time and tide waits for no man.
indeed. with just a blink of an eye its been a year.
many things have changed. many things are still in the process of changing. for the good or for the bad, only time can tell.
it's christmas already. supposed to be some really joyous day.
don't know. suddenly i don't feel much.
its been too much of a wild roller coaster ride this year.
up down up down. i'm physically mentally and emotionally very tired.
i no longer know how to feel.
hopefully everything will sort itself up.
especially engin. its starting to get me quite frustrated. the things that have been happening. hopefully a solution will be found soon. i'm getting very tired of just sitting and waiting for the news to come.
oh well. sigh. on a lighter note, was out with mw just now. its been awhile since i had such fun. arcade-ed after dinner. not really my kind of thing. but ended up pretty fun. shows that ive to improve on my shooting and counting skills. but ehhh my air hockey is not too bad lor. hurrr haha.
warlords was pretty good actually. just um kind of tragic the movie. but not bad la. engaging. haha =)
ahh sigh keep wondering how im going to get past next sem. results for this sem are coming out tmr. not that im very interested to know how well i did or anything. but yeah.
i don't wish to keep doing this. i don't see why i should. why should i be going through this when it isnt even my fault. i'm really tired of it. its not fair. not fair that my uni life is going to keep carrying on like this. i made a wrong choice to come here. i really feel like leaving. but im not sure if its the best thing to do right now. actually i don't know what i should do any longer. this is rubbish.
ahh sorry for the random outburst but yeah. if i had just one christmas wish. i'd wish that everything gets sorted out to what it should have been from the start. sigh.
enough rubbish from me. shall stop de-stressing here.
christmas is here. im just really thankful for the family and friends. for always being there for me no matter what. thank you and have a merry christmas.