perhaps i just need some space to breathe.
some time so sort out/clear out my thoughts.
i need to start taking control of my life.
i should be controlling my life.
not being controlled by it.
years later when i look back...
i'm going to think that all of this is not worth it.
when i think back.
i'm going to wonder why in the world i didnt study harder.
why i didnt realise that it was that important.
i keep telling people to look at the big picture.
think ahead.
but perhaps i'm the one who's still stuck here.
overloaded in the current fragmentation of time
holding on to things i shouldnt hold on to.
too immersed in the current happenings to move ahead.
years later i'll be laughing/crying over how stupid my current actions are.
i need guidiance. but no one truely understands everything thats going on.
i need some time out.
i feel more than ever that im walking this path alone.
i cant afford any more wrong decisions or lack of action.

steady hands just take the wheel.

steady feet don't fail me now.
gonna run till you can't walk...

sigh. they say you stay for the friends.
but what happens when you stay.
but your friends can't make it back.
feels like tj part two. when you finally decide to stay,
the people you're closest to you can't make it back.
and its sad that so many seniors are commanding or graduating.
next year's going to be so different.
so many new faces.
someone please stop the time.
let this moment with this group of people last a lifetime.

sometimes you just stop and wonder.
what's the point of all of this.

arggh. lousy lousy results for mle.
lousy math results as well.
no idea about the rest.
should be worse.
sad sad but i deserve it.
kim you need to wake up your idea before it's too late.

i must be the slowest person on earth.
i literally just realised that <3 is a heart shape.
always thought it meant either take 3, 3 times, or obviously to a person like me, larger than 3 =/ omg. haha. this is what too much engin does to you =(

boo. damn. sian.
im gg to short circuit from electrical engin soon =(
wonderful i'm gg to learn how to kill the circuit soon.
so so interesting. =x

bah. anyway managed to go down to vivo this week.
cos my family came over!
managed to get really nice nice stuff from esprit.
omg the green shirt. haha =D

yeah my little materialistic wants from river island:
- the orange tip dye scarf (raffia) orrr the yellow raffia scarf. the that looks like its part of a yellow shirt.
-the white front ring purse. i actually prefer the pink print one. but i don't think it's in singapore yet. =( why not since my wallet's um in quite a sad state already. haha.

ooh. and i want the citibank clear credit card. nice-ly done la. haha =p

haha how horrible. i'm supposed to be studying and i'm thinking of all these.
nevermind. i'll get them if i do well this sem =) (which probably means never. so its just wishful thinking)

ooh. open house today and tomorrow. eng wei's commisioning parade too. still unconfirmed whether i can make it down for it. and it's like um later today? hopefully i can. =x
but arggh. too busy.
that electrical test on monday =(
and ctw to rush out.

i feel very stretched. =(
this is so sad.
nevermind. three and a quarter more years of this only yeah.
survivable. i hope.
oh and i removed my braces today already. so fast. a year only. and to think i extractd 4 teeth somemore. yeah man i win =p
woots.
jiayou wor.

because i now realise, more than ever, that i never really knew you.

formal dinner and tgio just passed.

i don't know. its a really weird feeling.
sitting there. wondering. if i can live up to the captains.

wondering if im gg to be able to do better than what they've accomplished this year.

i guess. taking over as the kr bball capt last thursday was a nice and luckily not very publicised

event.

sudden feeling of uncertainty.

but it's okay. cos im sure everything's going to turn out great.
nothing short of the finals next year. we're gonna win it. =)

a team i can now call my own. because i believe in them. and they believed in me =) for kr.

very wordy blog.

some random shots.

my wormie and i

khai, wormie and i




































hall production

insung and i backstage at hall production

5th floor girls at night cycling



















d-blk at kr night cycling


















liesel and i during reading week

alrights. i guess that kind of sums up my past couple of mia weeks.
but hey ive been meeting more pple nowadays.
improvement already yeah.
though really super busy now.
lots of ctw. electrical engin exam's coming.
cm's having a mid mid term.
open house is here.
arggh and the workload from 6 core is really too much.
no wonder pple don't take it.
struggling.. far behind for all the modules.
no idea what im gg to do without xinyi there with me for the chem mods and labs.
hoongsoon for my double chem and math modules.
and cheegake's help with electrical lab.come on kim.
halfway through march already. wake up your idea.
you really need this this sem.
jiayou.

sigh. just had my first midterm yesterday. mle. material science enginering.
on a saturday morning. on my reading week. =( boo.
it's sunday morning already. ive barely moved there after.
sigh. stagnation. too many things going on at the same time.
im getting quite frustrated/irritated/flustered.
hur.
sigh. sunday monday tuesday im dead =(
ctw on monday and wednesday. sigh.
even worse, the 3 core midterms on tuesday.
8am to 9pm.
and i havent even started.
electrical engin on the 17th. and i havent been to any lecture before.
except the first lecture that i happily slept through.
i think i'm very screwed.
why do i feel so certain that i'm right? =(

anyway fundraising going on for the victims of the crane incident in nus.
http://www.cranevictimsfund.blogspot.com
least we can do i suppose. =/
cant believe i slept through the incident when i live so nearby.
but then again. even if i was awake, there's nothing i can do.
sigh. really hope their families are alright and coping well with the loss. =(
i should. stop. emo-ing. =(
kim is supposed to study. if not she's going to flunk three tests in a row in a day. HUR.
4.0 4.0 4.0... 4.0 is not going to come my way. im dead. fall back one sem. nooo. arggh.