quick final sem fly away

fly me over to europe now now now

almost a months of adventures here i come!

hoho design presentation tmr!
i hope our one sem worth of hard work pays off!
wish me luck =)

quoting it from liesel's friend (changing the profession of course to engineering)

engineering is like shoes
not just any pair of shoes
but the best and prettiest pair of heels you've ever seen
you know you want it
you know it's meant to be on your feet
you know it's the shoe of your dreams
but then you put it on 
and it hurts so bad
causes you blisters and callouses
makes your feet hurt
some people fit it just right
slip right in
but no not you
and people around you compliment them
you just smile through the pain
but they are still the shoes of your dreams
everyday you get up and they are all you want to wear
they may not fit just right
but you love them anyway
because you know you just have to break them in
so even though it hurts at first
you know it's the shoe of your dreams
you know their meant to be on your feet
the beautiful ones are
ones that hurt the most

how true. i just need to try a little harder. try to break them in.
it'll be worth it at the end of the day.
when i get back into the jumpsuit and enter the plant,
when i stand on top of the tanks, looking down at the most breathtaking sceneries one can imagine, knowing that this is where i wanna be.

i gotta push on. can't let a few disappointments, no matter how big they may be, steer me off the path to my dreams.

i gotta be strong. i gotta move on. and i gotta push on.
it'll be worth it. i swear.

too tired out too fast
it's just not right

YAY and i got my first choice for FYP! =)

Biosorption Optimization for Organic Pollutants Removal in Wastewater

this is gonna be a good year =)

one of the biggest reasons why i love ese:

we learn together.

we study together

we learn together

we help each other out

we share possible solutions/reasons/summaries of modules with each other

and you know they're to help you unconditionally.

its amazing how everything and everyone's just so genuine.

no ulterior motive, no selfishness, nothing.

it's something that's difficult to find these days.

i guess it's kind of weird. and i shouldn't be thinking like this.
but these couple of days, i've been wondering...
if hardcore engineering is really for me.

i mean i like it. but i don't know.
guess it's just the momentary feeling of uncertainty.
though i really think that i can still do so much more if given the chance.

haha so many things happening this week.

i'm beginning to lose track of everything's that going on.

many many things to do.

ah well...

and i realised i really don't have a i'm from engin look. =S

no one has ever been able to guess my faculty without prompting -_-

haha funny conversation that occurred over the week:

lady: are you from nus as well?

me: yup i'm nus too... engineering =)

lady: *gasps in shock*

me: haha yuppp engineering

lady: but you don't look like an engineer... too fashionable.. too...

me: haha yeah i get that a lot. that i don't look like i'm from engin

lady: whoa... so do you really like what you're studying? does it interest you?

me: *laughs away* yes engin's quite interesting and yes i'm really from engin ahahaha

ahaha thanks ar. still ask whether i like what i study haha. omg. i'm really from engin can =s

talking about that... my CAP's up by another 0.2! =D

not as much as i'd have hoped it'd improve but ah well. not too bad of a jump still.

jumped 0.65 over the last 3 semesters. can't complain ehs.

though cos it wasn't as good as expected...

some hopes are completely dashed and left for the dumps. ah well. forget it.

just a lil worried that IA's gonna further stall my CAP.

ah well... talking about IA...

i still haven't gotten enough working clothes.

or shoes or whatsoever. uh oh. and i don't seem to have a lot of time left =s

AHH... so fast so fast...

ANDDD i think i'm gonna be awed at the sight of the jurong island wastewater and cogeneration treatment plants. saw about 3 photos and i'm whoa-ed already...

anddd their technology sounds pretty impressive! =D

the high efficiency anaerobic biogranulation technology sounds good.

the advanced fluid composting too!

really can't wait to see it in action.

this is so exciting =D

i have a lottt to learn! =)

and andddd they're building the world's largest water reclaimation plant in CHANGI! =D=D=D

ohmygosh they're technologies are =D=D=D im excited excited excited! =D

yeah!

happy 11 months dear! =)

we're almost a year! =p

though it's another celebration-less month

cos we're both way too busy =s

microbiology paper in the morning

and now desperately rushing air pollution control for tomorrow morning's paper.

just me, air pollution control and my cup noodles. haha

i'm terribly exhausted.

ah well but it'll be over soon yeah?

and sembcorp emailed me abt the details for internship day one!

7.35am. hahaha wow. i better be able to make it on time. consistantly.

i'm excited though! =)

haha alrights! back to studying. hopefully i'll finish reading this stack in time =s

ps: i miss youuu! =( and i hope tmr will be a good exam day for the both of us =)

awesome 9am papers

shit. im feel so stressed over screwing up waste management.

can't seem to get it off my mind.

please please please give me a B+.

i begggg of you.

don't give me anything below B.

though the more i think of it. looking at the way i answered the questions, the more i think i might have deserved that.

if only i could turn back time =(

someone please pray for me.

arggh. okie. now please make up for it kim.

learn to let go.

you have three chances left.

don't regret.

make it up.

icandothis.

and especially for you, i won't give up. as promised =)

sigh the more i think about it,

the worse i think i fared for my waste management paper that day.

not just the 20 mark calculation that i couldn't do.

but also the crappy answers that i gave even though i knew what was going on. =(

pls pls don't let me drop too many grades.

b+ will do for me =) (though now i think i need a miracle to get that =( )

sigh okie make up for it with microbio air and water. come on.

focussss O.O

stressedddd =(

haha yay! and im halfway through.

and i got my two wastewater quizzes back =)

and i realised i've scored 31.5 out of the 35 % possible that we've gotten back.

omggg. ifff my individual proj turns out fine... and i can somehow keep it up and do well for my final paper... YAY!

the most important module to me now cos i wanna major in that.

alrights. but i'll only touch it after microbiology and air pollution control are over.

and i must must stop slacking and playing so much. time to focus.

tmr will be a better day =)

okieee... to a crazily xiong week ahead...

I CAN DO THIS.

i really really want/need my honours.

and i really hope you do well too =)

you're my inspiration =p

okay. two days wasted.

gone to procrastination.

come on kim pull yourself together.

just four more.

you can do it.

you're almost there.

make tomorrow a better day.

tomorrow will be a good day.

icandoiticandoiticandoit

sigh. i broke down again last night.

for the umpteen-th time this semester

i'm so disappointed with myself

it's only the second paper but i'm already feeling so tired and burnt out.

but i can't let go now.

i know my content well.

but i'm putting too much pressure on myself to do well this sem.

so much so i actually think that's the reason why i can't perform during the papers itself.

anddd it's making it difficult for me to fall asleep at night.

even when i'm so so tired.

i need to find a way out

to get past the final four papers well

especially the final three which mean the most to me.

if i stop will you push me on?

will you reassure me that i can do this on my own?

oh gosh. i feel so worried for tmr's exam =(

I WANT MY CHEATSHEET. bahhh

i feel insecure =(

and here comes the start of my 6 ppr marathon.

wish me luck =(

ps: i miss you.

i'm getting so distracted, so unfocused and so tired this half of the semester that i really don't know what to do anymore.

maybe i really overloaded too much this sem.

maybe i'm just expecting too much out of myself.

maybe i'm just too tired.

to much work to do, so many other things to handle. so many other problems.

try being me for a day. maybe you'll understand.

finally finally finished the super undoable past year quiz.

so so ridiculous.

at least i figured it out. but still.

pls pls pray for me. that i won't flunk tmr's test =(

cos i really wanna specialise in that.

and my four labs in a day tmr. omg.

830am labs are unearthly hours.

to the long long day ahead.

lord, please carry me through.

yayness! kim is a happy girl today.

cos he met me twice today!

and both times more than the occasional 5-10mins we might have together here and there per week. =)

water and wastewater engineering test tmr. i need... to do well. =(

4 labs per day for this week. madness. and you wonder why i always disappear.

pls pls get me past this week...

I GOT ACCEPTED BY SEMBCORP! =D

for my industrial attachment.

not bad quite surprised since they have only 3 interns this year.

of which only 2 are from environmental engineering.

pls pls plsss let them give me the right jobscope.

let it be the one im interested in...

pleaseeeeeeee...

moral of the story.
never trust nus.
never trust engin.
i hate them. i really do.
every semester they screw things up for me.
what's wrong with them.