if only know how i truly felt all this while.
all the thoughts running through my mind.
just how many times i wanted to give up.
how many times i wanted to let go.
this you never once realised.
this you will never know.

i'm tired of asking.
trying to drop the hint.
if only you realised why.
if only you understood what runs through my mind.
if only you understood me more.
if only you were willing to stop running things as per your own ideas only and perhaps open up to those not of your thoughts and mindsets.

if only does not happen.
if only will not happen.
if only you knew.
if only i knew what to do.

if only i didnt feel like this every other day.
what do you know. really. what do you see.