i realise... my life is really in a mess. and i need to start getting things right one step at a time. i miss... i miss a lot of things. sigh. the nights in loola kept me thinking. oh well. a step at a time.

anyway, tomorrow's mothers day. only realised after jiamin mentioned it at the cafe this afternoon. heh. oh well realising it's mothers day tmr and i'm doing closing... decided to rush home after i was done to cook dinner today. realised i haven't had a dinner together with my family for a long long time. =( suddenly made me remember one of my goals set on read bridge that i should start spending more time with my family. i'm beginning to think so too.

loola was pretty interesting. very different type of camp for dunman high. but pretty cool. got to do boomnetting and zipline again. the locals are really funny. always entertaining us. haha... thanks ar. and hey omg we climbed up coconut trees and plucked the coconuts. haha. i conclude that sitting ontop of the bus is still the best mode of transport around bintan as opposed to sitting in the bus. haha. whee i saw many many schools of flying fish while kayaking too on our island expeditions... there was a school of flying fish jumping right next to my kayak la. so funkaye. saw shooting stars too =) wish upon a shooting star yeah. whee... overseas cip-ed too. helped to get the library of some school in place and painted the wall. fun! whee... haha but i was so shocked when the trekking was trekking up a gunung. haha oh man i wasn't mentally prepared for it seriously. fun fun but super super steep. i think my knee wanted to break after it lar. rope ascend up and down lor. oh well. hahaha... but cool. like my class. really nice to get a hug before they leave. the teacher in charge wang lao shi also super cute la. always so enthu and willing to try new things. pei fu pei fu. really cool when she told me xie xie ni ke yi kan chu wo ban de gu niang man xi huan ni de. whee... no lor. should be xie xie to the class for making my four days there pretty enjoyable. guess i'll miss having them around.

went for the four two gathering right after breaking camp. wow haven't seen them in literally year. realised i really always go missing for the longest periods of time... quite tired of people asking me why im so busy or if im ever free. sometimes i just wish to have a few free days. a few free days to do whatever i want. quite shi bai. i realised i haven't managed to do a lot of stuff that i've wanted to do since the end of my A levels. example- boardsailing. just a one day course. or rather pretty much half day... i haven't even managed to make time for that. =( ahh. shall stop here before i start whining or something. need to relearn emath now. it's been a long long time. heh. tired...

how do you know when you're losing it?
when you go for a run and your knee yells out in pain you run faster.
when your ankle starts hurting as well you go even faster.
when your back starts to ache you continue running.
when your other knee decides that it's enough and starts to hurt as well you keep on going.
normal people stop and rest.

feels good to run again after so long. see a long run is still the best way to get everything off your mind. i miss running. i need it.
ran the old boys 5km route. 22mins 37 secs. not bad i guess considering i'm still sick, haven't ran for so long and my body's like degenerating or something. still faster than my 2.4 timings in tj i realise. guess a break is good. but i just wasted that i haven't been running during my you're not supposed to be running anymore period of time. im back to square one again. sigh.
running helps. momentarily. but suddenly im hurting even more than ever ='(

sigh grandpa's just been admitted into hospital. things just keep getting more interesting don't they. promised faez i'd go see the doc too. then i need to head down to the cafe. arggh. i need... a break...

just received the letter for nus. i really don't know whether to be happy or to be sad to have received that letter. last year's enrolment for engineering school: more pple are enrolled into chem engin than common engin. er i must be so lucky. rarh. damn la. guess it's the i didn't take physics part? rarhs. went to ntu for the talk the other day. didn't realise accountancy is so competitive. 60% of the intake are three As students. errr... and yeah sam and i did get in through the direct admissions after all. hmm... i really don't know. i think i need a lot of time. a lot of time to think everything through.

anyway back from camp at mawai. pretty interesting experience apart from the perpetual lack of water. students from the international school are really different from local students. i guess that's what makes them really interesting. but hey for 9 year olds to go trekking up a mountain... i think they did well. not an easy task. caught up with my good friends mr leeches. but again they refused to bite me. fine. camping again soon. loola next week. realised doing camps is a good way of trying to get away from everything. though i guess it doesn't work all that much. heh.

haven't been blogging much. i'm sorry. don't really feel like blogging. i'm off the next two days before i go into camp. can't wait. i realise though sometimes i feel a bit afraid to go for certain camps i really end up missing them in the end. the upcoming mawai camp sounds super fun. really really cannot wait. motor boats... night cruise to see fireflies (really serious)... water obstacle courses, trekking up gunung arong and all. omg exciting exciting exciting! canadian international school. wonder how different it'd be from normal camps. =p loola coming up soon too... yay and i really want to do another HA camp. serious. fun fun fun i like =) you know initially when i first started doing camps... honestly, i pretty much disliked it. but now it's pretty much done a hundred and eighty degrees change. i'm enjoying it and i'm really happy and excited to learn new cheers. and to this i have someone to thank. firefly you rock. please dun ever say firefly sucks ever again. please don't.

im giving a whole new meaning to sick and tired =( rarhs.

omg omg omg omg hahahaha i've been accepted into ntu accountancy already. and wth i didn't even have to go for the interview. thought there was supposed to be one? ahaha sorry can't stop laughing at the one of the top candidates offered a place in the programme. hey i didn't do all that well lor. bet they wrote that to everyone who got accepted in. got some special invitation to their high tea. should i go should i go should i go? hahahaha but i applied for ntu for fun only leh. need to see what nus offers me. ahh oh no now i've a lot of things to think about. maybe i should accept accountancy instead? oh man. hahaha why am i so excited. i must be mad. hahaha. omg.

ahh busy tired i update at weird timings. finally got my wish to go for a ha camp at jbac fulfilled. haha luckly firefly pulled me back to a camp high a few days before. haha yay! jbac is really nice... and ha camps are funnn... especially the campfire. seriously. never had so much fun at a campfire before. haha i've a pink ranger cheer too. haha super cute la. anyway the poi ching kids are really cute... quite miss the instructor mango sleep with us leh, the why you always have a song for everything one and all... ahh so cute lor. ask me to write in the autograph page also got requirements one. one long paragraph, signature, name, smily face and a cheer. hahaha write until happy lor. so many booklets. haha... oh well but something about the camp was the after campfire debrief. found it quite heartening and meaningful. if we hold on together... some part of me felt that that touched and changed a few of their lives. haha... oh man i'll always remember this camp. one of my kids wrote to me... although you may not remember us, we will always remember you. wow all captured within a simple sentance. i'll remember you all too! =)

camping soon again next week and the week after. mawai and then camp loola again. i think i seriously do more overseas camps than local camps lor. but good also la. different type of experience. this time round... i'll do it good and i'll make it good. i can do this. must jiayou wor . yi ding yao you xing xin. =) anyway work at the cafe's been pretty fun... lots to learn from there. =) haha oh well. very tiring though juggling so many things. still need to do the trekking report and the notes... needs time... tired tired.. too tired to do it =(

haha oh something really funny happened last night. haha ardi rico and i went to visit yanling at her sph booth. rico left. so it was ardi and i left... we went shopping etc to kill time. then when it was finally time to leave, we walked to city hall mrt. and i was too lazy to walk back to suntec to take a bus home so yup ardi and i walked to the bus stop behind peninsular plaza to take a bus home. but i didn't have a bus there. cleverly remembering finding a way from clarke quay before, i declared that bus 10'd probably be at clarke quay there. so yup we walked there from city hall. from bus stop to bus stop we were checking for my bus... all the way until we reached past outram park before we finally gave up and took a bus to vivo so that i could take 10 home. haha and yup i cleverly dozed off.. and the next thing i knew... i woke up at tampines interchange. at 130am. smarttt... haha anyway yeah the worst part was that we just found out that haha bus 14 which goes to my house there, was right outside city hall mrt station. haha woo hoo... win liao. hahaha...

sigh still want to try boardsailing and learning a dance. hopefully i'll have time for that. still want to go backpacking in june... heh. ahh wish me luck. hahaha. =p

tired tired tired! dead busy... i think the people that i actually meet nowadays are yinwei, eng wei, ardi, song xi, stephen, firefly and now rui long... other than that... i barely ever meet anyone else. i've like disappeared. ahh busy busy. i'm going to start disappearing soon again. sigh. anyway i realised my boss at the cafe call me kimbo too. lol. quite funny when it happens. like half the world uses that nickname now. very nice to use meh? haha i'm quite amused by it. anyway realised there's a posb go card when i was doing some errand today. haha so funky la. can be used as a debit card cum atm card. haha rui long tells me it's been around for quite some time. haha omg i feel so out of touch with the world these days. i wanna upgrade to that card too! looks so funkaye =)

anyway something interesting happened. or at least so i think it's interesting. haha. on the way home there was a sit on the mrt. so seeing a more um yeah elderly uncle... naturally i gave the sit to him. was super tired then. i think he could sort of tell. i was falling asleep standing... then when he alighted at bedok he kept thanking me. haha not bad. at least i did something um meaningful today. is that the word. shit. too tired. i think i'm not thinking properly already.

mum left for taiwan this morning. went to the airport to send her off before work. ended up trying to kill my time at starbucks. =/ luckly firefly called and haha entertained me throughout while he packed his bag for his camp. met firefly at raffles place and haha we played the don't board the train when it comes game. hahas. kidding. ehhh hahahaha firefly! i seriously didn't know that your course is part of the engineering faculty in temasek poly lor. hahaha... yay we'll all go to engineering school! if that's what i accept. lalala... hahaha in comes a firefly msg when i type this. firefly is uber tired. sorry firefly... made you sleep so late last night. then now so tired. heh. =/

going back to ij tmr with rae hui... and jean literally just told me that the ij fiesta is tmr morning till early afternoon. heh. i see i see. they must have been planning a celebration for our homecoming for months. if not it wouldn't be so zhun lor. especially when i haven't been back to ij for years. literally. hahas. oh yeah btw the word of the day yesterday was akimbo. WTH. there's such a word?! not singular form of a kimbo. but a word itself. wo bei shocked diao lor. haha omg. seriously. oh well. hahas. omg i'm talking a whole load of rubbish. tired tired... pop! goes my heart... sorry that song's running in my mind now... so so tired... zzz...

hey... haven't been updating for quite awhile. just a post to show that despite all the rumors, i'm still pretty much alive. haha. sent eng wei off to tekong today. saw mingwei's friend kay kham at the saf ferry terminal ushering i think. haha. yup. anyway went to tekong first time ever. looks good sia. better than a resort. or at least so it seems la. had a tour around... eng wei's in mohawk. haha what an interesting name. oh well. hope he has fun in there. at least he has jie kai there. haha... upon returning to the saf terminal guess what... we saw chao kiat! going to enlist too. so qiao. hahaha cool. tekong... haha sia la... maybe i should sign on =p oops. haha.

been in kulai the past few days. mmm interesting i got to use a saw. hahaha. cheap thrill i know but hey it's kind of cool yeah. haha. been quite busy the past couple of weeks... but at least it seems to be dying down. starting work at a cafe tomorrow. wonder what it's like. always wanted to try waitressing. finally i'm going to get my wish fulfilled =) yay another off my wish list. got a call from high achievers this evening too. going to do a camp for them later this month. yeah man. soooo exctied can. hope hope it's jalan baht. i reallly want to go there. but anything lor i just really want to try a camp with them. haha =) yays. anotherrr thing off the wish list. yay it seems that i'm finally fulfilling what i want to accomplish within the holidays.

anyway yes i finally decided that i should start going back for physio. sorry everyone for taking so long to decide to. sorry for making you all worry. heh. my left knee is dead, right ankle dying and right knee starting to die. wow. =( yeah i'll start going back for it once i find out where i should go to do it. i wanna change place for physio. heh. ahhs. sigh. oh well. rarhs.

hey hey short update before i leave for kulai in um a few hours time. been an interesting couple of weeks i guess. watched my second movie of the year today. i realised i'm really very no life. second only leh. hahas. anyway met firefly today... had an operation find firefly at ps. haha quite fun and funny cos haha i was so lost. and haha yay i got surprised with a mr tortise. ooh so cute la. yay i like surprises hahas =p music and lyrics is a nice movie. go watch =) really tired. haven't slept. long long process of planning. hehs. lucky there was mr tortise for me to play with. hahas =)

super cute mr tortise! =)

been going to nus for the bazaar the past few days. had some happy time shopping around as well as helping to promote the booth by haha making friends with the other shop owners here and there. haha. saw rachel today! haha science faculty. not bad. quite an interesting experience i guess. oh quite scary i nearly missed a couple of uni deadlines. been in camp for too long already la. so completely unconnected with the world so much so i don't really know what's going on already. haha. had to ask mr lim to write me a last minute referee form for nus on the closing day itself. feel so so bad. thank goodness for him.

oh camp christine the other day was not too bad too... saw froggy who was literally a fence away at jalan baht. nice campsite. i want to try there some time soon =) interesting. learnt a lot. learnt how to rarh rarh a little (luckly for firefly who helped me to kick start it =) ). though seriously i think i suck at it. cos i dun like to. oops. managed to kayak towing titanic as well. all pretty interesting experiences i guess. i even got a husband of 6 years can. haha to entertain the kids i declared that i was only 12 years old somemore. haha so funny having to convince them. hahas =)

haha my kids =)

my cute little p5 kids again =p

haha i love this photo. i look so retarded in it hahas =p

really really tired. need to sleep soon. only have two and twenty minutes left. heh. i'm beginning to talk rubbish. oh rico is so nice. he bought us stuff from bangkok. yayness =) need to settle the payment for the uni applications. ahhh... =/ rarh! nighttt...

hmm back from two camps. heading for a third one tomorrow.
the first camp at camp loola with admiralty sec in bintan was a really insightful one.
not only did i learn a lot, i managed to try a lot of stuff that i wouldn't do as well.
3e2 was a really great class. very bonded and wow they could really rarh rarh themselves well.
am was great too. he really taught me a lot of stuff about facillitating. and gosh i have to admit he is one hell of a camp instructor. damn pro. really really good. i've much much more to learn.
the stuff they have at the campsite. the zipline... boomnetting and all. haha wow really pure excitement. and omg i even got to sit ontop of the moving bus. damn funky. having to duck each time there were branches and leaves. haha whole new experience all together. the teachers from admiralty were damn cool also la. so sporting and helpful all the time. yay for them. haha and the oc instructors. wow. can't wait to see them in action again tmr for the next camp =p

second camp with monfort was completely different. our first impression was very omg what are we going to do with them. especially when the school actually wanted us to fence the area up to prevent them from running away from camp. heh. guess it kind of showed a lot. the principal was super on. i'm suprised. on as in a i like the military style of camp for discipline kind of on. a bit of a oac-styled kind of thing i guess. but actually hmm the students are really not too bad la. yeah you have to kao bei them a bit at the start but after that if you become a little nicer-not until the point that they override you la. they will start to listen. really. was quite suprised myself when they offered to help me carry stuff and all. i guess it's just they way you go about handling them ba. tiring but fun. kayaked to coney island and saw the giant jellyfish above the other smaller jellyfishes. haha gross. didn't dare to capsize ever. yucks. anyway i don't like pasir ris anymore. felt like i was being shipwrecked onto pasir ris. eng wei, jin xin and me. 3 of us vs 80 odd students. lucky rico was there. difficult teaching campcraft one person to at least 32 students. heh. but i guess its through this kind of stuff that you learn more so that you'd know what to do in the future?

ahh tired. wonder what tomorrow will be like. pri sch kids should be a little easier to handle as compared to sec sch kids yeah. hopefully i'll be able to rarh rarh them a bit. i need to learn the art of rarh rarh-ing. im lousy at it =(

needs to settle my uni applications fast after the next camp. if not i'm so so screwed. then it's probably off to kulai at the end of the month. ahh one hell of a month. very good. very very good. =p

back to tj today... happy =) got the 30th anniversary shirt. the one that i thought was really nice. omg i'm so pro. haha =p anyway i realised mr tong's really nice. gave me a bit of advice for which university course to take too. really nice guy for a dm. hahas. ahh did i mention that i love tj again? =p met rachie too... omg haven't seen her in awhile. watched orientation together. really missed the times we went crazy together in house comm. haha =) saw hsu da ge again! he was like hey you've lost weight since the last time i saw you. haha errr... hmm... haha. didn't know what to say. been getting pretty funny comments of late. just the other day liesel told me that it was a common consensus that i grew prettier. haha shocking. i was um speechless. then the results day... po ling was asking me if i was going kayaking everyday cos i'm so tanned. haha. omg and to think i thought i faded. haha =p anyway about the results... like the o levels... i didn't really ask about your results. it's not that i don't care to know how you faired. it's just that i thought i should give you some space... to get over it if needed or to go celebrate. so yup.

many things i need to settle. the course i'm going to take in the university. need to decide on it soon. hopefully... hopefully i'll make a decision that i won't end up regretting. somehow i wish that i didn't have that many options to play around with. it'd be easier for me to decide then. but oh well. =( i should be grateful. at least i got the tj alumni thing done today. that's one off the wish list. =) ahh many things to say not enough time. haven't packed for tmr's camp. and i'm sick. =( so so dead. let's hope i survive.

i'm tired. really really tired... =(

sigh. if you know you know, if you don't then leave it that way. i did okay.
considering i didn't finish the chem ppr and read the gp qn wrongly i'm fine.
really sorry if i give very indifferent replies to everything.
just very... sian-ed by everything. i don't know. i just don't seem to feel anything.
i just keep wondering... what next?

and so the last day of work at mircon has come and gone.
guess it feels like of weird not having to wake up so early in the morning to rush to the bus stop to meet wai kit to take the first bus down with chern xin to boon keng. feels weird knowing that we don't have to go there again. guess we've all gotten pretty used to the way of life there.

ahh guess i'll miss mircon. especially the people in there who made the whole experience more memorable then ever. received a msg from darren this morning that he misses us and we make him ku xiao bu de. ahh see la yesterday still don't really wanna take photo with us. heh. hahas. ahh i miss having that guy around too. spent most of my last day laughing at him and doing stupid things... haha always remember him as the first person to entertain me. hahahas. oops. then there's kim yeou who taught me sbt and joked that the short one liner that i wrote to thank him for his guidance was a qin shu. =/ ah heng and ben who always laugh at me when my cart over shoots the oven area or something. simon also who always "ze bian jiu hao le" in a very dramatic way and laughs at me... =/ hahas. ah chen ar who's so blur that half the time (more than half actually) irni and i are dying laughing at him. hahaha... then there's all the makis (is that how you spell it) who are constantly so nice... especially the one kit, chern xin and i always meet like 610 in the morning (no idea how come she's always so early but that's a good thing). haha and omg that big bar of cadbury chocolate is still lying in my fridge. hahas =)

yay then our own people. kit and yuan =) chern xin who timeouts me everyday for breaks after my lead went back to sarawak for cny and tripped at the same flight of stairs every single break for the first few days. super funny la. alex who always goes pi ar pi. ahaha... irni... chang de who's super crazy every day. always makes days in there much more interesting. shou de also! tied me up on the last day lor. so funny. i looked like some retard. and ahh that reminds me that i need to grow taller... haha... any suggestions as to how? =p

learnt quite a fair bit from micron too i guess. a lot more chinese (cos most of them speak to me using that).. and to be a bit more open. previously it was always within the people i know. this is one of the few times i knew almost no one prior at the start. felt a bit like the time i entered tj myself. haha. not bad. learnt the art of self entertaining and stoning as well. ahh. so much to say. i miss micron and all the sbts. haha. oh well. when one door closes, another opens.

results tomorrow. i don't know man. not much feeling towards it. still thinking of whether i should enter sch late. just in case there's the prinicipal's talk. then i'll be able to miss it. hahas. oops. jean asked me earlier what's my standard of okay for the results is. i don't know. i replied aab. because i screwed up chem quite badly. gp as well. kind of weird i guess i already know how badly i'm gonna do for chem. just waiting to see if it ends up worse off then what i predicted. for a person who has been failing for majority of her jc life... i think my expectations are a little... high. i think tomorrow i'll just end up disappointed. very disappointed. i'm just... just afraid to let everyone down. especially my tutors. perhaps it's better that i not know the results. then i won't have to bother. ahh can't be bothered about it. whatever man.

anyway... oh yeah something important. happy birthday froggy! =) beta wouldn't have been the same without you! haha nothing would have. yays! for all the events... the functions the track meet the titans trainings. yay for froggy! froggy rocks. thanks for everything! =D

heys =) went back to tj yesterday for road run cum cny carnival. um more for road run actually. ran with them to try the new girls route. much better than before. no lucky heights. thank goodness for that. haha. traumatising hill. lol. yup anyway beta clean sweep-ed the guys first second third! hurrays. and cheer as well. yeah man. met my bio tutor mrs ng too! yay! haha and of course not to mention hsu da ge found me too! haha... oh and damn i like that green tj polo tee. ahh. i want i want i want =( hahahaha oh well =/ anyway i realise i'm so dying. after that run ar. left knee right ankle all started to fail me liao. not that i ran fast or anything. leisure pace and not a very long distance also. sad la. oh well. met wei kheam yesterday too. oh man. his hair grew back liao. not fun to laugh at anymore. haha then again there wasn't really much to laugh at to start off with hmm...

ooh went bouldering with yinwei at safra yishun just now. hurrays. i think just playing around the bouldering wall in the bouldering gym is addictive. lol.















haha looks good =p though somehow i preferred climbasia? easier perhaps. oops. =p but nice anyway.














sheep and i on the mat. hahas =)














hahahaha.... the sheep is ba ba-ing away =p














exhausted. haha then we headed over to northpoint, shopped and then headed to swensens and guess what happened...














photos...














and more photos... oops. haha =p

fun! i like bouldering. it gets... addictive =p

hmm quite a busy week... not too bad. went for sports climb with yinwei... got our certs le. and guess who we met... haha one of our course mate's a tutor from tj. the both of us didn't realise! after awhile we started talking we were like what's your occupation... then he looked at us and said tj. we were like huh? like what are you working as? and he said i'm a tutor in tj. haha imagine both of our shocked faces lol. apparently he said he saw me before in tj. you hc one right? haha hmmm haha sheep and i are still wondering why we didn't see him around when he entered last june. haha anyway yeah this gp tutor is super cool la. hahaha totally not tutor like at all out of school. lol. still talk rubbish do stupid things and gossip with us. funky. and man pei fu de. he's doing the sportsclimb course because they want him to be the next in charge of the climbing club so he came to learn more about it. not bad. that's the way lor. i think they made the right choice of teacher. sheep thinks the same too. =) hahaha just saw his email. not bad hor quite resourceful can find our email adds. haha... odac da jie jies. hahaha i shall reply to hsu da ge =) haha



















trying to act zai lol



















haha hu da ge trying to add the zai-qi haha =p

haha not bad. pretty fun. quite like bouldering somehow. hahaha... hmms. =) anyway the sheep followed me to boon keng to eat before i went off to work there. haha this is what we ended up doing...





























haha still got somemore la. i think we traumatised the pple around us by anyhow taking photos. hahaha...

hmm spent yesterday after work with eng wei at ubin lol. went cycling and as usual that guy found many new places for june camp. of which haha he can't use already since we've already handed over. too bad! lol. went over to noordin beach for his backwoodsman cooking... asked me to make a shape with the bread dough after is was kneeded and this is what it became....















lol! hahaha so yup cooked the bread there... and he cooked lunch there too. rice and curry. lol. took me by suprise though. only knew about the bread. haha anyway not bad la. quite some.. trip.. haha















back to basics. haha completely... primative. lol. but quite interesting i admit. hahas. oh well anyway i declare that ubin coconuts are much nicer than those on the mainland. no idea why. oh well. hahas. anyway we were galavanting around tampines mall before heading over to parkway and guess what...















realised he always always smiles like that. one straight line














so we tried to change it... obviously very unsuccessfully =/















yay some improvement le!















and then it failed again =/ hahaha oh well... haha but quite amused by it. hahas. hmms. going back to tj for road run cum cny carnival. can't wait. a bit lazy to run. but wanna try the new route with the others. haha oh well. yay maybe i'll get to see wei kheam with his new ahem hairstyle after he books out tonight. haha. that zoo keeper ar. hahaha... hmms. yay yay yay! teejay! =p can go disturb hsu da ge also. hahas. yay for teejay! =) realise my driving theory's super soon. sat morning and i haven't even studied. oops. can i opt for a deferrment? lol. cham. oh well never mind. i'm quite contented with the public transport sector anyway haha... =p

not bad not bad. seems like most pple did quite well for the Os. congrats =) not bad. really happy for my bro. can stay in nj on his own. don't need that appeal slot liao. it was a good suprise =) decided to go buy something to jiang li him so eng wei pei-ed me to shop around for something to buy. finally decided on that nice white and blue nike fit polo tee looking shirt. really nice and... ouch. expensive. but i guess it's worth it la. and it'd be something he'd use anyway. i bet eng wei must have died shopping with me. zhammed so many shops only to decide on something from the very first shop we stepped into. hahas. oops. ah well guess this means the As will be back pretty soon too... hmms oh well had the evil thought of missing the principal's speech again the way i did during the collection of the o level results. haha. oops.

ahh busy weekend ahead. sports climb course at climbasia tomorrow from morning till the evening followed by work night shift and then the ntu admissions talk the following day followed by work again. haha looks like i'll be going at least three days without sleep... yay congratulations to me =) i'm so gonna die.

i forsee... i forsee a busy weekend ahead and another busy week to follow =)

o levels coming out today. hope everyone does fine yeah. hopefully everyone can get into or stay in the schools of their preference. ahh sigh interview later too. seems pretty formal. wonder how that's going to go down man. realised there are some ex-ij pple who i meet only like once or twice a year at the oddest places. like at surf and sweat or at the new balance real run and things like that. hmms...

went to mag low's husband's wake yesterday. quite heartening to see what initially seemed to be never ending streams of ij girls and sji boys entering the church for the final farewell mass. many ex ij girls too. sigh second time already. back in tj my form teacher mrs tan lost her husband last year due to an unforseen circumstance as well. sigh. really sad. the family was crying so hard there came to a point that i could no longer look anymore as well. the feeling of sadness and loss was... overwhelming. jean and i followed them to mandai cremetorium. after the cremation... mrs low was crying so hard that honestly i didn't know what to do but to stand and watch from afar and to give her a hug to let her know that we're all there for her. never seen my form teacher this devestated before. sigh. wanted to say something to her but decided that maybe silence was the best thing someone could offer at that point of time. sigh really must stop by ij sometime to see how she's coping. hope she'll be able to get through this soon and carry on with life. jia you mrs low! all of ij's rooting for you.

haha omg 149442 chips. that's the number of chips my supervisor and i finished today. not including some others that we did. that's madness. no wonder the first day of proper work is driving me crazy. haha but then again it's quite fun. some mindgame harder than mindsweeeper. heh. can be highly annoying or interesting and haha somewhat analytical? but not bad la. depends at how you look at it. challenges are good. =p not bad. made friends with ppb's friend too. especially since we work in the same department and have the same breaks. =) haha eng wei's doing his first camp tomorrow! so cool. wonder what it'd be like. can't wait to do one soon too after this one month job. not too bad though since this job is three to four days a week only. yinwei is right. i should take the time to do the stuff i've always wanted to do. haha so ta da. i've been planning. hahas. yay! =p

How to Save A Life by The Fray
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

and yes sheepie i still like slow songs. hahas.