a nus legacy,
a kent ridge-ian history.

history was made tonight.

exam's long over,

internship's still on.

finally shifted back home for good after 3 long academic years in hall.

supposedly back to having a normal life.

but tell me why i feel more tired than ever.

i should be able to handle this.

rarh. i can do this.

anyway, happy 16th month dear!

fast isn't it =p

the poor boy's sick though =(

hope he gets well soon...

xin tong to hear him so xin ku wor =(

pokepoke fishie's here =)

haha many random thoughts.

i'm really too tired...

i never knew leaving KR would feel like this.

despite being so burnt out for the last year or so.

despite becoming more disconnected from hall than usual because of my many other commitments.

despite telling myself that leaving a year earlier than expected would ultimately be a good transition period from full time hall to full time student and finally to full time worker for the future.

standing on the stage, behind that oh so familiar curtain, knowing that this was your one and only - very last performance to KR,

the feeling was overwhelming.

the place which has given me so many ups and downs.

the place which taught me to love (literally, when i found you)

the place which has given me the most precious of memories

the place which has given me the best and worst of friendships

the place which made me grow into a stronger person.

the place which i've spent 3 years of my life being more of a hall person than a student.

i guess sometimes saying goodbye isn't easy.

i'll appreciate the memories, the friendships the love that KR has showered upon to me.

oh and the money too.

after being presented with the Lee Soon Ann Outstanding Scholarly Progress Award.

i can't wait to see my name on the plaque in the mpsh (probably cos i never really took note of its existence until now, so i'm still kind of intrigued)

ah well,

but yes, my time here is up. and it's time to give this chance of experiencing and growing from the KR life to someone new.

whoever you are, i hope you will seize the opportunities and make the most out of your stay here in KR.

so there it is. another phase of my life passing me by.

thank you KR!

love,

kimberley

alrights.
this sucks.
there's a reason why i don't play bball anymore.
and there's a bigger reason why i never stepped into that same court again.
to have to stand there and watch something that looked precatiously like the match last year was heart wrenching.
the same looks the same cheers the same omg feeling the same feeling heartdrop feeling each time the ball falls through that hoops.
painful to watch.
i hate competitions.
but then again. it's probably just how a captain feels.
after going through so much. training the team. leading the team. it hurts to watch it all end just like this.
sometimes you wonder if you could have done more. even though deep inside you already know that you tried your best.

YAY! and today i get koi bubble tea from my neighbour rachel. =)
and i had oreo mc flurry with mogu this afternoon =)
ooh and now kelvin and his big pack of maltesers! =)
people are giving me happy food everyday to bring down my stress level which is like way past yielding strength.
but AH WELL. i dont mind. it cheers me up =)


ps: i secretly appreciate even the smallest things. i'm that kind of girl.
i love my friends! =D

so so much to do. so many things due. =(

haha valentines was awesome.

awesome because of the person i spent it with.

indescribable.

the valentines day that meant the most to me after all these years lol =)

hall production was awesome too =)

great weekend. haha =p

yuan's 21st tmr! so exciting =)

the past few days.
difficult to describe.
emotional rollercoaster.
mentally physically emotionally tired.
so tired.
i actually think i crossed into the burnt out zone.
sigh.
accumulation of everything the past couple of months.
i guess what they say is right.
when something big ends for you, suddenly all the accumulated fatigue and frustration just starts pouring out.
and there's no way to stop it.

but i'm glad.
cos at the end of the day,
i'm really proud of my team.
i really couldnt possibly ask for a better team than this.
i'm proud of them for fighting till the last second.
i'm glad that they stood up to the challenge.
i'm thankful for how they came together to help me pull everything back together.
i'm grateful for the support i've received over the past few mths from the team.
the personal emails messages talks. yeah they really meant a lot.
it made the difference between me wanting to give up. or me wanting to push on further.
i only regret that i got too tired towards the end of the captaincy.
it's been a long journey.
but i'm glad that we're where we are now.
though things didn't go in our favour at the end,
i'm glad. really glad. that we are a TEAM.
and im glad that you all feel like part of the team.
the bonds that will carry us through till the next ihg.

i'm glad. and thankful. =)

to cry or not to cry.

haha yet another new year with you! haha =)
haha okie i'm being retarded. but i'm happy =) hahaha...

anddd xin nian kuai le everyone! =)

haha so many things coming up within such a short period of time. so scary.
i really don't know how i'm gonna handle it all =(
first basketball match coming up real soon too.
im scared. im worried. im frightened.
but i cannot be.
it's been a long tiring and draining journey.
i'm so drained, mentally and emotionally tired that
part of me is so so relieved that i'll FINALLY be handing over captaincy soon.
another part of me wants it to last awhile more. cos i believe we can make this happen.
and i know that i cannot possibly give up right at the end.

i really need to pull myself back together.
just for this last leg of the race.
come on.
giving up and letting go is not an option.

guess i snapped a little
cried a little today.
but im glad that im safe in your arms.
im glad to know that you're by my side always,
going through thick and thin with me.
thanks dear.

i miss my neighbours =(
5th floor is a ghost floor.

hur. but haha oh well theres some church camp going on here suddenly.
kinda awkard when they're like omg are you the girl in the lift?
then it gets even more awkard when they ask you that IN the lift itself,
while pointing at that poster =(
omggg. haha sigh oh well.

holidays so equals trainings and more extra stuff.
holidays shouldn't be called holidays =(

haha i'm a very happy girl today! haha =)
so much for being so sad after the ppr cos subway ran out of cookies... haha...
janice and xiuqi bought me the double choc chip cookies =)
jiaying brought us pizza.
weikit and mel brought us mudpies.
oliver's going around with the guitar.
and i just had two bubble teas too.
haha just when you're sad and super sian diao-ed that right after a genetic engineering paper...
you have a paper on... uh. the history of singapore and south east asia.
evolution of a global city state,
people come around making your day.
much love =)
alrights. time to haha start on my history module. though its already haha a little late. lol =)

sigh. im not even a third through for thursday's test.

rarh at engin uncertainty and analysis.

actually it isnt that bad of a module i realised.

i just need a little time to figure out the details here and there.

packed packed week. filled to the brim. sigh.

boring wordy blog.

kim is random.

random photos from the captains photoshoot to haha brighten the day.

still quite amused by them. looks.... er. haha. yeah.

kim tries to act fierce 1. fail.

kim tries to act fierce 2. flop.

kim tries to act fierce 3. super flop.

haha omg. and they're using the third photo.

still think the second one looks haha the cutest.

at least the first one looked quite dao right.

the third is just. ummm... HAHA. no comments.

i think my dark photos are the worst. =x

wonder how weird my video's gonna look.

sebest says its one of the more zai looking ones.

ahahaha but i still think i looked super ultimately retarded when i did it. =x

rarh.

alrights. enough entertainment for the day.

hope my flop-pish looks brought a smile to your faces =D

hahahahaha... back to engin math! whoots =)

hey hey...
held my first bball trials on my own today.
for the first time as a captain after so many years.
was initially really worried. cos i haven't been playing bball for quite a long time.
but i'm super super glad and relieved that everything went smoothly.
with the exception of my four corners. which i'll figure out what why it didnt work out that well later on. =p
was a pretty fun fun session in the end.
though i realised something about myself.
i realised that i'll always pull away from the game, coming in only when needed.
and purposely taking some difficult passes and allowing leeways for steals, rebounds and attacks most of the time during a match to see how my players react to the situation and how they handle it. ibg ifg and trials. better not make it a habit that i'd bring along with me for ihg.
good for now. but not in the future.
and yes la my accuracy is still there =) but not that consistant anymore.
definately must train on my courtwork too.
and do my homework about tactical skills and technical skills.
shall restart playing bball soon =)
oh well...
at least this trials definately met my objectives of making sure that they enjoyed the trials thoroughly while picking out my players and testing the strengths of the different players.
super happy seeing how much they enjoyed the sport...
mission accomplished.
more trials and ihg? bring it on.
*bball whoosh!* =)

never been prouder to be a blue. =)

the performance kent ridge gave.
nothing short of a display of the kent ridge-ian unity.
the outcome, an icing on the cake for the raggers, flaggers and fwocers who have put in so much blood and sweat throughout the three months to make this possible.
when you see the freshies and seniors alike, all huddled together in anticipation for the results.
for something we all believed in.
yes, we can safely say that we are one. one KRhome.

and yes, the shield's back home. =)
chingay here we come.

the expected is what we live for.
the unexpected is what changes our lives. =)

it's time to be who you are,
and say what you feel.
because those who mind don't matter.
and those who matter don't mind.

i can and i will. once the holidays are here =)
i can get through this.
shall we get through this together? =p

come to think about it.
i'm actually more disappointed because i actually bothered about you.
how i actually bothered to give you a listening ear.
to have tried to help by talking to you.
to have spoken up to defended you and your actions when others talked about it.
to have actually cared as a friend.
i see now more than ever who you really are.
no amount of facade would let me see you the way you used to be.
because its only now that i know what you truly are.
do whatever you wish.
i really couldn't care more.

perhaps friends are just the people who end up disappointing you the most.
better friends, even worse.
and when you thought you'd learnt enough to protect yourself from such people,
someone steps in once again with an even bigger magnitude.
someone you once thought you would probably be able to trust.
perhaps disappointment is not strong enough a word.
but then now that im so used to such rubbish.
it makes no difference to me.
i can do with one less person to talk to.
thanks.
too bad its scary how indifferent i've learnt to become.

boo while im at home with a working laptop for once (my laptop really cmi these days) sigh.
shall update a bit before i go into mia status.

they say a picture speaks a thousand words right?
there's a super long essay/thesis. lol.
many thousand words =p

johnny johnny johnny whoosh's birthday =)

our make shift johnny who wasnt around for us to celebrate his birthday with =p

happy birthday, love glacius! lol.

sheepie sheepie duuu where are youuu's birthday =)

amanda and i

yanling, sheepie and liyuan

bird-attack! wishing sheepie a happy happy birthday! =)

april's fool 2008. haha while being under constant attack from the guys...
yes la! the girls still rocked!
haha super super excitingly fun =)
cant wait for next year =D

omggg now what's this?!



















heh. ice delivery anyone?














frozen underwear cocktail.
serving underwears frozen with soap shampoo and a whole lot of perfume together with rose syrup muahaha... interested?














exhibition of the d-block guy's undies



















yes la! girl power =p

whee diva's night 2008 =)














DIVAS indeed =)














dance =)



















epitome of funkaye

super funkaye photo. love it =)
d-blk's very own very famous band =p

whee shall update again on command after our block command =)
provided im not mugging for my cm test this week (which im supposed to be mugging for)
haha. alrights. thats it for now... cyaaa!

sigh. they say you stay for the friends.
but what happens when you stay.
but your friends can't make it back.
feels like tj part two. when you finally decide to stay,
the people you're closest to you can't make it back.
and its sad that so many seniors are commanding or graduating.
next year's going to be so different.
so many new faces.
someone please stop the time.
let this moment with this group of people last a lifetime.

sometimes you just stop and wonder.
what's the point of all of this.