i hate falling sick.
maybe its cos i usually dont.
so when it comes it usually hits me much harder.
boo.
i hate the on off fevers.
i hate the sleepless nights.
i hate the runny nose.
i hate everything.
such a lousy timing.
but im glad for the bf.
and the mogu who just came over to cook noodles with me.
so so many things due.
i feel so unproductive.
but i cant help it.

acid attack.
stomach's been acting up again recently.
the painful churning a bit like suan feeling.
not the very sharp pains which used to come along with it in the past.
but still its getting on my nerves.
anti acid pills are working only slightly these days.
and i don't really know what to do.
frustrating.

so so busy.
if only there could be more than 24 hours in a day.

hmm i guess it was kind of weird.
i was at a party today...
being my random high self doing and talking rubbish.
then someone just jokingly went orh hor later i tell your bf.
you know the usual thing. which doesnt matter to me cos i mean like of cos the dear bf already knows how high and rubbished i usually am.
what struck me more was the reaction someone had.
like someone who didnt know me before until the party itself.
she immediately turned and just asked a mutual friend.. oh she's attached?

i dunno but i guess it just got stuck replaying in my head a couple of times.
probably its me being quite sensitive to it.
but i guess i just sensed the huh shes attached and she's still so open and everything kind of feeling.
kind of just got me thinking again... what people's perception of attached people should be.
i know some people think that you be more conservative, more like okie must keep a distance from all other guys, quieten down, be more demure and all.
but somehow i still don't believe in that.

i believe being in a relationship shouldnt restrict you from being the person you are.
i believe that there is no need to quieten down yourself.
i believe that you don't need to keep that much of a distance from your guy friends.
i believe that you should have the same freedom that you had before getting attached.
as long as you are clear with yourself.
and as long as you know your limits well.
i think it is fine.
i trust him wholeheartedly.
and i can only hope that he will trust me wholeheartedly back.
i choose to believe that he will.

i believe that abeit all other contributing factors, a good relationship is one that is based on mutual trust, mutual respect, mutual understanding.
i'm that little bit more confident this sem.
that little bit more consistant in my work.
that little bit more clear of what i want to achieve in life.
because i know that no matter what decision i make, no matter what i do,
there's that someone who's always behind me, supporting me all the way.
like what i always believed, a good relationship shld be one that leaves you as a more confident individual, rather then someone who's much more quietened down cos half the time you're wondering oh no if i do or say this and if my bf finds out whats he gonna think.
mutual trust gives you freedom independance and confidence.
this is partly (out of the manyyy manyyyy reasons) why i love him so. =)

haha yesterday i missed him
today he's here with me!
must be some sort of telepathy
i'm all smiles. hahahaha! =D

sitting in my room alone,
staring at my lousy notes.
suddenly i miss this person more than ever.
i've no idea why.
even though i just saw him for lunch earlier.
bah help =(














the photo that never fails to make me smile.

i'm supposed to be studying.
butttt i miss you! =(
bahhhh...

whoots. finally tried out sushi teh at ngee ann city.
rocks. love it. haha =)
and marley and me is such a good show.
cant wait to watch he's just not that into you. wahaha.
jennifer aniston is so so hot. haha =p

pretty parcel moving mechanism haha =)

our after-movie sinful indulgence

that person who never fails to always be there for me =)

pretty decor! =)

his hot chocolate which tasted so so good. the rose extract. omggg. haha =D

my drink me cold espresso dunno what thingy that sounded super awesome and cool. haha rocks.

the chocolate cake. which was literally chocolate. with the ice cream and nice choco bits.

anddddd super nice fruits with that melted chocolate sauce. omggg -drools- =p

the very happy girl. haha =p

it's another new month.

which means.

i'm walking into yet another month with you.

couldnt ask for anything better.

its gonna be a very difficult month ahead though.

but i've got you here with me.

and i'm sure we'll get past this together.
much love =)

haha i realised im becoming more open with this.

and im guessing its a good thing =)

haha and oh yeah.

i'm still quite impressed.

earlier today... i was about to make a run to cityhall mrt from a bus stop in the heavy rain though i didnt have an umbrella cos i wanted to meet baby that little bit earlier when...

haha someone called me from behind just as i was about to make a dash for it to share her umbrella with her.

omggg such a nice person.

something that has become quite nan de in singapore.

i'm so impressed =)

haha alrights i shldddd study before froggie's 21st later! =D

excited.