i'm tired of running. let's walk for a minute.

i'm now hanging by a thin thread.

sigh im supposed to be at econs lecture now.
can't believe i let myself mentally psycho myself not to go even though i haven't been to it in eons.
boo.
another sleepless night. the lack of sleep is really getting to me.
i can't perform well in sports i cant study i can't do much because of it.
i'm tired. i'm really tired of a lot of things. but i'm really too tired to sleep.
i don't sound like i'm making much sense.

went to brewerkz at clarke quay on friday night to celebrate mandy's birthday with the oacians.

lousy lousy friday before... screwed up bball trials. too tired to play. and i'm a bit gone lar. keep getting chest pains whenever i play nowadays boo. quite glad to see the oacians after so long. boo i miss them so. and eng wei, though i always say that i hate you, it's not really so. =p i don't have many photos. they're all in eng wei's cam. mmm...

with sze sian

and liesel.

went over to sheares yesterday to celebrate xin yi's birthday. her sheares com and friends are really happening. the deco of the room and all. super hilarious but nevertheless, impressive. mmm... then she came over to kr to visit me afterthat... and we started talking about camps again. i really really miss camps too. but there's just no time to do any now. =( i miss jbac.

i miss campha. i miss rocky. i miss oc.

at least i've xinyi nearby =)

happy birthday xinyi!

actually i've no idea why in the world i'm blogging cos i'm in no mood to blog at all.
a lot of things have been happening.
i don't know why you keep doing this to me.
i know it's unintentional. but still, it hurts.

its been a long long time. sitting here now... with the time approaching four...
i don't know what to think,
what to feel.
i'm tired. very tired.
it's been months. am i sober yet?
still a shadow of my old self.
i've no clue as to how to go back to who or whatever i used to be.
suddenly im so quiet. too tired or distracted to respond.
i try to make everything seem normal.
im scaring myself.
boo...
i don't like this me.
everything just feels so unhappy.
sigh.

hello =)

yay happy happy it's 28th august! lol...

thank you everyone =)

thank you to glacius who came to my room to surprise me with the ice cream cake at midnight. love you guys!

thank you to cheegake for the cute cute lion which will become a permanent fixture in my room. =p

thank you to our d block bballers. thank you for the match... and thank you for the suprise at munchie monkeys. i won't forget standing there on the stage alone holding the cake while you all sang the birthday song. haha =) you all rocked =)

thank you to yanling, amanda and yinwei for coming all the way down to kr (especially yinwei all the way from ntu) to surprise me =p

thank you to xin yi too... for coming over from sheares with the two slices of cake... and the couldnt be lighted candles =) love ya!

thank you to jiani khairul and insung... for the videotaping of you all crashing my room lol. and for the card and the cute animal pouch...

thank you meyling for leaving the slice of cheesecake outside of my door while i was out =)

thank you to everyone who dropped me a birthday wish whatsoever... thank you for remembering though most of the time i usually disappear cos im busy with other stuff. thank you =)

eh i don't have most of the photos but i'll post whatever i have first... =)

from xinyi =)

from meyling =)

yay crashing my room =)

yinwei and amanda

yinwei and kim

ooh whats this? scandalous. lol

alright that's all for now. cyaaa