heys the netball carnival wasn't TOO bad.. haha.. we managed to win two of our matches yes.. 1 more than i had originally expected.. that was quite impressive yes.. haha.. our banner did quite well as well.. n our cheer too.. pretty nice.. ahaha.. yups.. great teamwork guys!!! i think our class' chemistry is beginning to show.. haha.. that's obviously good.. :) yeahs.. just really tired now.. ankle is like shit.. ahaha.. yeah.. n gosh.. sunburn? it was so freaking hot!!! after the netball carnival, soph, cass, rach, vanessa tan2, peiwen, steph n i went to nydc at suntec to eat n sort of celebrate cass' birthady tmr... haha.. vvv nice!!! :)then we kind of went window shopping.. was fun though.. haha.. got to see soph in a skirt!!! she looked so freakily mature.. like whoa manz.. i was quite impressed.. haha.. yeah got our new class tees as well.. they're red in colour.. good.. more liverpool-ed!!! :) ahaha.. yups.. so it's back to school tmr again yes.. oh wellz.. i suppose it's a lot better than having another netball carnival yes.. ahaha.. chi o's is coming.. i REALLY should start studying for it.. i mean like yeah i have 5 days left.. seriously not enough manz.. *sigh* i'm so dead.. hmm i realised that my previous entry is quite long.. haha.. :p

hmm... i think i'm finally improving.. literally.. both on the court and academically.. gosh.. i think i finally managed a decent game at the end of the day in preparation for tmr's netball.. finally.. yeahs.. i think we managed to pull out a win for the netball game against 4/6 i think in the short ard 5 mins we played.. impressive.. we rallied from 2-0 down at first.. to win by a single shot i think.. not bad..i kind of thought that we, esp me, were a bit the no hope.. but yeah now, it seems to me that we're not too bad after all.. haha.. yeahs but i still think that i'm not gd enough.. or at least i still feel like i'm not really gd enough.. *big fat sigh*

yeah.. got back geog and chem tday.. thought that it was going to be really horrible.. but i suppose.. mmm.. it wasn't too bad.. got the highest mark for geog.. totally impressive, considering the fact that i've been failing geog for practically all my life so yeah.. 34/35.. i was totally impressed with myself.. but yeah lost a stupid mark for map reading.. what rubbish.. just cos i didn't notice the power lines.. like huh.. i was supposed to notice such stuff?! haha.. ohs now i know.. just a little too late don't u think.. haiz..

chem was disastrous.. only 3 a1s in our class.. that mrs wong singled out our class and claimed that we "conspired to not do well in chem" like wth.. * rolls eyes* like we wanted to not score well like that right.. arggh.. so pissing.. wanted to stage a massive walkout.. but we are nice people u c.. haha.. yeahs.. anyways got my a1 for chem so yeah.. but her "pep talk" really pissed me n most of our class off quite a fair bit.. yeahs so phy and chem are now officially the first sci subjs i've scored an a1 for.. haha.. phew.. shld haf studied for chem though.. totally regretted it.. 3rd in class for it.. aiya.. still quite impressive for prac not bothering abt it.. haha..

hmmm.. so my l1r5 permits me to go into a jc for the first time.. i think i improved my 9 points.. haha.. so much for my modesty.. improved for everything but my languages.. saddening manz.. but i should just be contented with what i have shouldn't i.. haiz.. anyway, there's some misconception going on about me doing well for last year's exams.. so let me just clarify it.. i so totally screwed that up big time okay.. haiz.. hope we'll do quite well tmr for the stupid netball carnival ,which i obviously cannot not care less about, as a class in all the different categories yeah.. :) we should stand united as a class.. remember.. united we stand, divided we fall!!! :)

gosh.. *tired* just came back a while ago from the netball training at steph's hse.. gosh.. crazy manz.. so tiring.. spent quite a while trying to find her hse.. yeahs then attepted to play netball at the bball court.. i seriously think that i can't handle the row of the centre.. as in like not enough stamina.. and my start off throws i tell u... tiao.. totally hopeless.. i really don't think that i can play this row well.. seriously.. i really feel like demanding some other role or something.. i'm totally hopeless at this.. like arggh.. i've seriously tried pretty hard already...the more i play, the more demoralised i feel. i simply can't drive the ball foreward.. defence is so much easier.. arggh what am i doing?! i feel like such a failure.. why why why... why can't i just get this right?! i don't want to go to school on that day.. but i can't just depend on emilyn to play the centre thing alone can i?! wouldn't that make me super irresponsible?! centre is so tiring n if i just convinently give up can i.. that's just too unfair to the rest of the team.. meakes me super pretentious.. arggh.. never mind.. positive thoughts.. practice makes prefect.. i have one more day to get things right.. hopefully i do.. but time is so not on my side.. will it be a case of too little too late???!!! i sure hope not.. :(

okays yesterday, we got our mid yr results back.. horrid.. arggh.. what rubbish.. eng wasen't good.. only good side to it was the fact that i'd passed my compre by quite a fair bit.. e math.. even worse.. yes no doubt i managed to get my a1, i felt so lousy!!! people were all claiming that they managed to get "primary school" marks... some were even declaring that their math was so lousy because they didn't score above 90 mks.. i was so depressed by that manz.. didn't know whether i should just laugh at myself or to just break down n cry.. what more, practically 95% of the class got distinctions for it.. i seriously feel so lousy.. a math was worse.. no where near n a at all.. n pple around me were getting like 90 or 80 over.. arggh.. i was glad enough to pass by quite a fair bit..

ss was okay.. got the much needed a.. talked total crap for the essay questions.. as in like crap that i had fabricated and were not to be found in the textbook at all.. did pretty okay.. 23/25.. lost two marks for my lousy orgainsation of my points.. what rubbish... source based totally failed on me.. yes i passed.. but i seriously have never in my life gotten such pathetic marks for sbq.. what crap.. erm bio was total crap.. i don't know what to do to improve for it anymore.. was desperately trying to calculate whether i had passed.. did pass by quite a bit but mrs is said that i have to work harder.. yeah i suppose that's true, judging from the marks. but the problem is that i seriously don't know how to do that.. phy was the only pleasent suprise for the day i suppose.. from practically struggling to pass last yr to the a1 i got.. big change.. thank god.. yeah i'm sixth in class for phy.. only less than 5 mks from the top mark.. that was a nice thought.. yeah only i could reproduce that for the rest of my subjs.. haiz.. yeah.. hey.. that's my first a1 for a sci subj btw.. hmph that was so reserved for chem.. oh wellz.. nvm.. i'll take this manz.. chem n geog are up in mon.. i know that i prob wun do well but wth.. i don't know why but after receiving most of the papers back, i feel utterly stupid.. like everyone is better than me in everything.. such a depressing thought..

today.. walkathon.. erm walked ard 8km from chijmes back to the current site in thomson.. yeah.. nothing much happened.. had some quiz thing too.. which was pretty boring.. erm yeah.. practically the entire class arrived back in school before my tam.. oh wellz.. we were erm enjoying the scenery.. ahaha.. yups.. apparently, our class raised the most funds for the walkathon or something so we each got some ij badge.. yeah i kinda got the brown one.. lucky pick i guess.. yeahs.. then we sort of trained for the netball thing.. so tiring i tell you.. n we weren't really able to get a proper court to practise so that made it worse.. haiz.. besides, the entire place was prettty wet cos of the rain.. so yeah.. was soo tired after the practise.. still am.. don't know what to do now.. sooo tired.. *sigh*

*sigh* okay thursday.. mother tounge intensive again.. was a lot more productive this time round though.. had some walkaton talk after recess.. apparently the route they chose for us is super long.. like ard 8km long.. whoa.. haiz.. sad.. feel way too lazy to walk that much.. had netball practice also.. supposed to play the centre.. emilyn too.. so tiring.. i think it's the most energy-draining position in the world manz.. what more, i've never played in that position before so yeah.. it's going to take some time.. however the sad part to it is that time is obviously not on our side.. seriously i'd rather shoot or something.. it's a lot less tiring manz.. just that i've been quite off target these few days.. don't care.. shall just keep practising until i finally get the shooting part right.. just in case they need another person to shoot or something..

yeah.. leak is pretty good btw.. personally, i think she can both defend and shoot.. maybe we can pull her out of banner to play with us or something.. ahaha.. hope we win at least a match on tuesday.. yeah.. hopefully our teamwork will sort of prevail as well cos that's the most important thing in team games.. mmm.. still don't know what to play.. i have a big feeling that my "stamina" will fail me on the day itself.. centre is just too much of a tiring position.. haiz.. maybe i'll find myself tmr.. cos i really don't know what i'm capable of doing for netball... maybe nothing..

*sigh* we shall see.. hopefully.. before it's too late.. must ensure that i can shoot under pressure as well.. or else.. i don't know what's going to happen next.. shall practice shooting seriously tmr.. stamina training too if it'd help.. as in practice seriously seriously this time round..

today's monday.. marking day=holiday.. but yeah there was training which i did not attend because of the chi mock exam ppr.. yeahs.. so sad.. and i thought that the exams had just ended.. wth.. the chi ppr wad bad btw.. maybe it's cos i didn't bother to study for uit or something.. haha.. oh wellz.. the letter writing wasen too bad.. but the actual compo itself. what rubbish.. didn't even know which question to do cos they were all equally horrid.. haha.. oh wellz.. the paper itself wasen't too bad.. at least i could answer most of my zhao jus and the tian xie han zhi.. haha.. yeahs then they told me about the cip thing for bball.. mmm.. supposed to do it with fiza's sis.. erm actually, joanna approached me first but yeah.. lalala.. mmm.. hmm.. yeah some pple commented that i looked more girly with my hair tied up.. erm hello.. my hair is quite long already what.. haha.. must tie it up before i'm judged to have broken the school rules.. mmm.. yeah before i forget, saturday was nan's birthday so yeah..

Happy belated Birthday Nan!!! :)

hmm.. no one's online now..i'm bored!!! :'( oh wellz.. lalala.. we're having chinese intensive tmr.. as in like nearly 3hrs of pure chinese in row.. i think i'd just die or something.. haha.. oh wellz.. probably going to get some results back tmr.. *saddened* not a very good thought.. not a good thought at all..

okay... starting with thursday.. had the chem exam.. hmm.. didn't really study for it.. bad mistake.. arggh.. n before the paper, i had this really weird feeling.. i actually felt happy that the paper was going to begin.. but at the same time, i felt kind of unprepared so yeah.. mixed feelings.. haha.. the paper itself was quite of a killer.. wth.. yeah not going to do well for it.. aiya.. my fault anyway.. shouldn't have been so complacent.. haha.. yeah.. had a lot of extra time again.. nearly 20 mins to yeah look around.. crap.. forgot to learn the sontact process.. guessed out the equations.. whee.. but they were all correct though!!! :) haha.. had a math lesson.. got there 1/2 hr late.. yeah because erm carol, cheryl, christine, soph, nicole n i went to burger king in novena after the chem ppr.. haha.. mmm.. yeah.. figured out that i couldn't do so many things.. so sad.. not even basic circular measures.. so depressing.. demoralising.. got hm.. yeah.. so irritated.. n freaked out.. seriously gonna fail a math.. er m so yeah.. ping ming do a math at night.. haiz.. cldn't do.. until around midnight.. then i got my break.. started getting questions right.. thank goodness!!!

okay.. today.. a math.. mmm.. had so much extra time AGAIN!!! half an hour.. so sad.. i finished the ppr when other pple haden't even gotten to the second section.. figured that i had made a lot of mistakes or something.. tried to prove the trigo equation for nearly half an hr.. i think i kind of got it but erased it by accident.. so saddening.. yeah.. so i didn't manage to solve it in the end.. crap manz.. arggh.. whee.. after the ppr.. whilst the aep pple were having their exam, carol, soph n i went to so many places!!!

we went to chinatown.. took e nel!!! whee.. to soak in the chinese culture.. our first preperating for the chi prelims.. haha.. went ard.. yeah.. looking for chinese chinese food.. haha.. so funny.. didn't know where we were going.. haha... just went around in "squares" as soph put it.. haha.. yeah.. had some beef noodles thing n lime juice!!! mmm.. near china square.. yeah.. and there was some chopped up cow's stomach thing.. could see all the disgusting villi thing.. haha.. totally gross.. carol n soph remarked that that it was like some brush thing.. wayyy disgusting... haha.. i so did not try it.. haha.. too disgusting.. yeah.. then we walked all the way to raffles city there.. yeah to take the train.. to changi airport!!! haha.. so fun.. nel n changi look so nice!!! :) whee!!! mmm... yeah.. soph got her dad to pick her up at the airport.. so hilarious i tell u.. we were waiting for so long.. n yeah.. haiz.. her dad was outside waiting for her.. haha.. darn it.. i ate two pieces of the tolberone chocolate which carol bought from the cocca trees or sth.. crap.. haiz.. told myself that i wasen't going to.. but yeah.. haiz.. yup.. carol n i then went to try the popeye's chicken.. apparently, it"s SUPPOSED to be good.. but yeah.. haha.. what a let down.. mmm.. then we took the train again.. this time to bugis.. haha.. to find some adidas shop in which we never found.. mmm.. spent a lot of time looking around.. yeah window shopping.. haha.. mmm.. by the time i got hm it was pretty late in the aft.. oh wellz.. haha.. i reckon i've nevr taken the mrt so many times in a day before!!! haha.. finally.. the mid years are OVER!!! but a new exam is just beginning.. the chinese o levels.. uh oh.. :'(

decided to change the template anyway.. in hope that cheryl can see my blog.. n yes cheryl, maybe you'll be able to tag it.. *sigh* why am i so nice?! haha.. :p

geog today.. felt so unprepared at first..but the paper wasen't that bad i suppose.. had quite a lot of stuff to crap out after all..*pleased* whee.. yeah but my hand was so tired.. no muscle power.. ahaha.. hmm.. i realised that i can write a lot faster with the "typical ij handwriting" as defined by cheryl than the neat one.. haha.. finished the map reading thing pretty fast today.. was quite amazed with myself although it was so traumatising to not be able to find the first point for the first question at first.. yeah anyway i don't think thati've ever in my life, wrote so much for geog before although most of it was pretty much crapped out.. but oh well.. haha.. chem tmr.. not looking forward to it for once.. i mean it's kind of weird to tell myself to study for chem because i don't usually do so so yeah.. ahaha.. but it's 17 entire chapters this time so yeah.. maybe i'll make an decent attempt to open the textbook tonight.. after watching the news.. highlight maybe.. whee.. this leaves me with another free day!!! *grins* lalala.. :)hey this post is considerably short! *pleased with myself* haha..

okay.. so i'm probably the last to realise that blogger has a new layout.. looks pretty cool though.. *starts pressing funny buttons* haha.. cool cool.. haha.. okay it's tuesday i presume.. geog exam tmr.. don't really give much of a damn about it.. moreover it's only 2 chapters this time round.. nvm.. tired of studying.. i really should stop crapping.. hmm.. shall start from sunday then..

let me c.. i skipped all my tuitions apparently in an attempt to revise for e math since they were going to test us sec1-sec4 stuff.. kind of decided that it was a lot to learn.. but yeah.. as usual, i think that i wasted all my time procrastinating.. whoops.. haha.. hmm.. yup can't remember anything else..

yesterday.. emath exam.. quite fun.. whee.. took all the time in the world to do the paper.. haha.. still had around 15 minutes to spare though.. ahaha.. was quite pleased with it.. managed to solve almost every thing except this graph thing in which i got some sort of curve although i knew that it was supposed to be a straight line.. haha.. and that 1/a and1/b question.. my gosh.. made me think so hard!!! killed all the very few brain cells i had left after all the attempted cramming.. hmm.. i practically wasted the entire day -as usual- was supposed to study for physics.. -wonder what happened- i'm so tired of looking at all the different super thick textbooks..so tired of cramming stuff.. esp since the bio exam.. gosh.. i don't want to study anything else.. anyway yeah back to monday.. totally unproductive day.. felt so bad.. oh wellz.. how bad can phy get right?!

wrong..today's sad.. i changed my correct answer to the wrong one in the last minute as usual; after debating with myself.. i realised that i shouldn't debate with myself.. it's the worst mistake i can possibly make during this exam period.. haha.. oh wellz.. actually the paper wasen't too bad.. had a little more than 30minutes to spare.. stuff in it were relatively solvable.. haha.. i suppose.. realised that i've been finishing my papers quite fast these days.. that's bad right.. means that it's filled with careless mistakes.. haha.. *groans* geog tmr.. don't like geog.. i'm in no mood to study for it.. yeah.. maybe i won't.. wahaha.. I DON'T CARE!!! i don't want to study for anything anymore!!! :'(

okay so its friday already.. Je suis dans tout à fait d'une bonne humeur aujourd'hui..Je me suis rendu compte que je n'ai pas blogged puisque le jeudi si je commencerai maintenant.. voyons. that's french btw.. u can try to translate it on your own yes.. :p

i'll start with thursday..had the ss mid year.. hmm super saddening.. never thought i'd sat this about ss.. but it was seriously horrid.. tragic manz.. i studied the sec3 stuff cos i decided that since there were 5 chaps from there, and only 2chaps for the sec4 work, there was a higher probabiliity that well the sec3 work would come out.. proportion.. but no no.. when i opened the paper, heart attack manz.. the entire source based thing was sec4 work..yeah so okay nvm.. i turned to the back to do the structured essay first n then.. omg.. sec4 wk again.. only 1 sec3 one.. n it was pretty hard.. omg.. so gonna flunk it manz.. *sigh* so yeah had to do the essay qn on asean and deterrence.. my gdness.. i seriously think that i failed big time manz.. oh wellz.. it's too late now anyway..yeah skipped chi tuition again.. was attepmting to study for bio.. highlight attempting manz.. i still felt so unprepared for the paper.. oh yeah almost forgot.. it was the twin's birthday..¡El lobanillo feliz de rae de cumpleaños y hui de rae! haha.. jk.. now that's spanish!!! :) okok..

Happy 16th Birthday Rae Wen and Rae Hui!!! :)

today.. hmm... was the bio ppr.. crap.. was revising it with rae hui.. realised that i didn't know a lot of stuff just before the exam.. so panick larhz.. my goodness.. haha.. thank goodness the paper wasn't as hard as i had imagined it to be.. but nevertheless, it was pretty bad.. some genetic engineering thing on insulin came out.. thank gdness i actually read it yesterday cos i decided that it was one of the most interesting things i could find in the textbook.. haha.. yes i wrote that ovules were eggs.. haha.. i laugh at myself manz.. what was i thinking?! writing such rubbish.. haha.. hmm.. yeah and there was some universal indicator thing for the smoke test question.. haha.. i happily declared that it was there to test for the presence of the acidic gas; carbon monoxide.. whoops.. i think that i was thinking wayy too chem-ed.. haha.. oh wellz.. what can i say?! *looks at cheryl and carol* chem rox the world!!! :) haha.. oh wellz.. the paper was 2hr20mins long.. crap.. i think i finished wayy too fast.. had nearly one and a half hours left.. was bored to death.. that's bad.. i'm sure that i would have committed some very ahem serious mistaked whilst doing the paper so quickly.. haha.. was desperately looking for something to add to my answers.. haha.. oh wellz.. what's done is done.. i can't un-do it.. shan't dwell on the past.. looking foreward to sunday now.. *looks at cheryl* for absolutely no reason i must add.. haha.. ahh.. 5 straight days of exams next week.. thank goodness they're all not as chunky as ss or bio or that'll seriously spell the end of me.. haha..bueno adiós, au revoir!!! :)

..just washed up..kind of walked in the rain all the way to the interchange today.. hmm cheryl did offer to give erm everyone a life but yeah i figured the back seats looked way too filled already.. like 3 pple to 3 seats.. no thanks.. i'd rather inconvenience myself than to inconvenience someone else.. so yeah.. had a lonely walk in the rain to the interchange.. did have some sort if feeling of abandonment but yeah that was entirely self-inflicted so yeah.. i shall have no regrets at all for my decision to leave on my own.. okay.. did the urinery test today.. had to collect urine samples from ourselves after pe.. so yeah.. warm and disgusting.. felt kind of grosesed out.. but i suppose it wasen't as hard as we kind of deemed it to be so yeah.. haha.. hmm.. then we did some agar test thing and some antibiotics test thing.. hmm.. made quite a few mistakes with cheryl but i suppose it's kind of excusable since well it was a pretty hard experimant to do.. we had to keep everything so sterile as to prevent contamination from the surroundings.. oh well.. nevertheless, it was really an eye opener.. i suppose i did learn quite a fair bit from it too.. okay then.. the ss mid yr xm is tmr.. should attempt to get something into my head today.. and hopefully, manage to read through some bio as well.. okay so that's all.. cherio..

doesn't time fly?! it's tuesday already!!! (wednesday for xiao ting though) haha.. yeah anyway, i really hope they moderate the chi prelims marks.. i just need one more percent to hit the next grade.. i really hate it when u just miss the next grade by a single mark.. haiz.. why did i just have to write that one han zhi wrongly?! i feel so stupid.. haiz.. oh wellz.. just when it mattered the most.. haiz.. failed the main chi compo by a single mark cos i kind of missed out the most important point of the compo.. crap.

oh wellz.. i actually passed the chi oral anyway.. yups.. impressive.. i really thought that i was a complete goner manz... got full marks for the ting li thing.. impressive.. that totally made my day especially after all those close misses.. oh wellz.. no use brooding over spilt milk.. we have to pull ourselves up, be done with the mid years and then brace ourselves for the o level chi thing which would really be the one that matters the most so yeah.. there was some charades thing going on for phy.. haha.. yeah.. and mrs tang gave out sweets and kit kats for that.. thanks anyway.. yeah and our prize for the global citizenry award was an entire box of kit kat whites.. cool.. but not to forget, they still owe us our burgers cos we won the award last year as well and somehow, we never recieved the prizes that we were supposed to recieve.. haha.. oh wellz.. one day we'll just demand for swensens as compensation.. bwahaha.. had early recess today.. by an entire period.. wayy cool.. haha..

yups.. *sigh* we are supposed to do some urine test thing for the bio pract thing.. sounds wayyy gross.. oh wellz.. all in the spirit of learning i suppose.. haha.. :) hmm.. yup loads of people ponned aep today.. oh wellz.. thank goodness i have no part to play in that.. hmm yeah.. cheryl kind of refused to skip it though.. how saddening.. haha.. thank goodness i don't take aep.. it sounds like such a dread!!! oh.. soph wanted to give me a lift home but i kinda did say that i would be going back with xiao ting, vanessa and all so yeah.. sorry soph!!! maybe next week!!! haha.. :)

ahh.. had the eng mid yr today.. crap crap crap.. wrote complete rubbish.. as in like total crap manz.. wrote no1 for the compo.. like half the world did that topic as well.. that’s not good.. considering the fact that mine totally sucked.. it’s abt some describe the day u dreaded but turned out ok.. erm erm erm.. I wrote something about receiving the report book back of sth.. again, half the pple who did this qn wrote abt the same thing.. no originality this yr manz.. maybe I’m just sub-conciously trying to play it safe esp since i kind of failed it last yr cos i went way out of point.. haha.. hmm..

yeah.. the situational writing was erm hmm.. un-writable.. i knew i couldn’t write a gd essay on tt once i read the question.. like no no no.. very bad.. total crap.. so much for my factual report.. was wondering what kind of crapped up facts i had that probably didn't tally at all.. oh wellz.. so much for my aim to get a a2 for english this year.. *sigh* it's a case of so near yet so far.. crap.. yeah that compre was okay.. it drew a lot more interest from me than last yr's passage on sharks or sth.. haha.. wasen't that bad.. at least it was quite do-able.. hmm.. what's overwinters btw? i think i kind of said that it was to stay through winter or sth.. oh whatever.. oh there..it means to pass or spend the winter.. okay quite close.. not bad.. haha.. the summary was quite crapped though.. kept lifting.. it was so hard to use my own words.. :'(

yeah..was kind of locked out of the house today cos i kinda forgot to erm bring the house keys out with me.. haha.. whoops.. had to wait almost 2hrs for mum to come back.. thanks! erm yeah.. fell aslp while waiting.. wahaha.. what rubbish.. okay..so i'm now 7 days- an ENTIRE week behind my schedule now.. that's very very very bad.. :(

okay..so its thursday...what have i accomplished over the last six days?! nothing much.. yeah supposed to do the ss workshop thing.. by mon.. must at least attempt to do it.. *sigh* yes and i'm not officailly six days behind my so called schedule.. what rubbish!!!

hmm..tmr's the english exam.. shall erm attempt to make a last min ditch attempt to brush up my lousy vocabulary.. it's not sen-1 enough for me.. i need vocabulary of better standard than this to be able to write a good compo; which i badly require.. yes.. haha..yeah.. as you probably are able tell from my last entry.. my english sucks!!! like zero standard manz.. my adjectival phrases thing sucks too.. crap.. i'm quite hopeless at it.. crap.. and the exam is tmr.. why didn't i do something about it earlier?! yu-3 wen-2 zhe-4 zong-3 dong-1 xi-1 si-4 bu-4 nen-2 mian-3 qiang-2 de-4; shi-4 xu-1 yao-4 tong-1 guo-4 chang-2 nian-3 lei-3 ye-4 bu-3 duan-4 de-4 nu-3 li-4 lian-4 xi-2 he-2 nu-3 li-4 er-2 zhao-4 chen-2 de-4.. omg.. why am i writing in chi?! why can't i translate it into english?! oh no oh no.. i think i've been in the chinese mode for wayyy too long.. hmm.. didn't get nice mks for chi either.. that makes it worse.. crap crap crap.. shall attempt to go watch or listen to something in english.. my gosh whats wrong with me?! what's with the chi thing?! stop thinking in chi!!! nooo....

yeah anyway all the aep pple were eh handing in their prep work..yeah supposedly the deadline is today so yeah.. uh huh cheryl was kind of rushing and attempting to finish her's.. found it quite amusing.. haha.. ii think that my chem and ss standards are dropping dramatically.. like yi-4 luo-4 qian-1 zhan-4.. that's super bad.. because these two subjs are my best subjs.. as in i don't really have to study to produce palatable grades..haha..yes i know that the word palatable should not be used in this sense but yeah.. very very very upsetting.. looks like i'd have to study for everything for the mid yrs.. and time is seriously not on my side at all.. :( okay..so i should focus my immediate attention to english right..yes i should.. later.. :P yeah in the evening.. not bad.. at least i'm actually going to attempt to study for english for the first time in my life(right?!) i'd better... i must.. arggh..

after faintly hearing my name being called, i walked up slowly and gradually with a sickening feeling of anxiety taking hold of me..each step i took felt as i was being forced to enter into a abyss of sorrow and fear..i took the piece of paper which at that time, looked like the evilest thing on earth..daring not to peek at the blood-red marks inscribed onto the top right hand side of that piece of paper.. it's a wonder how much of an impact a single stapled stack of papers could instill into me so much fear and anxiety.. as i trugged towards my seat, i could no longer resist the temptation to take a look at the score.. the moment of truth..my heart sunk.. the first digit was a four..oh how i hate the number 4! yes, i knew i had passed the chinese prelim paper.. the next digit.. omg.. below 5.. crap.. my mind defiantly refused to accept the fact that this was reality not some kind of superficious imagination..horrible, ghastly, loathesome, terrible and revolting were just some of the words running through my mind.. no.this wasen't happening.. no way.. after what seemed to me like hours, my mind finally accepted the fact that i had not at all done one bit well for the chi prelims.. yes welcome back to reality. a reality i never wanted to face. i wanted so much to cry.. but i managed to suppress my feelings and emotions because i do think that i did indeed deserve this.. why didn't start studying like maybe 3 days before hand.. why why why.. i looked around trying to find some comfort but to no avail.. soph got practically full marks for the first two pages of the paper..the worst part is that there were only 3 pages so yeah.. *upset* oh well i shall attempt to be more optimistic..its not the end of the world (or is it?!) there's still the actual o levels coming up *groaners* wellz..at least i passed eh.. :'( had bio spa today too.. was pretty okay i suppose..except the fact that i couldn't really tell the difference between the partially lilac soulton and the grey solution.. crap.. depressing.. haiz.. five days behind my schedule already.. only made it five days ago.. so yeah.. i'm sure that you can very well imagine how screwed i m.. and to think that i'm actually thinking about going to vjc or ajc.. what a joke manz.. im soooo screwed.. *sigh* this is so my life..

oh wellz..another day passes by... its tuseday already.. had the chi ca today.. crap.. i'm quite sure that i got both zhao jus before.. oh manz.. i'm very very very sure that i've done that li jie wen da before.. yeah i have.. but i can absolutely kill myself for forgetting all the answers.. remember doing it last year.. crap.. now i'd feel super bad if i failed the ca again.. yeah because i've don ethe compre before.. hmm had a math.. not tt bad..still understanding it quite a fair bit.. phy was okay as well.. had some quick revision n got both our test pprs back.. got my a1 for both.. but omg i cheryl kinda beat me for one..was kind of close but omg omg.. haha.. i was being kind of funny too.. writing the opposite of that i was thinking.. what rubbish.. haha.. beat her for the next one by a lot though.. hahaz.. makes up for that loss.. but still... arggh.. nooo... this can't be happening.. haha.. jk.. kind of..

oh english today was all about letter writing.. crap.. got my formats kind of mixed up.. haiz.. oh wellz.. yeah eng mid yr is this friday.. three more days to dooms day.. i've always thought that it is quite impossible to fail english.. but since this year, omg..failing english is totally rampant around here.. so yeah.. quite freaked out.. eng is technically not a subj i should be failing.. no wait a moment.. i'm not supposed to fail anything to start off with right.. right.. oh wellz.. mum decided to come pick me up from school today.. yeah.. went for lunch.. hmm mmm.. i don't know what to do now.. lalala.. oh there's pe tmr.. *sticks out tounge* don't like pe.. its a waste of my time.. i'd rather spent my time trying to catch up with some sleep yes.. erm there's bio spa tmr.. right.. i can so imagine myself flunking it big time.. so many food tests to be done.. haiz.. so tired.. yups can't think of anything else to say.. so yeah.. that's all.. cya..

oh it's saturday already! gosh! that's fast! haha..finally managed to fix the stupid scrolling problem btw.. *feels so accomplished* oh yeah we had the english prelim oral today..it was a billion times better than the chi one manz!! i actually think that i pretty managed to make up for yesterday's horrible chi oral screw up.. haha.. thank goodness i managed to get over the trauna os yeaterday's disaster chi oral in time manz.. the pic wasen't great.. i forgot to say loads of stuff.. so sad.. but oh wellz.. what's done is done so yeah..

before the oral, wanli, rae hui n i were laughing like crazy because of all the funny things we thought of saying.. haha.. yeah..n rae hui ask me to tell her a joke..haha..told her a couple.. haha.. omg.. she was like totally rolling about in incontrollable laughter..haha..whoops.. :p ..yeah the person outside kind of gave me the wrong pict to look at..yeah..then i had to change it to the correct one.. wth.. yeah then i spent a lot of time looking at the picture.. some ndp thing.. yeah..then i suddenly realised that there was a passage to read as well..so i kind of speed read through it.. managed to finish in time though.. *phew* thank goodness..haha.. yeah..read super fast for the passage.. that's bad btw. haha. hmm the pic was a lot better that those we used to practise with..ahaha..used a prompt question for it though..was pretty devestated.. but yeah.. hmm... the conversation.. the first question i got was about erm competition..i totally crapped out stuff to say..naturally that was not enough.. so yeah there came another prompt question..so sad..why didn't i think of that?!

the last conversation question was the best though.. no prompt questions!!! it was about my ambition.. hmm.. i declared that i had no ambition.. haha.. but yeah..still came out with some story about wanting to become a chemist because chem is such a kewl subj.. haha.. actually makes me feel smart for a while.. hmm then mr b chan actually wished me luck for my ambition thing.. i was totally taken a back by suprise.. haha.. played bball with hazel for awhile..bernie was there as well.. then xiao ting, fidelis, avalene, wenli, yu ting n her friend to the macs at bradell to have "breakfast".. haha.. apparently xiao ting n wenli kind of had the pictures that we had for oral with them.. given by their tutor.. wth.. how very unfair..haha..oh wellz..shouldn't complain..i don't even bother to go for eng tuitions.. haha.. yeah.. then we went back to school for a math lessons.. hmm.. yeah.. did differentiation again.. haha.. quite kewl.. mr teh is such a good teacher.. like duh right.. well he did write our math textbooks! haha.. yeah.. haha.. walked home with soph.. haha.. damn funny.. haha.. oh well.. have to go now..having tuition soon.. *shrugs* so much for my "schedule" for today.. haha.. what crap.. oh wellz there's always tmr right?! *oh no..that sounds ever so familiar!*

hey hey..i haven'y blogged for quite awhile eh.. haha.. will start form wednesday.. haha.. had the ting li prelim exam..erm it was pretty hard n erm well quite boring as well..yes..we had pe as well..we took height n weight.. wayyy bad.. shrunk again.. what crap!!! erm yeah.. had some assembly talk on the how well the school's school building fund thing is progressing..yeah n about some caring teacher thing..how come mrs low wasen't in the list?! we really should vote for her.. yeah.. i'm sure that loads of pple from 4/2 n 4/8 would agree on that.. yeah.. phy pract was cancelled.. went out with carol, vanessa tan zx n bay, ping zhen, cheryl n bao to thomson.. supposedly to eat prata.. haha.. yeah.. nothing much..

okay.. yesterday was a totally crappified day.. nothing much happened during sch.. after sch we had some bio spa thing whereby we were suposed to come up with our own experiment to investigate the nutritional value of snacks.. yeah.. cheryl n all went to see the fabric of the nation thing..i didn't go cos of the spa thing..yeah apparently only cheryl couldn't find her patch work..*sticks out tounge* aww thats just so sad..ahaha...

today was a totally follow up of the totally horrible n miserable week..yes failed the bio ca..wasn't that bad of a failing mk but mrs is sounded pretty pissed at us cos apparently we all didn't do well for the test so yeah..passed the practical that she returned though..eh forgot to bring my emath bk back..so yeah so i spent my emath lesson attempting to revise for the chi oral..totally lost for vectors anyway so yeah..phy was pretty much revision for the mid year exams..realised that i suck at kinematics..yes should attempt to do something about it..maybe tomorrow them..eng was pretty funny..haha..found out that we were mispronouncing the most fundamental words such as mother, father and garage.. uh huh..after school..crap.. the chi oral was a total nightmare..i wish i could wake up from it to find out that the chi oral is in a weeks time but yeah..i totally flunked it big time..the reading of the passage was damn bad.. never read so horribly in my entire life..i like stopped and paused for years not at the hard words but at the easiest primary school kind of chi words..so angry with myself..and the conversation..my goodness.. fail!!! got some neighbour thing..diez manz..and the idol question..the two questions i really hoped that i wouldn't get but yeah..carol got the same questions as me as well..arggh..just like last year..history repeats itself..got the qns i prayed that i never would get..what crap!!! i'm traumatised for life for chi oral..my goodness i'm so sure that i failed but yet i couldn't do anything to prevent it from happening.. what crap.. *cries* i'm so sure that i failed it!!!

oh its tuesday.. right.. okay part of nicoll highway collapsed today at around 3.30pm.. yeah.. breaking news.. pretty shocking yes.. never expected it myself.. whoa manz.. hmm.. crap..had chi ca today.. didn't study.. wasn't that bad though.. haha.. hmm..

mr wijaya taught us for phy..whoa he's damn pro..understood alomst everything he said.. haha.. thought the carol part was pretty funny though.. and vanessa bay's brillant.. haha.. hmm.. started on integration for a math..pretty ok..quite fun so far.. chem was erm interesting..mrs tay kinda thought us how to organise our time..whoops then what am i doing here right.. haha..yeah..we did some oral conversation thing for eng..my goodness..i know nuts about children manz..haiz.. so angry with myself for only finding out that i left my wallet in class only after i walked all the way til i was super close to the interchange..wth..had to go all the way back to retrive it..hmph.. *pissed with myself* how could i be so forgetful?!

yeah..there was some chem lesson after school..didn't have to attend..so yeah..i didn't.. haha..hmm wasted my entire day after that though..finally returned the books i borrowed a long time ago.. haha.. i FINALLY went to check my eyes again..nothing wrong..thank goodness.. yeah.. went to popular for a while as well..haha..had to wait for quite awhile cos they were closed til 5pm for annual stock taking..wah so lucky..once a year..n i just had to decide to go today..what luck.. yeah..wasted loads of time today..

*sigh* the exams are coming soon..thats bad..the prelim orals of chi and eng which are one after another are like this week!!! am i screwed or what..haha.. oh wellz..pray that i actually manage a pass for both..*sigh* oh well..*looks at cheryl* yeah didn't delete the i appreciate cheryl thing..haha..thought that it'd be so insincere if one moment i write it,and the next moment i delete it..so yeah..that stays..haha..must watch the news today.. have to know more about the nicoll highway incident.. haha.. oh wellz.. it's wednesday tmr.. that equals to pe..n assembly if i'm not wrong.. haha.. oh well..

ahh..its monday already..wad crap..haha..my weekends were as unproductive as usual.. hmm.. yeah.. sunday was nice.. for a while *looks at cheryl* yeah the nkf charity show thing was on too..haha..finally made time to watch a cosiderable amount of the show.. haha.. i kinda liked the suction thing on lee ming shun or sth.. haha.. looked pretty painful..haha..-thinks saddist- whoops.. haha..

*big sigh* gosh..i'm so lost for a n e math.. now.. wad rubbish.. the vectors thing *scratches head* huh? *confused* n the graph thing for a math..m i screwed or wad?! *big sigh* yes.. someone commented that i didn't look the type to fail a math.. *rolls eyes* thanks.. haha..it wad only by a bit anyway..should not have been so careless.. besides, i don't think it's counted right.. fine fine.. shall take more pride in my work next time ok..

oh yeah we had some talk abt our grades thing for physics as well.. *sigh* i realised that i do need my phy quite a fair bit for the l1r5 thing..and probably my a math too.. *sigh* that's very bad..my a math isn't really good you know.. oh whatever.. *big sigh* hmm..cheryl changed her template yesterday to some thing which said "i raced against time...but i lost".. haha.. quite funny..oh well..but it's so much better than her last template..haha..changed my template too..kind of tired of the old one..ahaha..*looks at cheryl again* it's a lot less formal don't you think..less organised too!!! oh yes.. the bus ride back home was horrid..like it was some horrible nightmare or sth..yes u prob wld have guessed by now..it was with vanessa tan zx..my gawd..she kept insulting my english, my chinese n all.. what rubbish.. even my perception of a language come under fire..what rubbish..sure sure she even asked my if i'm really taking the chi oral exam on friday..crap..*rolls eyes* so comforting..fine fine..so my chi standard has dropped quite i fail bit..but still..arggh..what's her problem..suddenly i appreciated sitting next to cheryl so much again.. crap.. seriously..what's her prob?! arggh!!! *sigh* i just realised that i've spent hours blogging and changing the template.. oh well..i shall attempt to do something constructive today.. haha..yes.. wad a joke but yeah.. haha.. highlight the word attempt.. :p