these days,
i'm loving touch rug.
reliving bball.
accounts accounts and more accounts.
and going for lectures with people i know.
i'm happier. though i've already begun to fall behind in my studies,
think sleeping through lectures and stoning time away,
i just need more discipline and peserverence.
i can. i can do this. i can take charge of my own life.
thanks for believing in me.
thanks for all the help rendered.
i'm going to get through this.
and at the end of the day i'm going to be smiling.
cos i'd know that i got through the near impossible successfully.
i'm going to see that day. cos i believe. and i want it.

on a side note, if you happen to see this kor, jiayou all the way yeah =)

i've begun to dislike being alone.
it's weird how you still always come to mind at times when im alone and free enough to let my mind wander.
it's weird when i still occasionally read your blog or just browse through your profile.
things change. people change. people change so fast that it's scary.
i'm glad that i was right and that i never really knew you all that well at all.
i'm glad that i know that i've to move on.
i've got my own life to lead now.
i can't afford anymore slip ups.
i'm going to concentrate. i'm going to cope with everything.
i'm going to start opening up. i'm going to be more sociable.
i'm going to study hard. i'm going to make new friends.
i'm going to fulfill whatever i've set out to do. i'm going to be a focused little kid.
i'm going to make this semester work.
because believe is all that i have left.
i won't. i won't fall short.

whee it's 2008 already!
probably and hopefully that's a good thing.
hopefully things will finally work out as it should. lets pray that it does.
a little rare optimism does help doesnt it =)
perhaps the new year's a good thing. time to put some things behind, time to cherish some, time to look forward.

looking back, 2007 was... a pretty eventful year.

working at micron... was a pretty interesting experience. though it told me that electrical engin is definately not for me, the people i worked with there were amazing. yuan, ppb, chern xin, irni, daiyu, thank you =)

release of the a level results and uni application... the results were yeah not too bad though honestly a little bit disappointing cos i knew that i could have done better. the mistiming of the paper and reading the wrong question thing. bahh. im just glad to have proven to everyone that id still make it at the end of the day despite the cca overload that i had. for all my tutors who never gave up on me though i was probably the least of model students, thank you =) also, i realised more than ever that when they said follow your heart and do something you like in the uni, i think they were right. it's now probably the one thing i regret doing the most. ranking practicality above interest.

camps camps and more camps... from the first camp at loola, to my last jbac camp. oc, rocky, campha. i realised how much i had changed. starting off really lousily, disliking the rarh rarh concept to daring to do so much more as camp chief at the rocky side. the challenge of catering to all sorts of campers. and the feeling when you know that you made a difference to their lives, phenomenal =) it's all about the campers. to all the instructors, yanling, song xi, chun kin, si lin, eng wei, wei qi, ben and all, especially yinwei, my camp two, my best friend, thank you for always being there, welson who never once stopped encouraging me and xin yi, thank you for the experience of a lifetime =)

campha

oc

rocky

that operation... mentally and physically demanding and depressing. but through that i knew more than ever the people who would always be there for me =)

uni life... i don't think there's a lot more to say about it. adacemically wise well its been and will continue to be a struggle. the many problems faced are still oh so evident and hopfully itd be resolved soon.

some random frustrated in engin look in engin. haha i think it looks retarded.

i remember coming into kr tired unenthuasitic and fighting for fitness, less than a mth after the operation. luckily, the people i met here were nothing short of amazing. cheegake, whye kiat, khairul kor, jiani, insung, my block comm, huiling, wang zheng and all... what would i do without you guys? =)

touch ruggers.

d-blockers

glacius

and of course, not forgetting the oacians, my house comm, and ij pple esp jean rach kai dot cheryl carol rae hui and rae wen, nicole and all, thank you for always being there for me =) even the smallest words of encouragement, whether i reply to them or not, thank you because that's whats been keeping me going these past couple of months.

oh and those recent gloomy posts shouldnt continue. it's a brand new year. i'm starting a new. and i'm going to get it right this time =)

btw, if you don't fight for what you really want, you'll end up losing it.