahaaha... oh well. haha. mass pe tmr. land pe. dieee. haven't bought the tj pe attire. nvm. orientation shirt should be fine lah. don't care. hahaahha

orienteering yesterday.quite few people went lah. but it was quite fun i suppose. some conveyor belt rubbish and all. hahaha... fun. walked fo rsoo many hours though. but still not half as bad as bball training. HAHA. omg. they were commenting that bballers have this very diao face. like very cannot be bothered with you look.. then they said that i have the friendly look which is wrong. lol. then after awhile they commented that i really have the bball look that's why they believe i'm from bball. then i thinking...omg. i look so diao one meh? someone then said that i look like i'm from the dance club or some very guai like of cca. !!! lah. hahaha. they then went on the comment on how pple look english-ed or chinese-d and i fell under the very chinesed group. !!! again. omg lah. i never knew i looked THAT cheena. omg. haha. oh well pdp regristration. sigh. someone pleaseee join chinese calligraphy with me. sigh. just for fun lah. haiz. oh well. ij tp's known to be an englished school. that's nice. no wonder pple start off talking to me in chinese. only if it sounds too forced out then i'll start speaking chinese to them. hahahaha... not bad. we're english-ed. hahaha. sounds funny. haha. i'm talking rubbish. tutorials! i need to do them. sigh

whoa. finally. a holiday. yay. haha. i've never looked forward to a holiday so much before. haha. hmm. went to cj after sch in tj yesterday. left a little early because apparently our chinese teacher was ahem too busy to meet us. yups. what rubbish lah and he wanted to know each of us better so we had to write a compo about ourselves. like omg lah. me? what's there to talk about me? i nearly wanted to write that i disliked tj. LOL. oh well. hmm. met some juniors in tp central while waiting for kai qin to come. their matches are coming up. i should attempt to at least go for one right?! yes i should. shouldn't be so evil. haha. oh someone was asking me which jc i was in lah. so i was like ermmm tj. then she was like tj's better than cj is it? i was like. ... errrm. well... hahaha. tj's in errr the top five? then she was like omg that's good. stay there then. then i told her tj's in bedok. lol. we all had the omg look on our faces. hahaha... i wonder why. haha. hmm. yeah went to look around cj. saw cheryl there. and a lot of other ij pple. yup. then went to orchard for dinner and all. oh yeah did i tell you about the dejavu? so scary lah. i saw that happening in my dream so many times before. omg lah. so it was the tj's phy lab after all. sheesh am i that fated to go to THAT school?! haha.

realised i'm being super random today. hmm. oh wednesday ah. so humiliating lah. met my neighbour at the bus stop. this already working guy lah. he also asked me what school i was in. he was like ij? ij katong? i was like no no.. i'm in tj. then he said oh the one in bukit timah. i had that !!! look. was betting that he was talking about nj. so yeah i told him that tj was in bedok south. then he started claiming that tj was probably once in bukit timah. i was like erm how would i know. omg lah then he asked if our uniforms were grey in colour. bleahx. so i was correct after all. i gave him the funny look and told him that was nj. then luckily the bus came so i said goodbye and ran off. bleahx. so... roar. haiz. whatever lah.

lalala. i realised that cj pple mostly go to orchard. HAHA. in tj there's no where to go. unless you want to go to parkway parade or errr tampines mall. haha. so ridiculous. hahaha... oh i've only seen my bro in long pants once this year. i mean like the sji one. he says i'm just slow. but.. don't know lah. i think it just shows how much time i spend at home? i mean like i leave home before anyone but my mum's awake to get to tj in time. then by the time i get back... everyone's doing their own stuff already. yup. HAHA. another ridiculous thing. had our first gp tutorial yesterday lah. then we had some stupid gp quiz on anything and everything. the english part was okay. erm how i know who wrote the pledge and all?! leaders of the world that kind of stuff. english literature. i was practially guessing everything lah. at least 3/4 of the books i had never heard of before though i SO remember emily bronte. jo teo said that so many times until ah.. if i forget i can go tiao lou zi sha le. haha. how would i know the direct translation of tsunami anyway? so i was think 海啸. so it's the sea something. cos there was such an option lah. haha. see how despo i am. LOL. anyway it was wrong lah. what rubbish. hahaha. anyway yeah the top three from each scg have to go for another gp quiz held later on lah. total rubbish. somehow i got second. don't ask me how. cos i also don't know. i got like almost all of the literature questions wrong. haha. i was like !!! shit. i've to go for another quiz and guess my way through the literature section again?! omg lah. i don't want.

oh there was this interesting woman at orchard. we were buying something. then she started asking us if we still speak english in ij. or if we had become some cheena chinese speaking people. omg lah. we were like erm yeah we still speak english. hahahaha... apparently she's from ij katong. that's why she asked. haha. so weird though. haha. hmm. still have a lot of unfinished tutorials. SIGH. should i go for the orienteering tmr for oac? like 830am till 5-6 in the evening? lalala. pdp registration's online. have until monday to decide. haiz. i want to try chinese calligraphy? anyone wants to join it with me? hahaha.. no use asking. no tj pple are supposed to come to my blog right. better not come especially if they like tj. haha. tired tired tired. bet our class is having land pe. nooo. i'd rather have water pe. the swiming thing. nooo. i'm lazy to run. hahahaha. no more stamina. haha. jkjk. tired. cousin's reminding me about reunion dinner. hmm i totally forgot. 29th or something. i also don't know. what happens if i can't make it then? sigh. pdp first. what should i join? i really don't know

just got home. so tired. but i SO have to blog about today. muahaha. -looks around and whispers idiotically. i FINALLY managed to do the monkey bars successfully. omg lah. finally. after 16 years of falling off at the first bar. unassisted. muahaha. it was one of the stations for the oac training today mah. i was like. omg shit when they first said that there was that. haha. first attempt was pathetic fell off after the secind bar. second one was until i got halfway. the following one was one short of finishing thr bar. like crap lah. then the final one. muahaha. i got across. quite fast too. not bad. quite happy with it. hahaha. yups. did the climb over the wall thing too. ended up with a lot of scratches and all lah. and worst of all i didn't do it entirely on my own. bleahx. i will be able to do it... by wednesday. i must. hmm. jacob's ladder. somehow i managed to do it as well. -shrugs- but it was really freaky lah. if you ask me to do it again i'll just die. hahaha. anyway i realised training's a lot like bball. a lot of running and pt. haha. oh well. i was crazy lah. after oac, got jai to go jogging with me around the school tracks. attempted the wall and jacob's thing again. fail lah. must keep trying. haha. yup. jogging's nice. i think i'm sadistic. i like to force myself to do stuff i don't like and all. hahahahaa..

oh tj's finally got it's tutorial thing. so rubbished lah. after assembly they asked us to go buy the timetable thing. the queue's super long lah. and wonderful they tell us that the timetable starts today itself. what rubbish i tell you. so ridiculous. had my first "tutorial" in the physics lab. interesting the pple in my scg. haha. no ij pple as usual. sigh. wonder why i don't sound shocked at all. anyway we didn;t do much for the tutorial. more or less talk and we errr discussed one question. yup. that's about it. then had civics. finally got a civics tutor. i think ah... she's a bit essentric. like omg lah. sheesh. pity we didn't get someone else. damn. hahaha. she keeps records from don't know when and all. and she promotes civics like crazy can. telling us how great her students thought the civics classes were. omg lah. duh. she's feeding us with propaganda cos she's taking us for that. hahahaha...

oh so ridiculous. pple who went for obs aren't allowed to go again. some obs policy. since when. that sounds like total rubbish. then i'd rather forfit the 5 day one to go for the 21 day one. actually should be can right. just take a different course bu shi jiu ke yi le mah? anyway, tj's opening up the overseas one to all of us who have gone before... korea. brunei and all. hmm. i want the new zeland oneee.. but they're not opening it to us. duh. it costs like $5500 lah. HAHA. a bit the ex only. a little bit. OH sheesh. the new timetable rubbish. sch ends around ermmm 3.45? how jea, kq, rach and all? i can't possibly get from tj to like toapayoh by 4.15? impossible lah. i think i can only get there like around 5 plus lah. so how? let me know okay. just err msg me or something. yup. haha. whoa over 9.3o liao. sheesh lah. okay that's all. got a lot of unfinished tutorials. sooo going to die. sigh

hmm. got home from the camp awhile ago. let me see. friday was stupid. i went to school for one lecture only. gp on lotr. haha. how dumb. so yeah. so much time to spare. worse still... had to wait till like 430 for the camp to start. can't even go home. if i tried.. i think ah. i'll just touch the door and it's time to go head back to school already. so sian. rarrrhh. so much time. just spent it in the library reading up on some stuff, sleeping, going on the net for awhile. that kind of stuff. haha. so boring life in tj. falala. had some ice breaker thing. introductions and all. quite a number of pple are from temasek secondary leh. i'm the lone ij-er in my grp as usual. I WONDER WHY. haiz. had the survival cooking also. the one where all the food rations are hidden. was laughing when i found one piece which said "two eggs" HAHA. who cares manz. anyway, we are one biggg family. so we shared everything anyway. then we headed to east coast to camp. carried everything from tj to ec. omg lah. i didn't know that floats can be so heavy. haha. jkjk. anyway, there was something wrong with our tent lah. the structure is unsound. cos the equiptment itself had a lot of flaws and problems. so yeah. anyhow it didn't collaspe-a good thing. lol. yups. so that was it.

saturday was more fun. had wet games. like the.. what's that called. that structure in the water then you stand on it and try to hit your opponent down... anyway i was like omg please don't make me play that. the water was so cold lah. early morning what. i was like the tide's rising and by the time it's my turn please make the tide too high for the game to be play-able. haha. so lucky. it happened just when it got to my group's turn. lol. luckyyy. whee~ then we went rafting. omg lah. our wonderful raft. i haven't gotten onto it, i also scared already. so super unstable. i mean the design lah. someone said the better larger the surface area the better. HAHA. abish. haha. yeah anyway we all ended clinging on desperately to the poles and attempting to paddle in our sinking raft. someone resorted to swimming in the middle of it lah. so funny. haha. we ahd to play tug of war and race with another team. race what race? pull what pull? we were sinking lah. hahahaha. oh well. but it was quite fun i suppose. teamwork and endurance. haha. funny though. hmm. went orienteering after that. omg lah. the checkopints where like all over singapore? the first one was to beach road to buy lightsticks an have lunch. second was erm bugis where we played in the fountain. omg lah. there was this guy filming us and all. so malu. haha. third was.. katong. all shared a bowl of laksa with extra chilli. wasn't hot lah. it was.. salty. omg lah. ahaha. i think that was all cos we were so behind time. haha. yup went back to ec to get our stuff. then headed back to tj. had campfire there. interesting. the last campfire i went for was like what? primary five? probably the only one also. haha. then there was the grp performance. did a skit. totally impromptu. we were all like omg thankgoodness it's over. somehow though we won the best performance thing. crazy. haha. so yeah shared everything with everyone cos... we are ong big family... ahahaha! night games was rubbished. candle thing. omg lah the string doesn't burn. i was burning it like erm at least three times and nooo it wouldn't burn. what rubbish. haha. later we had this search for sparklers thing. HAHA. i found a few in the field. impressive. lol. after that it was time to sleep lah. dance studio or anywhere else. so i erm slept on the steps of the grand stand. i'm crazy. but before that at like midnight, i was playing frisbee with a teacher then others joined us. pretty fun. but by three.. whoa i shou bu liao le. wanted to sleep. haha. so yups. oh tj's short of bballers for the girls team. -laughs evilly- i. don't. care. hahha. yeah the teacher was like why don't you want to join. i was like why would i? haha. said it was a bit of a waste of my bballing skills. i was like erm what skills? i'd rather try something new. haha i'm so evil.

today was just pretty much cleaning and clearing everything up. yup. falala. still don't know what pdp to join. lalala. haiz. i feel like trying chinese calligraphy. hmm. but i don't know where or how to join cos the exhibition thing's over. falala. i'm crazy. hmm. omg lah. i feel like going to join the band also. but i know nothing. what rubbish am i talking about? haha. sheesh. so many tutorials left. my proposal also. rarrrhhh. and i want to sleep. lol. maybe i'll come online tonight. hmm shall go do something constructive. don't intend to get too killed tmr when we return for sch. haha. that's all then

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... cannot believe i did it. i crashed a school. muahaha. rj. i'm crazy. i'm such an evil thinggg. omg. haha. wasn't planning to do so lah. was in the bus on the way to sch. started examining my timetable. realised that sch ended relatively early. like 12pm lah. so i started msging xt and rh to see whether i could crash nj or rj. haha. i'm crazy. whee. lucky rh repiled. hahahaha. omggg. haha. i'm evilll. was nearly late for lectures again in tj. fell asleep in the library in tj as usual. so horrible. it's dangerous lah. what if one day i really miss lectures?! haha. oh well. anyway took a cab with gwendoline. rushed to rj because we decided that we wanted to go for the last lecture as well. yups. anyway, went to the canteen. bought an rj badge each. souviner like that. HAHA. then went for chem lecture with them. their lecture theatre is so super nice can. looked like an auditorium like that. omg lah. so nice. so new. omg lah. haha. so freaky though. half way the teachers started sitting nearby. i was like oh shit. cos i was using my tj notes. HAHA. but thy didn't realise. lucky me. haha. whee. oh yeah. omg lah. pple from my cg crashed rj also. they all borrowed the rgs uniform. i see they planned to do it. ong i was so shocked when i heard my name being called a number of times when i entered the lecture theatre. beefie: hello! hahha. bet i surprised you. haha. big thanks to rh btw. =) yups. oh rj pple are nice actually. some cedar person just started talking to me. obv she knew that i was crashing lah. not bad. easier to blend in then. HAHA. hmm. went out after that to j8. went to swensens. omg the noodles cannot make it. haha. yeah. anway jessica did this funny scorse me thing. omg lah. super funny. to the waitress. it's supposed to be excuse me. and the circular motion. -burries face- omg lah. hahahaha. qutie embrassing the stuff we were doing. lol. disgrace to ij. muahaha. -h5 rh and rw!- hahaha! jkjk. erm walked ard. went shopping. went to thai express for dinner. omg lah. HAHA. the tom yam soup. i want to laugh already. haha. the twins looked like they were being tortured by it. haha. it was quite nice what. haha. they'll tell e i'm crazy. HAHA. i loveee the way they ordered the pineapple rice. HAHA. the omg i'm dying tone. HAHA. funny. the guy also. he looked so super amused by us. HAHA. oops? ahahaha... HAHAHA. got my whistle from popular. so amusing. haha. oh the oac person just called. oac orientation group two. had to write is somewhere. why not here. HAHA. i'm crazy...

SIGH. boring. boring. boring. haiz. had econs today. i'm finally understanding. quite impressive. went for bio lecture also. quite a number of people. but a lot less than that of econs and physics. made the right decision i suppose. the bio lecturer sucks btw. she laughs at her jokes which are NOT jokes. serious. no one laughs along anyway. cos it's really not one bit funny. and she's irritating. like the kind you would want to slap lah. maybe it's just me. feeling horrible lah. oh we had so many talks after that. so boring. was half asleep. oh that dr william tan guy came to our school. some inspirational thing. yups. quite a feat i must admit the way he overcomes his challenges and all. something wrong with me though. all that ran through my mind was that his grammer was all out of sorts. so terrible. i'm not supposed to think of that. oh yeah. tj jad green striped ties for wednesdays cos they would sing the sch song on this day i think. omg lah. it looks horrid. oh went for the sailing thing. physical training. i so didn't want to go lah. headache can. so horrible. think i'm falling sick. nooo. haiz. hmm. did 1.6km run. bleahx. became like some endurance test of some sort. wanted to puke lah. was forcing myself to finish it. horrible. nine over minutes. ridiculous timing. horrible can. but oh well. no where near the last. i'm impressed. then we did the inclined flex arm hang. most pple did five so i just did eight and that's all. SIGH missing the sailign joyride on saturday cos of the camp. heard it's going to be tough the camp. more pt or something. sigh. i really need a slack cca. oh mass swimming on tues. lucky me. not in the this friday group. good. sigh sigh sigh. there are cas in the first three months. bleahx. what rubbish. HAIZ. should study. terrible. anyway should come online less often yes. practise self control. haiz. opportunity cost. don't forget. sigh.

sigh. in the library now. my new found favourate hideout in tj. first time using the computers here. quite slow the computers. omg lah. who in the world told me that it was fast?! haha. oh well. bored. just had phy and math lecture. lalala. econs later. hope it won't be as boring as yesterday's lecture. read some of the econs notes. stupid thick stack on the way to school since i realised that i have a lot of time on the bus everyday. haha. break time is also good for doing a little bit of the undone tutorials. haha. hmm right earhole's giving me problems again. this sucks. haiz. nothing to do. feel like going to sleep again. library what. HAHA. oh well. should do my tutorials right.

haiz. i really think i'm going to die for math. was lost half the time in lecture just now. lucky jai knew everything. hahaha... sheesh lah. really need to practise math. how ah? start doing the amath tys from last year again? bleahx. later that one also don't know how to do then how? haiz. oh HAHA first time someone said that she liked my handwritting during lecture. graph drawing also. i'm shocked. haha. but still there's no point being able to draw nice graphs without being able to solve the dumb question itself. haha.

oh sheesh. sailing physical training session tmr. the last time i ran was like when? -starts thinking- sheesh lah i don't know. oh well. heck it. i think i probably won't stay with sailing anyway. oh manz. i need to find a slack cca. guitar? entreprenurship club? what else ah. something to go with oac. hmm. band? lol i don't know how to play leh. hahahaha... i'm crazy. i need a slack ccaaaa! bleahx. falala. econs tutorial later. should finish reading the notes. they're sooo super thick though. so sian. sigh i feel so out of place in my cg. hope they'll assign us out sgs soon. i'm talking more and more rubbish. sigh. SIGH. it's so no life here at tj. bleahx. should try not to come online so often. the opportunity cost of going online is quite high i realise. HAHA. i'm crazy. hmm. time to do something about math anyway. haiz. oh shit. lecture time. byeee

HAHAHA! i'm home. earliest ever. i'm so impressed. i'm sure tmr can be earlier than that if there's no lecture after 12. hahaha. so happy. out of tj. wow. i'm going crazy. econs lecture was boringgg. horrible lah. i can't believe i'm going to take it. bleahx. so super boring. chem also. terrible i tell you. so.. omg lah. to think i actually did my chem lecture notes questions. what a waste of my time. hahaha. anyway, for the first time ever, i like the library! omg yay! haha. tj's so boring to me that i've cultivated a love for the library. yeah. whee~~ i can happily read my lecture notes and do my tutorials in the library and it's a good place to fall asleep in i tell you. everytime i go there i'll fall asleep while reading lecture notes of something. hahahaha... so no life. oh well. going for the oac camp from the 14-16th. omg i actually registered for it? hope it'll make me erm like tj more. haha. falala. praying that the impossible will happen. pray that i'll get 6 pts so that i can run off from tj. i feel so out of place lah. all the chung cheng, dunman, and anglican pple are always together in one group. i'm like in the middle of no where lah. esp in my cg. they're always together. bleahx. terrible. so i'm always with the same few people all the time. haiz. tj's cheena. everyone speaks in chinese. first time i bought something from the canteen and i had to speak chinese. bedok hawker centre also. i always have to order in chinese. i'm so not used to it lah. in ij everything's in english. i think i'm seriously going to die when chinese lecture really starts. hopefully it'd be fine? don't know lah. i still have this wanting to leave tj. whoa. more tutorial booklets. omg they really think we're all planning to stay for two year is it? all the tutorial booklets are like for the entire year. more tutorials to do now i suppose. got the bio notes too just for fun. haha. i'm crazy. haiz. oh computing's boring. reminds me of the horrid programming days. lol. jkjk. just a few more months. ren.

lalala. what subj combi should i take? triple science or chem phy math and econs? which oneee??? someone advise me! oh well. history's nice too. roar. don't know what to take. so irritating.hmm. clan outing yesterday. interesting. went cycling. yeah. quite fun. haven't cycled for a long long time. falala. bbq was quite interesting. oops now half the world knows that i can't play bridge or tai ti. nah just kidding. not that many pple. but sufficient. haha. omg lah. i'm super lousy at this sort of stuff. falala. nothing much after that. quite impressed with other pple's enthusiam. omg lah they dance on the beach there? i don't like dancinggg. hhahaha. falala.nothing much left to say. is the online regristration for pdps still on? i hope so. cos i haven't done it. haha. nothing much. i've tutorials to do i think. but who cares lah. i don't want to do them. haha. so bored now. finally did the singpass thing and logged into the matrix account. hahhaha. i'm talking rubbish already. haha

hmm. orientation is FINALLY over! yay! hahaha. but last night was real fun lah. honestly. ended ard 11pm. erm lets see. wait. went for a lot of lectures today. bio was okay. fairly substancial. erm. f maths was a killer. nah. i'm SO not taking it. not like i can like that anyway. haha. gp was errr okay lah. tj's really cheena btw. so much so, they need to have a ENGLISH fair. omg lah. in ij we'd have a chinese fair to promote the use of chinese. hahaha. erm went for english literature also. boringgggg... geog wasn't too bad. haha. is that all i went for? aiya who cares. i still can't believe i went for the lep lecture for fun. i'm crazy. haha. more rehersals for o night loh. yeah.

o night started with this pretty dark surroundings and mysterious ambience in the hall. they gave us all glow sticks. hahaha. too bad we had to sit at the back. hmm. yeah. had loads of performances. funnn...we're called beta group now. prefer the name aquasus but oh well. whoa we all went crazy yesterday. so super fun. shhhhh. left left left right aquasus! left left left right aquasus! we are strong! aquasus! we will win! aquasus. oooohhhh.. *starts clapping* we're going to rock rock rock the world. we're going to shake shake shake some butt. we're going to kick kick kick some all. aquasus aquasus is the best! ooohhhh! aquasus!!! woo hoo! hahahaa... omg aquasus rocks. OH yeah. another observation. our house captain's really shuai. like omg. haha. hey okok. i'm not the only one who thinks so okayyy... hahhahah.. but like wow. hahaha. actually yeah i don't care but he's really shuai lah. falalala.. -innocent look- hahaha. when i say water you say yeah! water yeah water yeah! when i say water you say oh. ohh ohhh. when i say water you say what. water what water what! water water kicks some butt! whee~~ hahahaha..

our performance was nice loh. i was so wowed by the total no booing from the audience and their participation as well. hhahaa. hmm. after the concert thing the councillors presented us with the free styler dance. damn nice. hahaha. then HAHA mass dance. hahaha.. crazy manz. speedy was still the nicest. whee~~ had two rounds. haha. then everything was over. so sad. hmm mass dance reminds me of out suntec mass dance thing. omg lah. ahaha. we have so many so many dances. whee~~ hmm decided not to thawn. aiya what's that word? no idea how to spell it. apparently they stayed over at changi airport. hahaha.. hmm clan outing later. some bbq thing at east coast. hmm going to cycle first or something. but it's raining leh. how to cycle. oh well. whee~~ aquasus rocks! yeah manz!i lurvvee aquasus! -bigg grin- temasek temasek.. temasek temasek temasek.. we are the ones. the wonders we will always be the besttt... hahaa. so propagandaed lah. haha. oh well. thunder thunderation!we temasek delegation! when we cheer with determination, we create a sensation! *starts clapping* thunder thunderation!we temasek delegation! when we cheer with determination, we create a sensation! *claps and stomps* thunder thunderation!we temasek delegation! when we cheer with determination, we create a sensation! *claps and jumps non-stop* thunder thunderation!we temasek delegation! when we cheer with determination, we create a sensation!!! woo hooooo!

hahahaa.. just got home. damn funkaye. we went to suntec to do our mass dance. bet the pple there thought that we were crazy or something. haahahaha... but it was quite fun lah. though quite malu cos i'm really not inclined at dancing. serious lah. oh well. it was interesting also. went to walk around after that.. hmm mmm. yeah. quite funny. one of the ogls were commenting that we're funny. because all the girls speak english while the guys speak chinese. some girls were like no what we speak chinese too. my friend and i looked at each other and were like we speak english! yay. hahahahah.. omg today was nice and rubbished. oh our ogls treated us to dinner. haha. ordered don't know how many tonnes of pizza and drinks.12 to 16 boxes of pizza. wow. thanks. haha

okay so went to sch today, ez link attendance thing didn't work. so they told us to do it when we're leaving sch. anyway the best part was that when we were leaving the system was off already. so.. no attendance today for us i suppose. so retarded. assembly had spotcheck but not for my cg. soon soon. hmm. went for math lecture. i'm going to fail math. -clap clap- erm then went for... erm. oh lep/hc tutorial. HAHA i was crazy enough to go for it since we are allowed to go for any lecture we like for now. went with my new found friend from st nicks. ahhhahahaha. anyway thought i was going to die there cos all the chinese would be so cheem. but it turned out to be the opposite. it was damn funkaye lah. the teacher's really funny. cracking a lot of jokes and talking a lot of rubbish. she puts across the chinese culture and all really well. most of the talk was about dong zhi. don't know how she got to that topic but yeah. was really interesting. haha. lucky i know what dong zhi is. thanks jun sheng. hahaha. you mentioned it before. haha. yup. hmm. then rushed to the physics tutorial. whoa quite boring leh. oh well. nvm. hmm. then rushed again for the history tutorial. niceeee. all about international history. largely about europe. loveee history. and the teacher's from europe. but he's really entertaining and all. very precise and straight to the point too. very nice. i liked it. want to take history. too bad we've only four subjects. hahahaha... yeah then went for chem tutorial. HORRIBLE. it was so boring. was falling asleep. doesn't help much that i'm tired. bleahx. yeah. skipped music tutorial. what am i supposed to do there lah. yeah.

hmm we had more rehersals for o night. suddenly not very enthu about the whole thing. so many rehersals. yes they want us to skip chinese lecture for it too. erm. wth lah. gp tmr. lalala. boring. a lot of other things also. 10 pm. omg lah. and we still want to dawn. we'll watch the midnight movie after sch if poss and then try to find somewhere to stay overnight. hahaa. hmm had pdp today. erm in tj we call ccas pdps. yup. HAHA big joke lah. i got freaked out by air rifle.. i tried the pistol first cos there was not much of a queue. omg i've never had less control over something i'm holding before. i happily declared to myself that it's inertia. gravity pulls the pistol down while your hand tries to adjust and that makes everything unstable. i don't like the feel of it. so yeah. i didn't want to join it. waited till she walked away then i escaped. hahaha... OH pple started asking me which ij i'm from during the pdp exhibition. then when i reply ij tp they always say wow me too. hmm. standardised one ah. haha. but they're right. tj's not popular with ij pple. haha. they all asked me what class i'm from. and wow we're all from 4/2. ahaha. interesting. i forgot their names. again. oops. haha

ooh walked over to odac. then yeah this guy started explaining everything to us. not bad. i like. just that i don't like tying ropes. haha. heck it lah. just signed up. don't like then quit loh. hahaha.. joined sailing also. shocked? haha. cos they closed down windsurfing. wth lah. just trying it out lah. a classmate commented that i was quite brave to join the pdps myself. haha. interesting. my reply was simple. there arent's much ij pple to join them with me anyway. it's true what. our no.s are pathetic. hahaha. hmm. so sailing light land training on wed. whee~~ looking forward to it. ahaha. hmm. the mass dance. in school one. learnt ANOTHER dance. -groans in dispair- i can't dance lah. so horrible. kind of got it though. but i still loook dumb dancing. hahaha. lucky for me it'll all be over tmr. looking forward to that. more lectures tmr. that's nice. haha. oh well. should go sleep already. party tmr. haha. i'm crazy. sleep deprivation. lol

hmm. finally i'm home. it ended around 630 lah and i just got home. so irritating. all the buses were fully packed lah. so horrible. oh well. wet games today. not too bad. but it's quite gross lah. they made us get wet and then transport water to the bucket lah. so they guys took off their shirts in order to soak up as much water as possible. yeah. after that they threw the whole bucket of that water onto us. so sick lah. it was practically grey in coulur already the water. sick manz. yeah. had captain's ball using water balloons. erm what other insane things ah. erm. oh the rolling about in chili and soya sauce together with soap to see who grabs the bar of soap first. so dirty lah. we were barefooted mah. then we had to step into the mud and all. that's okay lah. but the worst part is that we kept seeing centipedes in the soil we were stepping on. so gross. oh well. no choice anyway. yeah there was this station. collecting water again. yeah they threw water onto us from the second level and yeah we were supposed to get as much of it into the bucket. so erm. some guys resorted to collecting water in their mouths and spitting it into the bucket. so sick. then omg lah. the terranus leader threw the entire bucket of that water mixed with saliva onto the other station master. she was screaming like crazy. we felt to sad for her. so gross. eww. anyway the guys in my group are interesting. they go around shouting i love you and marry me to the station masters to earn points. they hug them also.. and even kiss them lah. serious. and the station masters they kiss are guys. sick lah. so.. gay. erm. oh we got through! the og performance. wow. we're in the finals. so cool. i love being the "audience" ahha. i finally learnt how to scream. the cheering kind. not so high pitched lah. so horrible. damage pple's eardrums.

ahahaha... so our ogls are going to treat us to dinner tmr because we got through. ha! we win. haha. i bet they're going to go broke. we have 46 pple in out grp. and they're treating us at suntec. sure go broke one. haha. falala. mass dance. finally managed to get the gest of that song. but then they started on another song. okay lah. so three songs. done. we even learnt another dance. that one's dance-able. fun also. so much better for class bonding. we actually got together lah. hahaha. ooh there's a og outing tmr. 7pm. after sch in short. erm until 10 at suntec. i'm so going to get home near midnight. oh well. there's a clan meeting on sat.. some aquasus bbq thing at east coast park. cool. wonder what that's like. hmm. got the lecture notes for che phy and math already. and the year 1 tutorial for chem. hmm. too tired to do anything now. oh well. lectures starting tmr. hope it's good. hahahaha.. so tired. that's all

i hate tjc i hate tjc i hate tjc i hate tjc i hate tjc i hate tjc i hate tjc i hate tjc i hate tjc i hate tjc i hate tjc i hate tjc i hate tjc i hate tjc i hate tjc

omg lah. i can't stand tjc. i really want to pon school everyday but i know that i can't possibly do that. sheesh lah. i'm so tired of everything. physically and mentally. tired of setting of from home so early everyday and still having to pray that i'll get to school on time. so tired of getting home at 8 somthing even though i leave the school at like 630 or something. it seriously sucks when your ogls don't talk to you much. it sucks when you know less than half of your classmates. it sucks that you can't find your way to school... much less, find your way around the school itself. it sucks when nobody cares. it sucks when you can't follow the dances that fast. they're really fast lah. and no one slows down. it sucks when the sch's so... haiz. whatever lah. anyway they told us that it was the lowest cut off every for tj this year. coupled with the fact that they lowered the number of pple in the cohord. wow. i still got in. how very unfortunate. the discipline master gave u s a talk abouyt the sch's ethos and expectations. so many. then he asked who came to tj unwillingly. like having a gun forced to your head that kind. i wanted to put my my hand lah. just that guns are prohibited in singapore so i don't see why he bothered to ask. games were okay. nothing much to say about that.

mass dance was horrid. when i just about understood the first dance they moved on to another. did it for awhile. it was more like attempting to follow the leaders. they didn't teach lah. so i didn't know how to do. what shit lah. do i look like i danced before. then the worst thing is that pple could dance it just like that lah. so all the time i was trying to get out of pple's way. sucks lah. got so frustrated that i just walked out of the hall like that. no one cares anyway. so i didn't see anything wrong with doing that. who cares. i'm not hte only one anyway. yeah we've to come up with some rubbished thing for orientation night. we're going to do some singapore idol thing. got pulled to be one of the taufik brides. lucky someone wanted to change roles with me. so now i'm officially the audience. good. cos i don't care anyway. aiya whatever lah. shan't make tj sound so horrid after all i've to endure 43 more days before i get another chance to decide which jc to go to.

on the lighter note i got to school on time. first time lah. got there at 6.58. two whole mins to spare. actually i missed the bus stop again. so i attempted to stalk a tj guy. oops. sorry. hahaha. hmm. lectures starting soon. i can't wait. you get to spend less time with your classmates cos of all the different combis. hmm. mass swimming starting next week yes, i'm quite looking forward to it now. don't know why. i suppose it just sounds better than orientation. haha. there's this grp with the cheer fight kill fight kill.. repeated a lot of times lah. very fast also. whoa they when they all say it together.. wow sounds so vulgar lah. just try saying it very fast. yeah. there's this really nice cheer. it's meanign less lah. not my group's one. but i like. it goes... who say you say i say. who say you say i say. ahahaha. so cute. haha. we learnt so many cheers lah. two of them ah. sometimes i wonder what crap they teach us. it's the loser and moron cheer. serious. that's the name of the cheer. i'm not kidding.the moron one's really moronic lah. and the loser cheer is so loserly. oh well. wet games tmr. better be better than the past two days. we're definately going to get wet. good. i want something new. roar. i think i'd better learn that particular dance before they move on to another. i doubt i can just keep walking out like that everyday anyway. so yeah. i'm trying okay. trying to like the school and all. it's not giving me much of a reason to do so though. oh well. please let the orientation be over soon. haiz. i'm soo tired.

omg. horrible lah. i got lost trying to find tj today. kena cheated. sucks lah. got so frustrated when i got out of the bus knowing that i had missed the bus stop i wanted. how nice i was sitting with some tj pple what... so i presumed... yeah... anyway, they went towards some ulu place. i was like omg. that's so not tj lah. so i started asking the people around there how to get to tj. they didn't know lah. and i was in bedok already. all the cabs were taken. hmm. yeah. finally one nice person told me that to take some bus from some bus stop lah. thanks! yeah then i got onto the bus. the route was so unfamiliar so i went to ask the bus driver whether the bus goes to tj. he was hesitant as if unsure of himself before saying "i'm not sure. i think so. " i was like omg lah. because i was ALREADY late. so yeah. i decided to get off the bus at some interesting place. i got down and yay. it was tj. lucky me. ahhaha

well got there and michelle and all were there. they found me. thank goodness and they found out my orientation group for me as well. yeah. there are like 6 ij pple in the whole sch dominated by chung cheng pple.. tkgs and cedar. so scary lah. anwyay, so all of us were cramped into the auditoriun. yea. no space lah. so we ended up sitting on the steps and all. rubbish. then the talk. erm yeah. q and a.. that kind of stuff. subj combis also. we get to sample lectures before chosing the subj combi. that's good in a way. but they don't repeat lectures so we've to be present for all. sucks. it starts on thursday. so fast. choosing the combis by the 13th. i already know what i want anyway so yeah. i'll just attend those lectures and the bio ones. interesting mah. ahhaa. games were retarded. we're so despo for points that when the guy asked us to go on our four feet and bark like dogs we did it. omg lah. i was so shocked. anyway everything's retarded. but i suppose that's what makes it fun. yup. decided to try to loosen up. so yeah. we all made a fool of ourselves during the mass dance. quite funny. we've mass dance everyday lah. omg. one day learn one dance is it. since they're so many. hello. i can't dance. bleahx. yup made new friends. that's good. not many but that's a start. pple seem to recog me but i always forget their names. so sorry about that. i'm trying. oh we went to the hawker centre for lunch. ate at the bball court. like erm okay. anyway, that gave me an impression of what the canteen's food's like. so yeah.

hmm. yeah. got our orientation pack. shirt and all. we've to wear it tmr for the amazing race at east coast there. and they said that we're going to play with the water too. erm... yeah. got a tj fine. foolscap ppr (!!!) erm a badge and some other stuff. -looks around- i think mass swimming's starting next week. oh manz. nvm. how bad can swimming be? haiz. got home at like 820. school ended at 630. i'm sure you can tell how long it gets me go home. yay? omg lah. cannot take it. anyway the leaflet said that school ends at 445. erm. a bit different only. most days sch ends at 6 sth for this week. erm friday's horrible. it ends at 10pm. wth. and by the time they ACTUALLY end. whoa. camp overnight le. school starts at 7am lah. oh well. so tired. so tired. bleahx. i've to take up at 5tmr. i'm going to attempt to take the same bus to sch again. not going to get lost i hope. wish me luck. hahaha... wondering how i'm going to live with this for three months. much less, two years. oh well. haiz. hmm. mass dancing is tiring. bleahx. okok. yeah. soo tired. that's all

i can't sleep. nooo. i just can't sleep. it's approaching 3am already and i still can't sleep. bleahx. i've to be awake by 530 to get to school on time. noooo. somebody help. i hate this feeling of being so tired, yet being unable to fall asleep. i don't know what to do. exhausted all methods. sigh. no one's awake. helppppp

hmm. okay my first entry of the year. -claps- haha. i'm being retarded. oh well. yups. went to the gathering thing at carol's house the other day. damn cool lah. niceeee.. muahaha. i larveeee it.. haha. i think i'm going crazy. yups yesterday went for the 2/4 class thing. counted down to the new year. yeah manz. so the first moment of the 2005 was spent with my friends. funkaye. haha. hmm mmm. i finally got my adidas shoes today. like finally after don't know how long. didn't get the nice striped one. -looks around- there's some conspiracy going on lah. all the shoes i like. all don't have my size. serious. one after another. not funny lah. so horrible. bleahx. oh well. i didn't get the nicest of all shoes but i'll live. yup. had pasta mania for dinner with my bro. omg lah. i'm sure that the pizza had mayo. they didn't say that it had that. soo disgusting. oh well. lunch was nicer. crystal jade's hor fun is interesting. looks more like fried kuay tiao. nice though. hahaha. oh jun sheng thanks for your stuff again. yup. haha. whee~~ hmm. omg. my youngest bro just said that some tj person called me. he doesn't remember anything. great. wonderful. i don't even know what orientation group i'm in. wow. just great. i'm going to start off the year wondering around the school. great. thanks. roar. haiz. thanks yan ling. okay. so i've to be in school at 7am. and go to the auditorium. where's that. bleahx. okay shall go find out now. that'll be all then.