fyp's... -_-
hectic month

April's important dates i must never miss :

Palm Sunday (Sunday, April 17, 2011)
Holy Thursday (Thursday, April 21, 2011)
Good Friday (Friday, April 22, 2011)
Holy Saturday (Saturday, April 23, 2011)
Easter Sunday (Sunday, April 24, 2011)


on a random note, easter's coming.
m&m's got cute pastel coloured easter-egg looking m&ms in different varieties.

the peanut butter one strikes me like the ultimate happy pill!


can i have some pleaaaseeee? 0=) hehe


arggh back to studying for the membrane midterm tmr.

quick final sem fly away

fly me over to europe now now now

almost a months of adventures here i come!

and so we have welcomed in 2011.

2010 has been an interesting one.

many ups and perhaps even more downs.

many tests. many questions. many trials and tribulations.

but still we all got through it.

what 2011 will bring will be even more interesting in a different sense.

2011 will be the mark of great changes.

transition from university undergrads to graduates

from the carefree lives we spend to joining the tax paying community.

everyone will start to go in their own directions.

who knows when we will meet again.

2011 will be a trial for the greatest of friendships.

i for one have never been able to manage this well.

when the work piles buildup, it is difficult to make time.

but i'm learning. and i'll keep trying.

because even though i never speak of it, each friendship means a lot to me.

so if you suddenly start hearing more from me, i hope we reignite the times we had together in the past, no matter how different our current circumstances have become.

tested and weathered. i hope our friendships last. i hope they're strong enough to brave the storms ahead.

2011 will be tough. very tough.

but, with faith and strength, we will get through.

THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD

The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not want;
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters;
He restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness
for His name's sake.

Even though I walk through the valley
of the shadow of death,
I fear no evil;
for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
all the days of my life;
and I shall dwell in the house of the
Lord forever.

Psalm 23

Isn't it weird when you suddenly realized how much you missed working with those guys?

Isn't it weird when you open an old folder and suddenly all the memories of those 6 months come flooding back in?

Isn't it weird when you suddenly realize that you'd trade it all to do it all once again?

Oh gosh...

becauseimfeelingrandom

life as it is for engineering students






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so wake up, wake up dreaming =)

quoting it from liesel's friend (changing the profession of course to engineering)

engineering is like shoes
not just any pair of shoes
but the best and prettiest pair of heels you've ever seen
you know you want it
you know it's meant to be on your feet
you know it's the shoe of your dreams
but then you put it on 
and it hurts so bad
causes you blisters and callouses
makes your feet hurt
some people fit it just right
slip right in
but no not you
and people around you compliment them
you just smile through the pain
but they are still the shoes of your dreams
everyday you get up and they are all you want to wear
they may not fit just right
but you love them anyway
because you know you just have to break them in
so even though it hurts at first
you know it's the shoe of your dreams
you know their meant to be on your feet
the beautiful ones are
ones that hurt the most

how true. i just need to try a little harder. try to break them in.
it'll be worth it at the end of the day.
when i get back into the jumpsuit and enter the plant,
when i stand on top of the tanks, looking down at the most breathtaking sceneries one can imagine, knowing that this is where i wanna be.

i gotta push on. can't let a few disappointments, no matter how big they may be, steer me off the path to my dreams.

i gotta be strong. i gotta move on. and i gotta push on.
it'll be worth it. i swear.

the transition from IA to normal life seems quite good.
though part of me still misses jurong island a lil. but all's well =)

tennis with the brothers at temasek club in the morning.
time out with the family thereafter (and omg my bros bought a hamster)

free time is good. there are sooo many pple i wanna catch up with. omg.
rae wen, rae hui, jean, rachel, kai, dorothy, jianie, arvin, yunhui, cheegake, xinyi, the oacians and omg so many more... pls pls give me more time to do so! =s i miss them! =(

so many pple to visit too... the auzzie pple wld have graduated by now =s but theres still europe and USA to explore and visit! gotta find a wayyyy! esp once i start working.

i hate reports.
15 more working days and i'd have reached the ORD status of my life =)
ah well.
but this internship has taught me more than one thing or another.
whether it's engineering related or human capital related, i have to admit that i have seen and learnt a lot.

insightful.

meeting people from many walks of life has taught me how to better understand and react to/handle these different people. something which i haven't been able to do in the past. many a times there have been too many unhappy things i have kept to myself because i didn't have the heart to tell others. but i guess forced by circumstances, i've been forced to learn how to fight for my own rights and for those around me. well that's something a little more daring than the usual old me. it's a little something which i've taken back with me.

whether i'll be back, i don't know. but hey, life's a learning journey. we learn something new each and every day. all the same, i'm thankful for this learning opportunity. i've learnt to be stronger than before =)

exam's long over,

internship's still on.

finally shifted back home for good after 3 long academic years in hall.

supposedly back to having a normal life.

but tell me why i feel more tired than ever.

i should be able to handle this.

rarh. i can do this.

anyway, happy 16th month dear!

fast isn't it =p

the poor boy's sick though =(

hope he gets well soon...

xin tong to hear him so xin ku wor =(

pokepoke fishie's here =)

haha many random thoughts.

i'm really too tired...

i never knew leaving KR would feel like this.

despite being so burnt out for the last year or so.

despite becoming more disconnected from hall than usual because of my many other commitments.

despite telling myself that leaving a year earlier than expected would ultimately be a good transition period from full time hall to full time student and finally to full time worker for the future.

standing on the stage, behind that oh so familiar curtain, knowing that this was your one and only - very last performance to KR,

the feeling was overwhelming.

the place which has given me so many ups and downs.

the place which taught me to love (literally, when i found you)

the place which has given me the most precious of memories

the place which has given me the best and worst of friendships

the place which made me grow into a stronger person.

the place which i've spent 3 years of my life being more of a hall person than a student.

i guess sometimes saying goodbye isn't easy.

i'll appreciate the memories, the friendships the love that KR has showered upon to me.

oh and the money too.

after being presented with the Lee Soon Ann Outstanding Scholarly Progress Award.

i can't wait to see my name on the plaque in the mpsh (probably cos i never really took note of its existence until now, so i'm still kind of intrigued)

ah well,

but yes, my time here is up. and it's time to give this chance of experiencing and growing from the KR life to someone new.

whoever you are, i hope you will seize the opportunities and make the most out of your stay here in KR.

so there it is. another phase of my life passing me by.

thank you KR!

love,

kimberley

this is not how i wanted my internship to be.
sigh.
screw it. =(

nan guo de yi tian jiu shi nan guo de yi tian.
zhe shi zhu ding de.
zhe shi jie shang shi mei you zhen zheng kai xin de shi.

今天又是很难过
今天特别难过

haha and over dinner today...
we were trying to recall when we first started dating before we went official.
anddd we cant recall. haha think it was too long before lol =p

anyway dinner was great!
Ricciotti Pizza Pasta & Deli! =p
italian foodfare along singapore river ftw! =D

Antipasto Riccioti

some pretty good chardonay

Tagliomini with Scallops in Spicy Tomato Sauce

Red Snapper Cooked Acqua Pazza Style with Prawns, Capers, Olive & Herbs

Tiramisu

awesomeee dinner. the pictures don't do enough justice. the food was impressive =D

watched "when in rome" as well.
pretty good show! had a good laugh =D

and it's an early 15th month celebration =D
15th out of the many more to come <3

and i think a part of me just died when i heard that

i have no motivation to graduate anymore.
there's just nothing to look forward to anymore.
no reason to work to hard.
to choing my studies anymore.
there's nothing at the finish line.
nothing i want waiting for me anymore.

i don't want to go there just because everyone's going there.

i want to go there because i've always dreamt of doing it.
to graduate from a university, take a couple of weeks and backpack europe.
backpack europe.
sounds silly but
i already wanted that even before i entered university

i'm not angry. i'm not anything.
it's just a little hard when this is something i've dreamt of for like half my life.
i just need a little space. a little time.

now everything just feels kind of.
empty.

okie. i think i've cooled down.
mood swinging these couple of days.
i always blog only when i'm fiesty. heh.
but i still do mean what i write. just in a less fiesty feel.

i mean it's not all bad.
i still appreciate it when you always remember to buy me sth to eat and drop it at my seat before night class starts cos you know i've no time to grab anything to eat,
when you brought me to see the doc and took care of me when i wasn't feeling well
even the smallest thing like your early morning good morning messages or spot checks to see if i've left hall so that i won't be late for work.
even the smile you give me when you look me in the eyes.
they really do make my day =)

i know i'm not very good at expressing how i feel.
i always keep things inside. keep you guessing.
so i write them down for now
it's just the littlest things which trouble me at times.
but it's a start. i'll keep learning. and trying not to keep you in the dark.
thank you though for listening me out,
for everything you've done for me too
and of course for loving me =)
<3

so many different feelings which i can never put into words.

guess that's why i always keep them in.

guess i've put off writting this for a long time already.

but i guess it just hit me harder than usual today.

even the simplest things. like walking me back to kr from biz after class. thats like what. across the road? not even a 5 mins walk. it's a waste of time. it can't be done.

from central lib back to hall. don't want to walk me back cos it's a waste of time too? fine.

even if you wanted to cab back from there. after accompanying you, it wouldn't hurt to ask the uncle to just drop me off at kr before heading back right? it wouldn't even take 5 mins of the uncle's driving time/your driving time.

you'd rather let me walk back alone at night.

the 5 mins which you'd probably spend watching tv. sitting. stoning. chatting. i don't know what else.

you know. i meant every word when i said you'd never send me back if i was going home home.

this is the reason why i'm so confident about that.

it's not about the sending back.

it's about everything else. everything else that you don't see.

especially when i try so hard.

you know whenever i know i'm going to be a little late to meet you.

i'll cab down cos that few mins i could save to spend with you was that important to me.

how i will plan my schedule or even cancel/rearrange timings/put on hold gatherings just because i know i have a chance of spending that little bit of time with you.

you have no idea.

i guess after everything.

it just hurts to know that i'm not even worth 5 minutes of your time.

not even 5 minutes.

i'm that insignificant.

but you will never understand.

a little bit sad.

a little bit disappointed.

don't really know what to feel for now.

but it's okay. i'll survive.

that's life. i guess.

hello =)

it's been awhile.
it's been a hectic couple of weeks.
weeks, days, hours zooming past me with the blink of an eye.

life's been good. tiring trying but good.
internship's been awesome.
wastewater's getting more and more intriguing
water or wastewater? wastewater hands down.
enjoying evey moment of this IA. though its really tiring to juggle it with night classes, late night chingay practices and other random stuff.
can't wait till chingay's over (soon soon yesssahhh! =p)
intern cny gathering tmr =)
pretty thankful that we're quite a close bunch of interns (probably partially cos there are so few of us)
was initially quite apprehensive to be the only environmental engineering student going to SUT. only kinda spelt lonely to me at that time. haha ah well. but i'm glad we cliqued. we're even going for an intern holiday in late july. =p anddd im learning chinese bit by bit everyday. and french too. i'm gonna be tri-lingual at the end of this internship man. yessah. lol =p
great bunch of intern friends, great supervisors and collegues who never fail to make me smile no matter how tired i am. what more could i ask for =)
and gosh think my little problem with heights is partially back.
that day on top of the isotanker. got that little panicky feeling deep down inside. something i haven't felt in awhile.
think i've been off high elements for too long. gotta do something about it.
go do more bungee thingys, rock climbing, roller coasters, climbing up trees that kinda stuff.
sometimes i think.. i'm quite... man-ly LOL =x sometimes. only. yeah. haha =x















a little chingay preview haha =p

and during this period of time, someone grew muchhh older.
someone's almost... just almost a quarter of a century old now. hahaha
(okie now you're gonna kill me for rubbing it in again lol)
and here comes his four part surprise =)














good spanish food, good ambience and good company. lol.















ta-da! twenty four! haha and my really melted lemon cheesecake =s



















his favourite rarh =)



















haha the fourth part... shall remain as a secret. LOL. =p

ahaha ah well. anyway xin nian kuai le people! =D
great break to recharge a lil before chingay comes at full force =s haha

back to ia reporting it is =p