haha meet thunder and lightning =)
happy first and many many more to come!
cos you'll always be my thunder =)
Monday, January 26, 2009
haha yet another new year with you! haha =)
haha okie i'm being retarded. but i'm happy =) hahaha...
anddd xin nian kuai le everyone! =)
haha so many things coming up within such a short period of time. so scary.
i really don't know how i'm gonna handle it all =(
first basketball match coming up real soon too.
im scared. im worried. im frightened.
but i cannot be.
it's been a long tiring and draining journey.
i'm so drained, mentally and emotionally tired that
part of me is so so relieved that i'll FINALLY be handing over captaincy soon.
another part of me wants it to last awhile more. cos i believe we can make this happen.
and i know that i cannot possibly give up right at the end.
i really need to pull myself back together.
just for this last leg of the race.
come on.
giving up and letting go is not an option.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
Friday, January 09, 2009
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
hahaha it's been awhile. many gatherings the past few days.
shall let the pictures do the talking.
5th floor outing to minds cafe and clarke quay =)
we loveeee kr d blk 5th floor =)
been spending a lil more time at home these days as well.
midnight mass at st andrews cathedral was pretty insightful. =)
midnight mass at st andrews cathedral was pretty insightful. =)
chrismas-es should be like that. haha not stuck alone in hall. =x
yay! the pretty looking logcake at home on xmas =)
dropped by the oac christmas party as well.
loved the talks and the many different insights and opinions into all the different things like marriage and all. =)
haha only that gew and blackie had to leave the dinner halfway to catch their bus to go climb their mountain in malaysia. =x
but still, it was great fun =)
but still, it was great fun =)
haha yay the 4/2 white christmas at carol's.
pretty nice to see many familiar faces and hahaha all those memories of those little things which used to happen back in secondary schoool. hahaha rocks. =)
and i love carol's =D
and yes, haha that's a crocodile pinata filled with candies. haha how cute is that =p
out to see the singapore flyer and caught a glimspe of the marina barrage with my family before meeting rae weennnnn! haha =D
haha omg our pretty white and silver star-red 2009 diaries from prints.
ex but haha omg so pretty. couldnt help it.
hahahaha! and we bought it as christmas presents for each other too.
hahaha we in we paid for each other's diaries and wished each other merry christmas on the spot.
hahahahahahhaa the sales person seriously had the omg im trying to control myself from bursting into laughter look. LOL. i think she's seriously amused by us. lol.
hahahaha and there we went again buying the same hairband together.
and some other secret stuff too. hahahahaha...
remember buying the same shirt together with rae hui before a couple of christmas-ses ago too.
our last minute white christmas tee buy =)
and a year later pple still ask us where we bought it from hahaha rocks.
haha its no wonder why i miss them when they go overseas.
love the crazy things we do together haha =)
and of course, more importantly, it's.... jean's birthday!
haha hope you had a blast of a birthday =)
oh yes! and haha i passed my basic theory test yesterday too!
haha finally decided to take it after so long.
haha and i had a nice food trail cum shopping session with yuan too! =D
niceee ice cream from shaw towers.
more meetups to come.
too many pple i havent met since like i entered jc or uni.
trying my best to meet all the many many pple i've lost most contact with cos i'm always too busy to be around =(
oh well more trainings to come too...
oh well more trainings to come too...
jiayou ba. =)
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
i miss my neighbours =(
5th floor is a ghost floor.
hur. but haha oh well theres some church camp going on here suddenly.
kinda awkard when they're like omg are you the girl in the lift?
then it gets even more awkard when they ask you that IN the lift itself,
while pointing at that poster =(
omggg. haha sigh oh well.
holidays so equals trainings and more extra stuff.
holidays shouldn't be called holidays =(
5th floor is a ghost floor.
hur. but haha oh well theres some church camp going on here suddenly.
kinda awkard when they're like omg are you the girl in the lift?
then it gets even more awkard when they ask you that IN the lift itself,
while pointing at that poster =(
omggg. haha sigh oh well.
holidays so equals trainings and more extra stuff.
holidays shouldn't be called holidays =(
Sunday, December 14, 2008
alrights its been awhile.
exams are over. and i actually feel relieved.
for the first time since i've stepped into nus.
maybe cos i actually tried to put in a little effort into my academics for once this semester.
just that perhaps spreading it across 6 modules again isnt a very good thing.
but i'm sure it'd be better than last semester. then again. nothing can beat last semester. =(
korea was great. learnt a lot about the history of korea.
always had a thing for listening to stories of the histories of foreign countries. haha =)
met up with so much snow it's scary. snowed non stop for like 5 out of my 7 days there.
even on the tropical island. so much so the locals came out to take a look at it for themselves cos its THAT rare. how lucky.
skiing is my new found sport. rocks. =)
and i'm officially immune to heights. like completely overcome the fear.
though i'd still whine a little here and there. but yup. no more of that heart dropping feeling of freefall. even when bungee-ing. so yups. i guess im over that =)
shall update about korea again another time when i'm a little free-er.
i'm so definitely going back there again =)
first training after the exams was pretty alright i guess. basics, pt. good. i like my team =)
alumni day was... interesting. really do love touch. but my handball is... rarh just put it that i need a lot a lot of training. and i really need to restart running more. ihg is coming =( and so is christmas LOL =p
oh well sigh. just sent in my sep application this afternoon. now typing out my rough timeline for ese camp. while watching grey's anatomy while thinking about tmr's training. and whether src'd have courts. its never gonna stop is it? hoildays. =(
exams are over. and i actually feel relieved.
for the first time since i've stepped into nus.
maybe cos i actually tried to put in a little effort into my academics for once this semester.
just that perhaps spreading it across 6 modules again isnt a very good thing.
but i'm sure it'd be better than last semester. then again. nothing can beat last semester. =(
korea was great. learnt a lot about the history of korea.
always had a thing for listening to stories of the histories of foreign countries. haha =)
met up with so much snow it's scary. snowed non stop for like 5 out of my 7 days there.
even on the tropical island. so much so the locals came out to take a look at it for themselves cos its THAT rare. how lucky.
skiing is my new found sport. rocks. =)
and i'm officially immune to heights. like completely overcome the fear.
though i'd still whine a little here and there. but yup. no more of that heart dropping feeling of freefall. even when bungee-ing. so yups. i guess im over that =)
shall update about korea again another time when i'm a little free-er.
i'm so definitely going back there again =)
first training after the exams was pretty alright i guess. basics, pt. good. i like my team =)
alumni day was... interesting. really do love touch. but my handball is... rarh just put it that i need a lot a lot of training. and i really need to restart running more. ihg is coming =( and so is christmas LOL =p
oh well sigh. just sent in my sep application this afternoon. now typing out my rough timeline for ese camp. while watching grey's anatomy while thinking about tmr's training. and whether src'd have courts. its never gonna stop is it? hoildays. =(
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
HAHAHA...
i SO SO have to say this.
OMG IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF
I FINISHED THE BIOCHEM SYLLABUS.
like the WHOLE THING.
hahahahahahaa...
and i started studying proper at like 1030pm.
omggg...
managed to finish carbohydrates,
and tagged my textbooks and notes going through the entire syllabus.
super proud of myself. 6 hours straight.
okie with a little bit of geocities. but it was minimal.
hahahaha omggg...
so i CAN be self disciplined afterall should the need arise. =)
haha okie good. now i don't feel THAT underprepared for biochem.
relieved.
at least i know i tried. =)
yayyy... last paper! lets go! =)
jiayou to everyone else still studying! =)
i SO SO have to say this.
OMG IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF
I FINISHED THE BIOCHEM SYLLABUS.
like the WHOLE THING.
hahahahahahaa...
and i started studying proper at like 1030pm.
omggg...
managed to finish carbohydrates,
and tagged my textbooks and notes going through the entire syllabus.
super proud of myself. 6 hours straight.
okie with a little bit of geocities. but it was minimal.
hahahaha omggg...
so i CAN be self disciplined afterall should the need arise. =)
haha okie good. now i don't feel THAT underprepared for biochem.
relieved.
at least i know i tried. =)
yayyy... last paper! lets go! =)
jiayou to everyone else still studying! =)
Monday, December 01, 2008
omggg...
so much for managing to cover the statics and mechanics syllabus in time.
suddenly realised it's super late already.
and i've yet to cover what i need to cover.
as in trying out of questions.
omggg...
and my lsmmm. im seriously not gonna touch it until like what a few hrs before the paper?
omggg...
i suddenly feel... quite stressed.
but the only stress i'm seeing now is...
normal stress
shear stress
engineering stress.
die. =(
jiayou. i so cannot afford to flop this module. hur.
so much for managing to cover the statics and mechanics syllabus in time.
suddenly realised it's super late already.
and i've yet to cover what i need to cover.
as in trying out of questions.
omggg...
and my lsmmm. im seriously not gonna touch it until like what a few hrs before the paper?
omggg...
i suddenly feel... quite stressed.
but the only stress i'm seeing now is...
normal stress
shear stress
engineering stress.
die. =(
jiayou. i so cannot afford to flop this module. hur.
Friday, November 28, 2008
the greatest human power is our power to be weak.
true. but how we go about utilising this power is still our own choice.
you decide.
whether you're going to let things take control of you.
or whether you're going to step up and take control of things.
the choice is yours.
to give up or not to give up.
the choice is yours.
so near yet so far.
what's your choice gonna be?
i think im getting quite out of focus again.
too much procrastination.
here. there. everywhere.
espcially when i'm already studying so last minute for my modules.
i need start reframing my state of mind soon.
tired. very tired. but i cannot...
cannot give up on my last two modules once tmr's paper is over.
i cannot repeat last semester again.
i must never crash and burn by giving up ever again.
i will not be weak.
if i can't. then i MUST.
jiayou. =)
haha i'm a very happy girl today! haha =)
so much for being so sad after the ppr cos subway ran out of cookies... haha...
janice and xiuqi bought me the double choc chip cookies =)
jiaying brought us pizza.
weikit and mel brought us mudpies.
oliver's going around with the guitar.
and i just had two bubble teas too.
haha just when you're sad and super sian diao-ed that right after a genetic engineering paper...
you have a paper on... uh. the history of singapore and south east asia.
evolution of a global city state,
people come around making your day.
much love =)
alrights. time to haha start on my history module. though its already haha a little late. lol =)
so much for being so sad after the ppr cos subway ran out of cookies... haha...
janice and xiuqi bought me the double choc chip cookies =)
jiaying brought us pizza.
weikit and mel brought us mudpies.
oliver's going around with the guitar.
and i just had two bubble teas too.
haha just when you're sad and super sian diao-ed that right after a genetic engineering paper...
you have a paper on... uh. the history of singapore and south east asia.
evolution of a global city state,
people come around making your day.
much love =)
alrights. time to haha start on my history module. though its already haha a little late. lol =)
Thursday, November 27, 2008
worried.
worried.
very worried for this module.
i really wonder if what i'm doing now is enough to make up for my midterm flop. =(
i really hope so.
lord please guide me.
100 questions. i can/must be able to do this.
sigh.
oh well. dinnered in engin with shileng today after his fluid mech paper. =)
talking about biathlons,
suddenly realised i havent done one since... january?
and i havent done a triathlon since... forever. omg.
kinda miss the endurance feel of the sport.
should do one soon.
still kinda sad that i'd be missing standard charted. but oh well. family's more important yeah.
random thought: shall try running at 13km/hr flat the next time i use the threadmill since i realised that i can maintain at 12.5 without much problems. =)
good trainings. the faster... the better. the greater the sense of fulfilment. =)
though a little worrying for the op-ed leg ehs. hmm...
haha okie i should so be trying to salvage my tmr's ppr by like studying.
still feeling a little worried that it's not enough =(
oh well. happy picture for the day:
rainbow spotted outside my window the other day! =)
something that shileng told me the other day...
it's a reminder that if you wanna embrace the rainbow,
you must first embrace the rain.
how very true.
alrights. so it's back to mugging and hoping for the best =)
jiayous everyone =)
btw omg this is so good for dna microarrays. super simplified. i declare it idiot proof =)
http://www.bio.davidson.edu/Courses/genomics/chip/chip.html
love it.
worried.
very worried for this module.
i really wonder if what i'm doing now is enough to make up for my midterm flop. =(
i really hope so.
lord please guide me.
100 questions. i can/must be able to do this.
sigh.
oh well. dinnered in engin with shileng today after his fluid mech paper. =)
talking about biathlons,
suddenly realised i havent done one since... january?
and i havent done a triathlon since... forever. omg.
kinda miss the endurance feel of the sport.
should do one soon.
still kinda sad that i'd be missing standard charted. but oh well. family's more important yeah.
random thought: shall try running at 13km/hr flat the next time i use the threadmill since i realised that i can maintain at 12.5 without much problems. =)
good trainings. the faster... the better. the greater the sense of fulfilment. =)
though a little worrying for the op-ed leg ehs. hmm...
haha okie i should so be trying to salvage my tmr's ppr by like studying.
still feeling a little worried that it's not enough =(
oh well. happy picture for the day:
rainbow spotted outside my window the other day! =)
something that shileng told me the other day...
it's a reminder that if you wanna embrace the rainbow,
you must first embrace the rain.
how very true.
alrights. so it's back to mugging and hoping for the best =)
jiayous everyone =)
btw omg this is so good for dna microarrays. super simplified. i declare it idiot proof =)
http://www.bio.davidson.edu/Courses/genomics/chip/chip.html
love it.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
disappointed.
i really felt that the ce2407 ppr wasn't THAT bad.
or at least it wasnt as evily crafted out as i expected it to be.
judging from the un-do-able assignments each time.
but really very disappointed.
euler's method. the only method i didnt really bother to comprehend properly.
cos there are so many methods.
it already came out too many times before.
sigh. there goes 25marks in a question.
probability... a little uncertainty here and there.
i can live with that.
BUT. goodjob. i super ran out of time.
and i ran out of time for the only part that's supposed to confirm you marks.
CONFIDENCE INTERVAL TESTING. thats like how STANDARD CAN.
as in yeah there are a lot of tests to choose from. but once you get hold of the right test for the situation... you can't really go wrong after that what.
im so irritated. cos i also knew which test to use. sigh.
and im very irritated with myself. kept copying the wrong numbers. too tired liao i think.
but it really happened a lot a lot of times.
and the recalculation resulting from that is really very tedious and time consuming.
sigh. nevermind. just ranting it out. feeling... disturbed by it. =(
but oh well. its over. time to move on. 4 more papers. thurs fri mon tues. super heavy. and i really cannot afford to flop another semester.... after what happened last semester.
you know till now... i really still have problems sleeping at night during the exam periods even though i'm so tired. cos i still cant get over how everything went so wrong last sem. scared. =(
arggh. nvm nvm. happy thoughts for now. shall go sleep a little before going off to study. =)
i really felt that the ce2407 ppr wasn't THAT bad.
or at least it wasnt as evily crafted out as i expected it to be.
judging from the un-do-able assignments each time.
but really very disappointed.
euler's method. the only method i didnt really bother to comprehend properly.
cos there are so many methods.
it already came out too many times before.
sigh. there goes 25marks in a question.
probability... a little uncertainty here and there.
i can live with that.
BUT. goodjob. i super ran out of time.
and i ran out of time for the only part that's supposed to confirm you marks.
CONFIDENCE INTERVAL TESTING. thats like how STANDARD CAN.
as in yeah there are a lot of tests to choose from. but once you get hold of the right test for the situation... you can't really go wrong after that what.
im so irritated. cos i also knew which test to use. sigh.
and im very irritated with myself. kept copying the wrong numbers. too tired liao i think.
but it really happened a lot a lot of times.
and the recalculation resulting from that is really very tedious and time consuming.
sigh. nevermind. just ranting it out. feeling... disturbed by it. =(
but oh well. its over. time to move on. 4 more papers. thurs fri mon tues. super heavy. and i really cannot afford to flop another semester.... after what happened last semester.
you know till now... i really still have problems sleeping at night during the exam periods even though i'm so tired. cos i still cant get over how everything went so wrong last sem. scared. =(
arggh. nvm nvm. happy thoughts for now. shall go sleep a little before going off to study. =)
Monday, November 24, 2008
boo. im super bored in engin...
hiding in my cosy little corner near lt1.
i love engin. and here in engin. all i hear are sounds of engines.
whoots. =) rocks.
my ese pple have all left to go do their hydraulics paper.
i will do it soon too =x
unproductive day. unproductive weekend.
lousy saturday paper.
and my second paper's tmr. good job kim. =(
i need i need... to focus. but somehow i cant seem to do so. =(
sigh oh well. 9am kim 9am. tmr. then its thurs fri mon tues and im done.
focus on your outcome! comeon!
oh well. anyway hahahaha shilenggg came to find me in engin just a short while agooo =)
all the way from the mpsh to engin! =)
after his thermody paper... yay =) its worth it to come to engin early to attempt to mug after all ehs? =) haha. kidding kidding. haha i love engin =)
hahaha okie this is probably too small to be seen.
but i think ivle for the year twos went mad yesterday.
they added ma1506 into our module list.
haha omg IM A SEVEN MODD-ER.
HOW PRO IS THAT! HAHAHAHA =)
haha crazy. thats suicidal. 7 in a sem. thats not even allowed.
hahaha okie i think i'm too stressed. cant seem to sleep at night these days.
even though im so so tired.
buttt i can still sleep throughout the day -_-
GG. and i cant screw my bioclock this sem if not i confirm GG.
too many morning papers.
okieeee im gonna start studying. if not i really won't be back from engin by even 10pm tonight =(
jiayous. =)
hiding in my cosy little corner near lt1.
i love engin. and here in engin. all i hear are sounds of engines.
whoots. =) rocks.
my ese pple have all left to go do their hydraulics paper.
i will do it soon too =x
unproductive day. unproductive weekend.
lousy saturday paper.
and my second paper's tmr. good job kim. =(
i need i need... to focus. but somehow i cant seem to do so. =(
sigh oh well. 9am kim 9am. tmr. then its thurs fri mon tues and im done.
focus on your outcome! comeon!
oh well. anyway hahahaha shilenggg came to find me in engin just a short while agooo =)
all the way from the mpsh to engin! =)
after his thermody paper... yay =) its worth it to come to engin early to attempt to mug after all ehs? =) haha. kidding kidding. haha i love engin =)
hahaha okie this is probably too small to be seen.
but i think ivle for the year twos went mad yesterday.
they added ma1506 into our module list.
haha omg IM A SEVEN MODD-ER.
HOW PRO IS THAT! HAHAHAHA =)
haha crazy. thats suicidal. 7 in a sem. thats not even allowed.
hahaha okie i think i'm too stressed. cant seem to sleep at night these days.
even though im so so tired.
buttt i can still sleep throughout the day -_-
GG. and i cant screw my bioclock this sem if not i confirm GG.
too many morning papers.
okieeee im gonna start studying. if not i really won't be back from engin by even 10pm tonight =(
jiayous. =)
Friday, November 21, 2008
i think i'm really very stressed.
keep sleeping.
feeling super irritatable.
super irritated.
i think my body's gonna start rejecting me again.
getting the chest feels compressed hurting whenever i breathe feeling again.
sigh. all one day before my paper. =(
im screwed. and now i cant finish in time.
arggh.
and i'm running weird thoughts to treat myself to all the backlog of ss webcasts to "destress".
omg whats wrong with me =(
on the bright side. i dreamt of you today.
maybe it's cos we've been talking a lot more these couple of days.
but at least it makes things feel a lot better. =)
keep sleeping.
feeling super irritatable.
super irritated.
i think my body's gonna start rejecting me again.
getting the chest feels compressed hurting whenever i breathe feeling again.
sigh. all one day before my paper. =(
im screwed. and now i cant finish in time.
arggh.
and i'm running weird thoughts to treat myself to all the backlog of ss webcasts to "destress".
omg whats wrong with me =(
on the bright side. i dreamt of you today.
maybe it's cos we've been talking a lot more these couple of days.
but at least it makes things feel a lot better. =)
Thursday, November 20, 2008
someone asked me an interesting question the other day.
if you were given a chance to take up an overseas scholarship and restart everything again... would you? that kind of got me thinking a little.
would you? i most definately would. super super regret my year one. if i could start from a clean sheat, even if it means restarting from year one, and wasting two years. i really would. hur. haha but thats not the most interesting part. the most interesting part is that even after everything that i went through... i would choose to study engineering again. and the funniest part is that my hunch is that i'd choose to study environmental science engineering as well. just that i'd choose it right from the start this time round.
guess i've learnt to like engin. just that i really do need more time. time to go for my lectures. time to go for my tutorials. time to go for my labs. time to actually do my homework and assignments. time to study and figure out what's going on. it really is quite interesting afterall.
oh well. but time remains as a priviledge. i really do need to learn how to handle my time much better.
at least this sem i've learnt how to say no. no to taking up too many positions. though what i have with me is still quite a lot. but at least it's still possibly managable. one step at a time. i'm gonna get things right.
still way too slow in my studying this recess week. it's almost over. and i'm starting my first paper this saturday. still no where near done. very worried. too much at risk this sem. but somehow it still feels better than last sem. not good. not great. but still better. that's the only thing that's conforting me right now.
and i really do think i'm weird. i feel more at ease with my year two rather than year one modules. i'm weird. oh well. realised gymming is really good for stress relief. still can maintain at 12km/hr even at the third round of running. and i don't find it that tiring. guess thats gonna be a good thing for me. hopefully it keeps up.
alrights. time to sleep. shall go to my new found optimal mugging area that i found today.
guess where guess where?
engineering. muahaha.
yes i love engin so.
can't you feel the need to mug?
i love the mugging/stressful aura.
whoots.
i repeat. i'm weird.
okay maybe im just really too... tired. haha =x
if you were given a chance to take up an overseas scholarship and restart everything again... would you? that kind of got me thinking a little.
would you? i most definately would. super super regret my year one. if i could start from a clean sheat, even if it means restarting from year one, and wasting two years. i really would. hur. haha but thats not the most interesting part. the most interesting part is that even after everything that i went through... i would choose to study engineering again. and the funniest part is that my hunch is that i'd choose to study environmental science engineering as well. just that i'd choose it right from the start this time round.
guess i've learnt to like engin. just that i really do need more time. time to go for my lectures. time to go for my tutorials. time to go for my labs. time to actually do my homework and assignments. time to study and figure out what's going on. it really is quite interesting afterall.
oh well. but time remains as a priviledge. i really do need to learn how to handle my time much better.
at least this sem i've learnt how to say no. no to taking up too many positions. though what i have with me is still quite a lot. but at least it's still possibly managable. one step at a time. i'm gonna get things right.
still way too slow in my studying this recess week. it's almost over. and i'm starting my first paper this saturday. still no where near done. very worried. too much at risk this sem. but somehow it still feels better than last sem. not good. not great. but still better. that's the only thing that's conforting me right now.
and i really do think i'm weird. i feel more at ease with my year two rather than year one modules. i'm weird. oh well. realised gymming is really good for stress relief. still can maintain at 12km/hr even at the third round of running. and i don't find it that tiring. guess thats gonna be a good thing for me. hopefully it keeps up.
alrights. time to sleep. shall go to my new found optimal mugging area that i found today.
guess where guess where?
engineering. muahaha.
yes i love engin so.
can't you feel the need to mug?
i love the mugging/stressful aura.
whoots.
i repeat. i'm weird.
okay maybe im just really too... tired. haha =x
Monday, November 17, 2008
was waiting at the arrival terminal together with rachel for jean's homecoming...
when i saw this cute pretty little girl being carried by her dad.
then she hugged her dad and told him... " i love you daddy"
OMG. so cute. so sweet. when was the last time you told your mum and dad the same thing?
just a random thought.
anyway i realised. im slowly beginning to like engineering actually.
i mean like yeah its difficult and challenging. but seriously if you've enough time to sit there and figure things out... it's really quite fun and interesting. i just need to be more disciplined. and of course, find a little more time.
studying for the finals is going wayyy too slow. not good. =( sleeping too much, moving too slowly. too distracted. arggh. nono. too much at risk again this sem. i really really cannot afford to flop as much as last semester again. it's scary. =(
which reminds me. whyyyy am i blogging now when i should be studying and making up for the many many wasted hours?
rarh. oh the distractions again. discipline kim. discipline is the key.
when i saw this cute pretty little girl being carried by her dad.
then she hugged her dad and told him... " i love you daddy"
OMG. so cute. so sweet. when was the last time you told your mum and dad the same thing?
just a random thought.
anyway i realised. im slowly beginning to like engineering actually.
i mean like yeah its difficult and challenging. but seriously if you've enough time to sit there and figure things out... it's really quite fun and interesting. i just need to be more disciplined. and of course, find a little more time.
studying for the finals is going wayyy too slow. not good. =( sleeping too much, moving too slowly. too distracted. arggh. nono. too much at risk again this sem. i really really cannot afford to flop as much as last semester again. it's scary. =(
which reminds me. whyyyy am i blogging now when i should be studying and making up for the many many wasted hours?
rarh. oh the distractions again. discipline kim. discipline is the key.
Monday, November 10, 2008
becauseeee this msg came in earlier today made me smileeee over and over again =)
his rarh is cute hahaha =)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL LEE =)
come back quick! =D
his rarh is cute hahaha =)
and my amigo-ish tortoise is cute too! =)
i'm being oh so random yet again hahas.
ahaha and since it has crossed into monday,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL LEE =)
come back quick! =D
hahaha alrights back to work.
updateee another time.
so so need to study for the 6 papers =(
jiayous. =)
ps: obama rocks haha =)
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
because im being so emo these days.
i just did a personality test.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
find it really true for me though.
rarh. judge for yourself.
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
alrights. thats for now. i should really start studying for the finals. sigh.
i just did a personality test.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
find it really true for me though.
rarh. judge for yourself.
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
alrights. thats for now. i should really start studying for the finals. sigh.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
sigh. im not even a third through for thursday's test.
random photos from the captains photoshoot to haha brighten the day.
kim tries to act fierce 2. flop.
i think my dark photos are the worst. =x
alrights. enough entertainment for the day.
rarh at engin uncertainty and analysis.
actually it isnt that bad of a module i realised.
i just need a little time to figure out the details here and there.
packed packed week. filled to the brim. sigh.
boring wordy blog.
kim is random.
random photos from the captains photoshoot to haha brighten the day.
still quite amused by them. looks.... er. haha. yeah.
kim tries to act fierce 1. fail.
kim tries to act fierce 2. flop.
kim tries to act fierce 3. super flop.
haha omg. and they're using the third photo.
still think the second one looks haha the cutest.
at least the first one looked quite dao right.
the third is just. ummm... HAHA. no comments.
i think my dark photos are the worst. =x
wonder how weird my video's gonna look.
sebest says its one of the more zai looking ones.
ahahaha but i still think i looked super ultimately retarded when i did it. =x
rarh.
alrights. enough entertainment for the day.
hope my flop-pish looks brought a smile to your faces =D
hahahahaha... back to engin math! whoots =)
Saturday, October 25, 2008
omg. that chest feels very compressed, hurts when i breathe, feel like puking feeling is back.
i think my body's rejecting me again =(
and my statics and mechanics test is in less than 3 hours time.
i cant sleep and i cant study.
its horrible being stuck in the middle.
feel like throwing up but i cant.
omg help. =(
i think my body's rejecting me again =(
and my statics and mechanics test is in less than 3 hours time.
i cant sleep and i cant study.
its horrible being stuck in the middle.
feel like throwing up but i cant.
omg help. =(
Sunday, October 12, 2008
behold my engineering inspiration... wahahaha
http://www.ted.com/index.php/talks/theo_jansen_creates_new_creatures.html
engineering can do wonders =)
http://www.ted.com/index.php/talks/theo_jansen_creates_new_creatures.html
engineering can do wonders =)
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
central library-ed today.
bought my first cash card
used the photocopier there for the first time.
haha omggg it's so fun. =)
where have i been for the last academic year.
if only i knew abt this earlier. then i'd have mugged in my year one.
rbr books are cool. haha.
haha im such a cheap thrill-er. =p
sigh the s/u thing's stuck in my mind.
no idea if its possible to request/beg them to let me s/u my last semester's modules now.
its a little more than a LITTLE late.
but sigh it really makes a super huge difference to my cap.
should probably give it a try. if not i'd be regretting this for a long time to come. not that i don't already regret not having been around to check my s/u options last sem cos i was in camp. =(
anyway i was randomly typing your blog address after reading someone's msn nick about remembering how things were last year. then i realised its no longer in the long long list of last visited websites. then i stopped typing. i realised. i've moved on. a long time ago. especially after the start of this new academic year. i've completely moved on. definately. lucky me. i hope you have too =)
bought my first cash card
used the photocopier there for the first time.
haha omggg it's so fun. =)
where have i been for the last academic year.
if only i knew abt this earlier. then i'd have mugged in my year one.
rbr books are cool. haha.
haha im such a cheap thrill-er. =p
sigh the s/u thing's stuck in my mind.
no idea if its possible to request/beg them to let me s/u my last semester's modules now.
its a little more than a LITTLE late.
but sigh it really makes a super huge difference to my cap.
should probably give it a try. if not i'd be regretting this for a long time to come. not that i don't already regret not having been around to check my s/u options last sem cos i was in camp. =(
anyway i was randomly typing your blog address after reading someone's msn nick about remembering how things were last year. then i realised its no longer in the long long list of last visited websites. then i stopped typing. i realised. i've moved on. a long time ago. especially after the start of this new academic year. i've completely moved on. definately. lucky me. i hope you have too =)
Thursday, September 25, 2008
hey hey...
held my first bball trials on my own today.
for the first time as a captain after so many years.
was initially really worried. cos i haven't been playing bball for quite a long time.
but i'm super super glad and relieved that everything went smoothly.
with the exception of my four corners. which i'll figure out what why it didnt work out that well later on. =p
was a pretty fun fun session in the end.
though i realised something about myself.
i realised that i'll always pull away from the game, coming in only when needed.
and purposely taking some difficult passes and allowing leeways for steals, rebounds and attacks most of the time during a match to see how my players react to the situation and how they handle it. ibg ifg and trials. better not make it a habit that i'd bring along with me for ihg.
good for now. but not in the future.
and yes la my accuracy is still there =) but not that consistant anymore.
definately must train on my courtwork too.
and do my homework about tactical skills and technical skills.
shall restart playing bball soon =)
oh well...
at least this trials definately met my objectives of making sure that they enjoyed the trials thoroughly while picking out my players and testing the strengths of the different players.
super happy seeing how much they enjoyed the sport...
mission accomplished.
more trials and ihg? bring it on.
*bball whoosh!* =)
held my first bball trials on my own today.
for the first time as a captain after so many years.
was initially really worried. cos i haven't been playing bball for quite a long time.
but i'm super super glad and relieved that everything went smoothly.
with the exception of my four corners. which i'll figure out what why it didnt work out that well later on. =p
was a pretty fun fun session in the end.
though i realised something about myself.
i realised that i'll always pull away from the game, coming in only when needed.
and purposely taking some difficult passes and allowing leeways for steals, rebounds and attacks most of the time during a match to see how my players react to the situation and how they handle it. ibg ifg and trials. better not make it a habit that i'd bring along with me for ihg.
good for now. but not in the future.
and yes la my accuracy is still there =) but not that consistant anymore.
definately must train on my courtwork too.
and do my homework about tactical skills and technical skills.
shall restart playing bball soon =)
oh well...
at least this trials definately met my objectives of making sure that they enjoyed the trials thoroughly while picking out my players and testing the strengths of the different players.
super happy seeing how much they enjoyed the sport...
mission accomplished.
more trials and ihg? bring it on.
*bball whoosh!* =)
Thursday, September 18, 2008
too fast. everything's moving too fast.
i hate it when everything spirals out of control.
i hate it when i start letting my own life lead me, instead of me leading my own life.
i hate it. because i know that i'd end up spending a long long time struggling to make up for these mistakes thereafter.
i just need a little space to breathe.
but i know i'm going to get past this week.
because you're all by my side supporting me each step of the way.
thank you =)
what if... what if i realise that someone like you is impossible to find.
i hate it when everything spirals out of control.
i hate it when i start letting my own life lead me, instead of me leading my own life.
i hate it. because i know that i'd end up spending a long long time struggling to make up for these mistakes thereafter.
i just need a little space to breathe.
but i know i'm going to get past this week.
because you're all by my side supporting me each step of the way.
thank you =)
what if... what if i realise that someone like you is impossible to find.
Friday, September 05, 2008
Sunday, August 10, 2008
never been prouder to be a blue. =)
the performance kent ridge gave.
nothing short of a display of the kent ridge-ian unity.
the outcome, an icing on the cake for the raggers, flaggers and fwocers who have put in so much blood and sweat throughout the three months to make this possible.
when you see the freshies and seniors alike, all huddled together in anticipation for the results.
for something we all believed in.
yes, we can safely say that we are one. one KRhome.
and yes, the shield's back home. =)
chingay here we come.
the performance kent ridge gave.
nothing short of a display of the kent ridge-ian unity.
the outcome, an icing on the cake for the raggers, flaggers and fwocers who have put in so much blood and sweat throughout the three months to make this possible.
when you see the freshies and seniors alike, all huddled together in anticipation for the results.
for something we all believed in.
yes, we can safely say that we are one. one KRhome.
and yes, the shield's back home. =)
chingay here we come.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
haha oh yes. and i just got through what i call loner week.
my mirrorless week. (apart from the carebears i brought along and named as mirrors)
monday to wednesday was spent with 24 kids from compassvale primary.
special little kids.
thursday to saturday was spent with 37 students from hong kah secondary.
really different experience i guess.
although it felt a little weird to not have anyone by your side to back you up or to guide you along at certain points of time, but i realised thats when i'm being made to step up the most.
i guess taking classes on my own gives me a lot of free space to express and connect with the kids using my own style of doing things.
i guess its through these two camps that ive learnt the most.
not just learning how to make the camp a memorable one for the campers, but also learning who would or would not be around for you should there come a point where you need help.
whee i guess when you have
campers start crying during campfire night.
campers crying because they thought that you werent taking the bus back to sch with them.
campers crying cos you're leaving them.
and even campers openly trying to date you.
yup. you know you're doing something right. making some sort of impact onto their lives.
another thing i like about taking solo groups i realise...
is not only that your working style won't clash with anyone else,
you'd also get the opportunity to know your campers much better.
to personally touch their hearts and change them for the better.
to give them your all.
though its harder to part at the end of the three days two nights,
but you know that it was worth every second every minute of it.
sigh too bad that i was too tired to do the mjc leadership camp.
wonder how that camp'd have been like. hmm =)
my mirrorless week. (apart from the carebears i brought along and named as mirrors)
monday to wednesday was spent with 24 kids from compassvale primary.
special little kids.
thursday to saturday was spent with 37 students from hong kah secondary.
really different experience i guess.
although it felt a little weird to not have anyone by your side to back you up or to guide you along at certain points of time, but i realised thats when i'm being made to step up the most.
i guess taking classes on my own gives me a lot of free space to express and connect with the kids using my own style of doing things.
i guess its through these two camps that ive learnt the most.
not just learning how to make the camp a memorable one for the campers, but also learning who would or would not be around for you should there come a point where you need help.
whee i guess when you have
campers start crying during campfire night.
campers crying because they thought that you werent taking the bus back to sch with them.
campers crying cos you're leaving them.
and even campers openly trying to date you.
yup. you know you're doing something right. making some sort of impact onto their lives.
another thing i like about taking solo groups i realise...
is not only that your working style won't clash with anyone else,
you'd also get the opportunity to know your campers much better.
to personally touch their hearts and change them for the better.
to give them your all.
though its harder to part at the end of the three days two nights,
but you know that it was worth every second every minute of it.
sigh too bad that i was too tired to do the mjc leadership camp.
wonder how that camp'd have been like. hmm =)
Monday, July 07, 2008
yo its been awhile.
second live ops!, andrew's last camp tampines sec, camp blueblood, engin camp, first day event for compassvale sec, guangyang sec, engin rag blast and night cycling, compassvale pri, hongkah sec.
disasterous engin results, lousy streaming.
well i guess that pretty much summed up my month.
my second live ops with yusoff ishak sec was a great huge difference from the first live ops. at least this time round i was confident in running the program myself. even in taking the entire force for drills. something that i could barely do for my own platoon the previous time round. when there are interforce competitions, and the kids choose to send you. i guess thats when you know, you've been doing something right. =)
andrew's last camp. tampines sec. a year ago i remembered doing tampines sec as my second andrew camp. a year later im back to do tampines sec again as his last official camp before he leaves HA. i guess it was really special to have ended andrew's last camp with what he also called a one year anniversary of the tampines sec camp. coming back to jbac with vaneh, specially for this last camp. great to see some of my students last year coming back to be student leaders for the camp. even winning the best student leader award. couldnt have been happier. mirrored hor heh rendall and xinyi for this camp too. you know. when andrew broke down at the end of the campfire. i suddenly understood how much this all meant to him.
pretty lucky to do kok choy's first cic camp too =) i think he makes a great cic. seriously. quite impressed by the way he handles stuff so far. and he's a really nice guy too. so yeah. eh eh continue my update after my long disappearence later =p
second live ops!, andrew's last camp tampines sec, camp blueblood, engin camp, first day event for compassvale sec, guangyang sec, engin rag blast and night cycling, compassvale pri, hongkah sec.
disasterous engin results, lousy streaming.
well i guess that pretty much summed up my month.
my second live ops with yusoff ishak sec was a great huge difference from the first live ops. at least this time round i was confident in running the program myself. even in taking the entire force for drills. something that i could barely do for my own platoon the previous time round. when there are interforce competitions, and the kids choose to send you. i guess thats when you know, you've been doing something right. =)
andrew's last camp. tampines sec. a year ago i remembered doing tampines sec as my second andrew camp. a year later im back to do tampines sec again as his last official camp before he leaves HA. i guess it was really special to have ended andrew's last camp with what he also called a one year anniversary of the tampines sec camp. coming back to jbac with vaneh, specially for this last camp. great to see some of my students last year coming back to be student leaders for the camp. even winning the best student leader award. couldnt have been happier. mirrored hor heh rendall and xinyi for this camp too. you know. when andrew broke down at the end of the campfire. i suddenly understood how much this all meant to him.
pretty lucky to do kok choy's first cic camp too =) i think he makes a great cic. seriously. quite impressed by the way he handles stuff so far. and he's a really nice guy too. so yeah. eh eh continue my update after my long disappearence later =p
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Saturday, May 24, 2008
backkk from st johns island!
first time being to sji ever. jbac warrior no more! lol.
brought liesel in for this camp too. bet it was hell of an experience. haha.
i definately had a lot of fun. im sure everyone did. =)
though i must admit that it felt really weird when people come up to me and say things like hey you lao jiao right how ar what should we do next?
made me feel the sudden added responsibility to do everything in my power to ensure that things run as smoothly as possible even though ive never touched this campsite before. ever.
figuring out and explaining games to others even though ive never touched some of them before.
telling people where to go what to do what to expect and how to go about doing it.
running around to help out with the logistics and to sign out all the dorms kitchens and all with the office people.
while still going crazy at the random-est moments =)
i guess after the last camp i really did change quite a lot of things.
i really tried to be the best mirror possible this camp.
like honestly seriously tried.
really did step out of my confort zone a lot.
from making good friends with the teacher in charge, and rubbishing with the kids
while making him go super hyper and crazy with me and the kids,
to seriously explaining not just the games, activities and itenaries, but also the smallest details of how things work such as how the bus rides go.
taking control of and rarh rarhing or entertaining the class whenever needed, while not overriding him, and still giving him space and opportunities to make some of those on the spot decisions as well as taking the class.
mirrors working hand in hand to make each activity a success.
whether or not its your first camp.
oh well though i realised though its his first HA camp, he did day camps before.
no wonder he picked up so fast despite it being his first camp.
though im still really glad that after the campfire when i asked how his first camp experience was,
his reply was awesome. great class and greatest and best mirror possible.
yessah. thats the way i want it to be.
something im gonna strive for and keep up with.
to seriously be a good mirror. =)
and im really glad that my kids can come up to tell me that though you're quite siao. but its because of that that the camp's so fun and enjoyable.
yesslah crazy ideas and crazy random things make the world go rounddd...
always felt that it was very xia sui to go crazy and do random sometimes stupid things or rarh rarh crazy stuff in front of campers. so i never did dare to do it.
but i'm really glad that im so over it now.
the camps are for the kids. always for the kids.
i only wish for them to bring back with them the best memories possible.
as well as to take with them the lessons learnt through out the camp.
and im glad that this time round i can confidently say that i did =)
pretty sad that andrew's leaving campha though.
i used to only do ridhwan and andrew's camps.
ridhwan's now in ak. and andrew's leaving HA.
wonder if im gonna continue here for long either though i honestly do enjoy myself loads.
oh well. so gonna do andrew's last camp even if its seriously gonna overload me for june.
especially since he asked. and its my one year anniversary for doing tampines sec with for andrew for last year's cohort.
no way im gonna miss doing his last camp
i at least owe him that after these years as well =)
oh yeah didnt make it back in time for titans this year cos it clashed with the camp dates.
but still...
BETA WON TITANS!
yesslah! like finally. haha. =)
ooh made it back for mardi gras though. update about that another time! =p
suddenly super shagged again. nights! =D
first time being to sji ever. jbac warrior no more! lol.
brought liesel in for this camp too. bet it was hell of an experience. haha.
i definately had a lot of fun. im sure everyone did. =)
though i must admit that it felt really weird when people come up to me and say things like hey you lao jiao right how ar what should we do next?
made me feel the sudden added responsibility to do everything in my power to ensure that things run as smoothly as possible even though ive never touched this campsite before. ever.
figuring out and explaining games to others even though ive never touched some of them before.
telling people where to go what to do what to expect and how to go about doing it.
running around to help out with the logistics and to sign out all the dorms kitchens and all with the office people.
while still going crazy at the random-est moments =)
i guess after the last camp i really did change quite a lot of things.
i really tried to be the best mirror possible this camp.
like honestly seriously tried.
really did step out of my confort zone a lot.
from making good friends with the teacher in charge, and rubbishing with the kids
while making him go super hyper and crazy with me and the kids,
to seriously explaining not just the games, activities and itenaries, but also the smallest details of how things work such as how the bus rides go.
taking control of and rarh rarhing or entertaining the class whenever needed, while not overriding him, and still giving him space and opportunities to make some of those on the spot decisions as well as taking the class.
mirrors working hand in hand to make each activity a success.
whether or not its your first camp.
oh well though i realised though its his first HA camp, he did day camps before.
no wonder he picked up so fast despite it being his first camp.
though im still really glad that after the campfire when i asked how his first camp experience was,
his reply was awesome. great class and greatest and best mirror possible.
yessah. thats the way i want it to be.
something im gonna strive for and keep up with.
to seriously be a good mirror. =)
and im really glad that my kids can come up to tell me that though you're quite siao. but its because of that that the camp's so fun and enjoyable.
yesslah crazy ideas and crazy random things make the world go rounddd...
always felt that it was very xia sui to go crazy and do random sometimes stupid things or rarh rarh crazy stuff in front of campers. so i never did dare to do it.
but i'm really glad that im so over it now.
the camps are for the kids. always for the kids.
i only wish for them to bring back with them the best memories possible.
as well as to take with them the lessons learnt through out the camp.
and im glad that this time round i can confidently say that i did =)
pretty sad that andrew's leaving campha though.
i used to only do ridhwan and andrew's camps.
ridhwan's now in ak. and andrew's leaving HA.
wonder if im gonna continue here for long either though i honestly do enjoy myself loads.
oh well. so gonna do andrew's last camp even if its seriously gonna overload me for june.
especially since he asked. and its my one year anniversary for doing tampines sec with for andrew for last year's cohort.
no way im gonna miss doing his last camp
i at least owe him that after these years as well =)
oh yeah didnt make it back in time for titans this year cos it clashed with the camp dates.
but still...
BETA WON TITANS!
yesslah! like finally. haha. =)
ooh made it back for mardi gras though. update about that another time! =p
suddenly super shagged again. nights! =D
Saturday, May 17, 2008
first ak experience. talk about it being an eye opener.
i think i got more than i expected.
never exactly expected live ops to be um haha literally live ops.
nothing i imagined it to be. at all. haha.
i still remember thinking on the first precamp day after i realised that we had to learn the drill commands... that omg i cant believe i pulled out of andrew's serangoon sec jbac camp for this.
jbac leh. could be happily rarh rarhing and kayaking away.
but at the end of the day. after breaking camp.
i guess i pretty much figured out what the emphasis of ak is about.
and i quite made sense of why things are done in that particular way.
lucky that i had a super zai and nice mirror who pretty much guided me and took care of me through out this camp.
if not id confirm chui the camp like crazy.
and i realised something. that i take quite long to adapt to new things. and i pretty much always buang things on the first attempt. =(
oh well. quite some culture shock. but i guess thats when we learn.
and one thing oliver vaneh and i all agreed on was that something we can definately take back from this is the debriefs.
ak's debriefs are really power. they really do make a difference =)
anyway having such a zai mirror by my side through the camp has made me think about quite a lot of stuff.
got the sudden urge to go figure more stuff out.
to improve myself to become a better instructor/trainer.
to start reading up on stuff that can help make my debriefs more meaningful and to put them across in a clearer, more structured manner.
to hype up activities more =)
oh well. though i feel i quite chui-ed this camp. looking on the brighter side. at least if i ever do live ops again, id be a lot readier and prepred for it =)
why stop at one, when you can change the lives of many.
why stop at one, when you can do so much more =)
i think i got more than i expected.
never exactly expected live ops to be um haha literally live ops.
nothing i imagined it to be. at all. haha.
i still remember thinking on the first precamp day after i realised that we had to learn the drill commands... that omg i cant believe i pulled out of andrew's serangoon sec jbac camp for this.
jbac leh. could be happily rarh rarhing and kayaking away.
but at the end of the day. after breaking camp.
i guess i pretty much figured out what the emphasis of ak is about.
and i quite made sense of why things are done in that particular way.
lucky that i had a super zai and nice mirror who pretty much guided me and took care of me through out this camp.
if not id confirm chui the camp like crazy.
and i realised something. that i take quite long to adapt to new things. and i pretty much always buang things on the first attempt. =(
oh well. quite some culture shock. but i guess thats when we learn.
and one thing oliver vaneh and i all agreed on was that something we can definately take back from this is the debriefs.
ak's debriefs are really power. they really do make a difference =)
anyway having such a zai mirror by my side through the camp has made me think about quite a lot of stuff.
got the sudden urge to go figure more stuff out.
to improve myself to become a better instructor/trainer.
to start reading up on stuff that can help make my debriefs more meaningful and to put them across in a clearer, more structured manner.
to hype up activities more =)
oh well. though i feel i quite chui-ed this camp. looking on the brighter side. at least if i ever do live ops again, id be a lot readier and prepred for it =)
why stop at one, when you can change the lives of many.
why stop at one, when you can do so much more =)
zai mirror =)
random thought: im so not gonna touch sushi for the next couple of months! rarh. =(
Monday, May 12, 2008
yayeee! exams are over! =)
back camping again. gonna take things nice and slow this time round.
not like last year. too fast too furious. too many back to backs.
first camp for eunice. radin mas pri 6. pretty insightful. very different.
the kota tinggi campsite and itenary was whoa pretty interesting.
pretty weird i admit to be seeing so many new faces.
luckily oliver came along too. =)
felt super rusty and chui though. guess it'd take me awhile more to warm back up to this. nevertheless, it was fun. =p
no idea why the kids liked the blind mans walk so much when i was just randomly bringing them round and round random places, while making them do random things. haha hmmm...
oh well. but one thing that struck me was how mature pri 6 kids could actually be.
i was quite heartened when some of my kids cried when we visited the physically and mentally disabled people's home and was interating with the toddlers and children there.
they cried not because they were scared of them. but because they felt for them.
coming from children from such a young age... wow.
and i was even more amazed when the guys engaged in an intellectual conversation about these people with me.
to find out more about their conditions and what they could do to help or make others aware of their conditions.
many hurrays. because what i see is hope. a lot of hope =)
say hi warriors! haha =)
ahmad my mirror!
radin mas instructors =p
Thursday, May 01, 2008
because my oac-ians always make me the happiest person on earth =)
was feeling super stressed and vexed after submitting the engin streaming form this afternoon.
and superrr sian diao that i wasnt even halfway through my electrical syllabus even though my paper's tomorrow afternoon. heh. at times like this, even the smallest things or gestures can mean the world to me. =p
thanks yanling for wanting to have lunch with me. sorry though for concussing halfway through our where should we have lunch conversation... oops =x haha.
thanks too mingwei for the bought you sth from japan message. =)
and most of all.. thanks liesel, blackie and gewww! for coming over to kr =)
for bring over popeyes and the tiramisu that i've been craving for so long. =p
but most of all for making the effort to travel all the way down here to visit and spend time out with me.
really enjoyed the company and the random talk. haven't felt so carefree in awhile. really really made my day =)
and the kr pple for constantly encouraging, helping and pushing me on.
and listening to my non stop whining. and for always injecting something special into each day.
peiching, yunhui, yishu, oliver, wormie, cheegake, huiling, yiwern and siewling.
and of course, my favourite shearite xinyi =D
thanks =)
when i count my blessings, i count you guys twice. =)
always.
was feeling super stressed and vexed after submitting the engin streaming form this afternoon.
and superrr sian diao that i wasnt even halfway through my electrical syllabus even though my paper's tomorrow afternoon. heh. at times like this, even the smallest things or gestures can mean the world to me. =p
thanks yanling for wanting to have lunch with me. sorry though for concussing halfway through our where should we have lunch conversation... oops =x haha.
thanks too mingwei for the bought you sth from japan message. =)
and most of all.. thanks liesel, blackie and gewww! for coming over to kr =)
for bring over popeyes and the tiramisu that i've been craving for so long. =p
but most of all for making the effort to travel all the way down here to visit and spend time out with me.
really enjoyed the company and the random talk. haven't felt so carefree in awhile. really really made my day =)
and the kr pple for constantly encouraging, helping and pushing me on.
and listening to my non stop whining. and for always injecting something special into each day.
peiching, yunhui, yishu, oliver, wormie, cheegake, huiling, yiwern and siewling.
and of course, my favourite shearite xinyi =D
thanks =)
when i count my blessings, i count you guys twice. =)
always.
Monday, April 28, 2008
and so the marathon has started.
i'll get through this day by day, paper by paper.
and before i know it, it'll be the 6th.
and i'll be momentarily freed.
mon, tues, wed, thurs, mon, tues.
fast and furious.
we'll all get through this together =)
studying with yishu, yunhui and oliver in the dining hall is always a blast.
feeling a little more focused this sem.
still a bit worried for the streaming...
but talking with teik zhen last night seriously made things feel a lot better.
probably cos he's the only one around who's also been there done that.
should seriously start talking to him more often. haha =)
math today. sigh. step by step we'll get through this. =)
i'll get through this day by day, paper by paper.
and before i know it, it'll be the 6th.
and i'll be momentarily freed.
mon, tues, wed, thurs, mon, tues.
fast and furious.
we'll all get through this together =)
studying with yishu, yunhui and oliver in the dining hall is always a blast.
feeling a little more focused this sem.
still a bit worried for the streaming...
but talking with teik zhen last night seriously made things feel a lot better.
probably cos he's the only one around who's also been there done that.
should seriously start talking to him more often. haha =)
math today. sigh. step by step we'll get through this. =)
Sunday, April 27, 2008
the expected is what we live for.
the unexpected is what changes our lives. =)
it's time to be who you are,
and say what you feel.
because those who mind don't matter.
and those who matter don't mind.
i can and i will. once the holidays are here =)
i can get through this.
shall we get through this together? =p
the unexpected is what changes our lives. =)
it's time to be who you are,
and say what you feel.
because those who mind don't matter.
and those who matter don't mind.
i can and i will. once the holidays are here =)
i can get through this.
shall we get through this together? =p
Friday, April 25, 2008
it's quite scary when you stop and think.
and you realise.
that you barely recognise the person standing opposite you when you look into the mirror.
such a pale shadow of the person you used to be.
being so down for nearly an entire year is not funny. at all.
it's so difficult when you finally find yourself, only to be let down by so many things within the same period of time.
when you're finally loud, happy, rarh rarh, confident, crazy, noisy, rubbished, positive, decisive, promising and all.
maybe it just takes a couple of really hard successive hits to bring someone down so low.
the knee and hip op the day after engin.
yeah it was probably my own fault that i took it so hard on myself.
but it was seriously a very frustrating struggle.
i still remember being so super pissed off that i could barely reach a slow jogging speed even when i was forcing myself to try to sprint during fwoc.
so pissed off i forced myself off crutches way too early. weeks before i was allowed to in a hope that i would regain back my independance. forcing myself to take part in sports though honestly i was only allowed to start running just before the ihg competition days itself.
its even more frustrating realising that i should really start retiring from sports.
still feeling the effects of the op even during things like block games.
but honestly what kind of pathetic captain would i make if i did.
like what we always say. lead by example. that i really believe in.
when you start seeing too much of the real world. until you get quite turned off by it even if it doesnt affect you directly. shant elaborate further. if you know, you know. heh. general disappointment with some people. sigh. maybe some day you'll understand.
when you sent me up and down that emotional rollercoaster ride. for gaining my trust and feelings. making it a fairytale before sending it suddenly crashing down. thanks for making me think twice before being able to trust or confide in people anymore. because i realise my judgement can be wrong. at the time when it mattered the most.
engin too. the vice dean for making that phone call to persuade me to accept the common engin offer. mistake. should have opted straight for chem eng. disappointing how you get left there stranded after accepting. one sem of screwed up clashing modules, weekly lab reports, lousy timetables and lectures and tutorials alone. like come on. whats the point of having a tutorial group in common engin. when i only take math as a common module with my classmates. and i don't even have the same lecture slot as them. and had to bid for my own class for tutorial. what rubbish. but you accept it since they promised to plan out a proper timetable for you the following semester. and when you thought it couldnt get any worse. they completely forget to plan timetable the following sem. leaving you with completely clashing modules which cors rejects. with them telling you that it's not possible at all for you to get into your choice of engin because the modules that you need to take clash. seriously. what rubbish. if you weren't ready to take in an oddcase student like me, why bother. and why bother to call me to ask me to accept the offer. thanks for leaving me stuck doing 6 engin core in a semester. having to get 4.0 for this sem alone which is blatantly impossible already to have a fighting chance to get into chem engin. if not i'd fall back one sem into some random engin. a trade off for certain exemptions because some people forgot to plan my timetable for me. thanks a lot. and now even if i can't make it into chem engin. i can only "qualify" based on certain exemptions which i'd have to fulfill later on environmental engin. rank the 9 engin disciplines according to your choice of interest. fake. tell me where the 9 are. and the streaming is so competitive this year. how do you feel if you're a student out of a cohort of a thousand plus, fighting for like 10 plus, or less than 10 spaces for the engin of your choice. especially when you're already starting in the most disadvantageous scenerio possible. how would you feel if that one choice is the ony choice that you've ever wanted. seriously you'd never understand how freaking frustrating the entire thing is. unless. unless it happened to you. sometimes i really don't know why i bother.
expectations expectations expectations. so what if i did well for the a levels. so what if i used to hold certain positions. i'll be honest. i hate being pressured to live up to expectations. give me some space to breathe. i hate being forced to make rash decisions. i don't like being forced into things. i make my decisions as and when i like and need to. you know... actually usually when i sound very uncertain or don't want to give you a confirmed answer or act as if i don't really dare to do something because of something else. i would already have made my decision. which would hardly ever be suayed even if i'm mmm ahh okie true-ing you. i only make decisions on my own if i'm confident of succeeding in whatever i've decided on. i do happen to have my own chain of thoughts. and i'm actually very confident of the things i do. i'm tired of always remembering to have to say the right thing. if that's always the way, i still think i'd rather just shut up and listen and not comment.
i don't like being so quiet like i am now. i don't like having nothing to say. i don't like being too tired of thinking of a conversation topic to crap to you about. actually im quite unconfortable with it. but i don't know. for quite awhile already i've already long relegated myself to that. it's weird having nothing to say. but i somehow cant get myself to move past it these days.
i must i must use the upcoming holidays to find back myself. i don't want to be remembered as this shadow. i want to be remembered as me. =)
now that i've been so honest with how i feel and how i think. will you be honest back to me? heh.
the one thing i love about this blog. that few people know about its existance. so i can really say whatever i wish/want to say. i can find myself. i will. =)
random. was reading ridhwan's blog. actually i really enjoy reading his blog. always lets you see a different perspective to life. makes you rethink and keep in mind some things. sensible, motivational entries. yes la. ridhwan rocks. =)
alright. i think the lack of sleep is getting to me soon. back to mugging though.
i really really need the 4.0.
i can i can get into chem engin.
though i've had one too many academic shake ups already.
but still...
did you really think i'd have accepted common engin if i wasn't confident of getting in? haha. food for thought. =)
and you realise.
that you barely recognise the person standing opposite you when you look into the mirror.
such a pale shadow of the person you used to be.
being so down for nearly an entire year is not funny. at all.
it's so difficult when you finally find yourself, only to be let down by so many things within the same period of time.
when you're finally loud, happy, rarh rarh, confident, crazy, noisy, rubbished, positive, decisive, promising and all.
maybe it just takes a couple of really hard successive hits to bring someone down so low.
the knee and hip op the day after engin.
yeah it was probably my own fault that i took it so hard on myself.
but it was seriously a very frustrating struggle.
i still remember being so super pissed off that i could barely reach a slow jogging speed even when i was forcing myself to try to sprint during fwoc.
so pissed off i forced myself off crutches way too early. weeks before i was allowed to in a hope that i would regain back my independance. forcing myself to take part in sports though honestly i was only allowed to start running just before the ihg competition days itself.
its even more frustrating realising that i should really start retiring from sports.
still feeling the effects of the op even during things like block games.
but honestly what kind of pathetic captain would i make if i did.
like what we always say. lead by example. that i really believe in.
when you start seeing too much of the real world. until you get quite turned off by it even if it doesnt affect you directly. shant elaborate further. if you know, you know. heh. general disappointment with some people. sigh. maybe some day you'll understand.
when you sent me up and down that emotional rollercoaster ride. for gaining my trust and feelings. making it a fairytale before sending it suddenly crashing down. thanks for making me think twice before being able to trust or confide in people anymore. because i realise my judgement can be wrong. at the time when it mattered the most.
engin too. the vice dean for making that phone call to persuade me to accept the common engin offer. mistake. should have opted straight for chem eng. disappointing how you get left there stranded after accepting. one sem of screwed up clashing modules, weekly lab reports, lousy timetables and lectures and tutorials alone. like come on. whats the point of having a tutorial group in common engin. when i only take math as a common module with my classmates. and i don't even have the same lecture slot as them. and had to bid for my own class for tutorial. what rubbish. but you accept it since they promised to plan out a proper timetable for you the following semester. and when you thought it couldnt get any worse. they completely forget to plan timetable the following sem. leaving you with completely clashing modules which cors rejects. with them telling you that it's not possible at all for you to get into your choice of engin because the modules that you need to take clash. seriously. what rubbish. if you weren't ready to take in an oddcase student like me, why bother. and why bother to call me to ask me to accept the offer. thanks for leaving me stuck doing 6 engin core in a semester. having to get 4.0 for this sem alone which is blatantly impossible already to have a fighting chance to get into chem engin. if not i'd fall back one sem into some random engin. a trade off for certain exemptions because some people forgot to plan my timetable for me. thanks a lot. and now even if i can't make it into chem engin. i can only "qualify" based on certain exemptions which i'd have to fulfill later on environmental engin. rank the 9 engin disciplines according to your choice of interest. fake. tell me where the 9 are. and the streaming is so competitive this year. how do you feel if you're a student out of a cohort of a thousand plus, fighting for like 10 plus, or less than 10 spaces for the engin of your choice. especially when you're already starting in the most disadvantageous scenerio possible. how would you feel if that one choice is the ony choice that you've ever wanted. seriously you'd never understand how freaking frustrating the entire thing is. unless. unless it happened to you. sometimes i really don't know why i bother.
expectations expectations expectations. so what if i did well for the a levels. so what if i used to hold certain positions. i'll be honest. i hate being pressured to live up to expectations. give me some space to breathe. i hate being forced to make rash decisions. i don't like being forced into things. i make my decisions as and when i like and need to. you know... actually usually when i sound very uncertain or don't want to give you a confirmed answer or act as if i don't really dare to do something because of something else. i would already have made my decision. which would hardly ever be suayed even if i'm mmm ahh okie true-ing you. i only make decisions on my own if i'm confident of succeeding in whatever i've decided on. i do happen to have my own chain of thoughts. and i'm actually very confident of the things i do. i'm tired of always remembering to have to say the right thing. if that's always the way, i still think i'd rather just shut up and listen and not comment.
i don't like being so quiet like i am now. i don't like having nothing to say. i don't like being too tired of thinking of a conversation topic to crap to you about. actually im quite unconfortable with it. but i don't know. for quite awhile already i've already long relegated myself to that. it's weird having nothing to say. but i somehow cant get myself to move past it these days.
i must i must use the upcoming holidays to find back myself. i don't want to be remembered as this shadow. i want to be remembered as me. =)
now that i've been so honest with how i feel and how i think. will you be honest back to me? heh.
the one thing i love about this blog. that few people know about its existance. so i can really say whatever i wish/want to say. i can find myself. i will. =)
random. was reading ridhwan's blog. actually i really enjoy reading his blog. always lets you see a different perspective to life. makes you rethink and keep in mind some things. sensible, motivational entries. yes la. ridhwan rocks. =)
alright. i think the lack of sleep is getting to me soon. back to mugging though.
i really really need the 4.0.
i can i can get into chem engin.
though i've had one too many academic shake ups already.
but still...
did you really think i'd have accepted common engin if i wasn't confident of getting in? haha. food for thought. =)
sigh alrights.
while i'm trying to make sense of what i'm supposed to be studying,
and partially emo-ing over the streaming which is so scarily competitive this year.
i mean like in a cohort of a thousand plus you can be fighting for like 10plus, 8 or 4 places for the engin of your choice.
doesn't help that you're obviously not the top notch engineer of your time.
zero interest = jialat.
cannot. must focus focus focus. it'd be over soon.
at least it'd be good to know that at least at the end of the day i did try.
at least for the study week to make the most of what i have and can do.
not that i'd have no regrets cos its obvious that i already screwed up my year one.
but at least lesser regrets is better than yeah you know.
oh well.
anyway,
stress reliever:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dVhRlsw4-HE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pHjVZVtXW0s
omggg. david cook really melts my heart away la. billie jean as well.
amazing vocal performance as always.
whoa. =D
hahahaha and wheee
http://youtube.com/watch?v=s8MDNFaGfT4
you so so so have to love this. =)
oliver introduced this to me. and im still so highly amazed by it. lol =D
its peanut butter jelly time! haha =)
anyway, i realised more than ever. even when certain friends disappoint you so,
there are always those few who are always there for you.
thanks for the listening ears, thanks for the concern.
though i hardly ever verbally say this but...
honestly i really appreciate it.
and also thanks froggie... for dropping by with the pao pao cha too =)
the things your friends can do to make your day =)
back to mugging! lol.
while i'm trying to make sense of what i'm supposed to be studying,
and partially emo-ing over the streaming which is so scarily competitive this year.
i mean like in a cohort of a thousand plus you can be fighting for like 10plus, 8 or 4 places for the engin of your choice.
doesn't help that you're obviously not the top notch engineer of your time.
zero interest = jialat.
cannot. must focus focus focus. it'd be over soon.
at least it'd be good to know that at least at the end of the day i did try.
at least for the study week to make the most of what i have and can do.
not that i'd have no regrets cos its obvious that i already screwed up my year one.
but at least lesser regrets is better than yeah you know.
oh well.
anyway,
stress reliever:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dVhRlsw4-HE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pHjVZVtXW0s
omggg. david cook really melts my heart away la. billie jean as well.
amazing vocal performance as always.
whoa. =D
hahahaha and wheee
http://youtube.com/watch?v=s8MDNFaGfT4
you so so so have to love this. =)
oliver introduced this to me. and im still so highly amazed by it. lol =D
its peanut butter jelly time! haha =)
anyway, i realised more than ever. even when certain friends disappoint you so,
there are always those few who are always there for you.
thanks for the listening ears, thanks for the concern.
though i hardly ever verbally say this but...
honestly i really appreciate it.
and also thanks froggie... for dropping by with the pao pao cha too =)
the things your friends can do to make your day =)
back to mugging! lol.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
come to think about it.
i'm actually more disappointed because i actually bothered about you.
how i actually bothered to give you a listening ear.
to have tried to help by talking to you.
to have spoken up to defended you and your actions when others talked about it.
to have actually cared as a friend.
i see now more than ever who you really are.
no amount of facade would let me see you the way you used to be.
because its only now that i know what you truly are.
do whatever you wish.
i really couldn't care more.
i'm actually more disappointed because i actually bothered about you.
how i actually bothered to give you a listening ear.
to have tried to help by talking to you.
to have spoken up to defended you and your actions when others talked about it.
to have actually cared as a friend.
i see now more than ever who you really are.
no amount of facade would let me see you the way you used to be.
because its only now that i know what you truly are.
do whatever you wish.
i really couldn't care more.
perhaps friends are just the people who end up disappointing you the most.
better friends, even worse.
and when you thought you'd learnt enough to protect yourself from such people,
someone steps in once again with an even bigger magnitude.
someone you once thought you would probably be able to trust.
perhaps disappointment is not strong enough a word.
but then now that im so used to such rubbish.
it makes no difference to me.
i can do with one less person to talk to.
thanks.
too bad its scary how indifferent i've learnt to become.
better friends, even worse.
and when you thought you'd learnt enough to protect yourself from such people,
someone steps in once again with an even bigger magnitude.
someone you once thought you would probably be able to trust.
perhaps disappointment is not strong enough a word.
but then now that im so used to such rubbish.
it makes no difference to me.
i can do with one less person to talk to.
thanks.
too bad its scary how indifferent i've learnt to become.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
boo while im at home with a working laptop for once (my laptop really cmi these days) sigh.
shall update a bit before i go into mia status.
they say a picture speaks a thousand words right?
there's a super long essay/thesis. lol.
many thousand words =p
johnny johnny johnny whoosh's birthday =)
yanling, sheepie and liyuan
bird-attack! wishing sheepie a happy happy birthday! =)
april's fool 2008. haha while being under constant attack from the guys...
yes la! the girls still rocked!
haha super super excitingly fun =)
cant wait for next year =D
omggg now what's this?!
heh. ice delivery anyone?
frozen underwear cocktail.
serving underwears frozen with soap shampoo and a whole lot of perfume together with rose syrup muahaha... interested?
exhibition of the d-block guy's undies
yes la! girl power =p
whee diva's night 2008 =)
DIVAS indeed =)
dance =)
epitome of funkaye
super funkaye photo. love it =)
d-blk's very own very famous band =p
whee shall update again on command after our block command =)
provided im not mugging for my cm test this week (which im supposed to be mugging for)
haha. alrights. thats it for now... cyaaa!
shall update a bit before i go into mia status.
they say a picture speaks a thousand words right?
there's a super long essay/thesis. lol.
many thousand words =p
johnny johnny johnny whoosh's birthday =)
our make shift johnny who wasnt around for us to celebrate his birthday with =p
happy birthday, love glacius! lol.
sheepie sheepie duuu where are youuu's birthday =)
amanda and i
yanling, sheepie and liyuan
bird-attack! wishing sheepie a happy happy birthday! =)
april's fool 2008. haha while being under constant attack from the guys...
yes la! the girls still rocked!
haha super super excitingly fun =)
cant wait for next year =D
omggg now what's this?!
heh. ice delivery anyone?
frozen underwear cocktail.
serving underwears frozen with soap shampoo and a whole lot of perfume together with rose syrup muahaha... interested?
exhibition of the d-block guy's undies
yes la! girl power =p
whee diva's night 2008 =)
DIVAS indeed =)
dance =)
epitome of funkaye
super funkaye photo. love it =)
d-blk's very own very famous band =p
whee shall update again on command after our block command =)
provided im not mugging for my cm test this week (which im supposed to be mugging for)
haha. alrights. thats it for now... cyaaa!
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